Randomizer...

It's my part of the play now, if I do my role well... I don't know about the reward but self-satisfaction is certain! 
'Self-satisfaction', I don't remember if I've ever worked so hard as to satisfy myself?! Hmmm...Anyway, I am still alive and I guess, I am going to be there for long, and there is ALWAYS room for improvement, isn't it?


"I'm into you" by JLo is an AMAZING track, that tune has been continually meandering in my head... :))


It's been raining cats and dogs since 2days now...it's exasperating!


'Friends' and 'Everybody loves Raymond' are the best comedy sitcoms there can ever be. These are invincible!


Challenges- Scary but great experience providers. I believe, challenges can turn into great opportunities provided they are smartly and sincerely dealt with. 


Sometimes even extreme weariness doesn't do enough to put you to sleep.


Advises-  Available in plethora. Why do people love to advice? Can't they just shut-up and advice only when asked to! You know, sometimes people should just stop putting in their little unasked-for suggestions and let you experience things (whether good or bad) by yourself.


Mumbai's most loved festival 'Ganesh Chaturthi' has almost arrived...looking forward to it :) :)
Except for the traffic part, as along with festivals comes the traffic jam! Traffic in Mumbai has been incessant since past few weeks.


'The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others' - an eminently true quote... I still need to instill this in my life!

Hoping for betterment and persistence

I am so flaked out right now, it was a long long day! I don't remember the last time I was this active for an entire day! Anyway, day before yesterday I made an eminently important decision, it's more of a risk actually... maybe not from anyone else's point of view but for me, it's quite bold a decision. I hope things work out well. I don't wanna speak more on it and jinx it!  


Two quotes that I stumbled across today and instantly fell in love with...
"If you judge people, You have no time left to love them" - Mother Teresa (that's so perfect!)
And
"The things that made me stronger are the ones that didn't let me sleep at first"


And 
'Rain over me' by Marc Anthony and Pitbull, is what I love these days. Nothing can compete R & B and Pop!! :)

Dedicated to: Respectable Mr Anna Hazare

74 years old Anna Hazare is been in Jail for 8 straight days now, without having a morsel! I guess for the first time, I've seen public rallies, awareness and support campaigns and candle marches happening, NOT on account of a terrorist attack or an innocent victim's elongated murder court case! I mean, usually, as per the recent past record,  the masses would react so vigorously only on loss of life or lives. Now, people finally realize that social evils like corruption act as slow poison and it's killing a huge part of the populace simultaneously. 


Though, I personally have done nothing to support this movement except for promoting this ideology, I hope this movement helps to clean our country a bit at least! Had it not been for this old man's initiative and gallantry, we would have never gone this far too! He has brought in a revolution and a hope for the better future of this country. I salute him and his courage!


There are still many people criticizing him but I fail to understand, how can they not see that he was the only one who stood up, spoke and took actions against corruption while we sat at home, cribbing about our country being in corrupted hands and doing nothing whatsoever!!       

Abruptly Absurd or Absurdly Abrupt !!

I turned on my computer, at this point in time, despite of having class at 7AM tomorrow or rather today and considering the fact that I am "super-punctual" and "highly determined" towards attending my actually valuable and imperative lectures, it's an audacious thing to do!! But I needed to blog this as I wanted me to understand the importance of what I've lost and what I still hold the ability to lose! Today, all day, I kept lecturing myself and this is the last rebuke of the day...!! Please for heaven's sake, UNDERSTAND the earnestness of the situation 'Mr stupid and ignorant mind' or else you know what can happen!! 
(The title of this post very efficiently defines me!!)


Anyway, it hurts when SOME people stop missing you and they are absolutely fine and cool with your absence! When life gets monotonous, we realize the importance of 'Change'. Be it good or bad, changes are required!! There can be nothing worse than living in monotony!! 


The 'coyote ugly' movie soundtrack is amazing, I like almost all songs of the movie.


But the song that suits me the most in most of the situations is 'Main aisa kyun hun...', a Hindi song from a bolly movie 'Lakhshya'. If they ever decide to make a female version of that song, they just CANNOT find a better specimen than me to enact it (I don't mind singing it either but then I am dubious of whether any sane person would ever take heart to hear it!)

My Dreamsville to the rescue !! :)

I feel that there's something missing... I know everyone always feels so, invariably. I mean you get these pangs, when you feel that something very important is left incomplete but you don't know what it is and if at all you are aware about it, you don't know how to fix this anxiety! 
I am never complacent, I somehow always manage to find out a thing that is not going right, every time. I know a lot of people don't embrace this trait of mine but I cannot help it, it's me, that's how I am and no one in this world is absolutely sanctimonious! Each person has various odds.
I wish I knew how to meditate, I wish I was not so reluctant in doing it...
I didn't know what to do as I was feeling very restless so I decided to blog. I love writing, I don't know what I would've done without it and especially this blog, it really has helped me a lot. 
"Thank you" by Dido is real good (I guess, I've mentioned this song before).  
(I was talking to a friend, amid this post now, who too was feeling sleepless and wanted to speak to someone so I got digressed for a while...)
Mood Swings are bizarre! Sometimes you crave company and sometimes you crave solitude. Sometimes you wish to party hard and sometimes you want to be in a silent and peaceful atmosphere. Why is it so that most of us are oscillating between our own several wants, why cant we be steadfast of what we want in life and from life... 
I remember having a plan for my life some 4 years back but I failed the execution process and since then no plan has ever worked for me... It's not a bad thing, not having a plan. It's OK. You can pave your way as you walk. 
I had gone to a cafe today with a bunch of friends and there was this guy there, playing guitar to entertain the customers, he sang and played Enrique's 'Hero'...that tune is still playing in my head and this has linked me to a few other Enrique numbers. I like 'Ring my bells' and 'Tired of being sorry' and many more of his songs...ugh he's so cute.. :) :)
I am too sleepy now...signing off...

Awry me......

In the past week, I learnt, how timely victory is important. When you have no one to celebrate with, to share that free feeling with and to discuss the worries of the road ahead, the victory loses its essence. This co-relates with my earlier blogpost ‘Man, truly a social animal’.

When I was struggling with PCC, many used to say that it is good that you have got a few friends, who are also struggling with the same thing but I didn’t agree to it as I always feel that my struggle is my struggle, it doesn’t matter if I have co-equals or not!

I personally feel that if you don’t have a compeer while you are struggling, it is okay. I know, it adds to the misery and you get more frustrated and dejected for a while but even if you have a company while you are failing, you will still be disconsolate, it doesn’t make life any easier. Its just your state of mind, you feel good when you know that you are not the only one suffering and making mistakes!! On the other hand, when you don’t have companions to celebrate your accomplishments, it lessens the happiness and ruins your moment.

It is always better to be sadder when you are already sad rather than being sad and lonely when you should be oozing with glee!!   

The last week has been indeed an awakening week, full of changes and epiphanies. I had to gulp in the bad and adjust with them, I had to battle with the negative me in order to have truce with positivism (this is still in progress)…

And, accepting that my perception of looking at life has been erroneous was very difficult but, what is even tougher is mutation…and I don’t know how long will the metamorphosis take...

Garrison Wynn is an amazing speaker, I read a few of his speeches and I quite liked them.

Boss- a soul without heart

Why do bosses consider us as their slaves? They don’t have any right over our life. I am so annoyed with my boss. He is an epitome and a perfect manifestation of selfishness, a devil incarnate!! I know everyone wants their work to be done but it should not be at the cost of losing your humanity and dignity. My boss can fall to any extent for getting his work done.

He is a CA and I am an intern. He must’ve gone through all the pressure that I am going through now; still he chooses to be monstrous to me and my career. This is not just my story but it is commonly shared by 90% of the Article-intern community.

Our teachers say that one day even we will become like them and our bosses are the replica of our future. Is it true? Will I turn into a heartless and sadist demon too?

Oh god please, I don’t want to turn into a person, who doesn’t think it is wrong to be a trouble-maker for several people. I don’t want to be cursed by scores of people. Please help me to maintain my humanity in the future.

What the heck…I know, I am never going to be as devilish as him. I know, I will never play with people’s careers…not for the life of me!!

I know people, who have bosses that are so angelic, they understand them and do not play evil career-killers. These bosses are also successful and they too get their work done but they do stand by their dignity!!

(Phew… I am feeling so much better now!!) 

Rather me...

The closed door opened, when she just started exploring a small new path,

She was attracted towards that bright light coming from the other side of the grand opened gateway.

And then, she discerned that she’ll never be able to walk on the newly discovered path…

She was ambling towards the enticing gateway and hoping that the small path, she had carved when she had no hope of the shut door opening, shall meet the road beyond the gateway.... 

I got to live it

When people are happy because of you and for you, it makes you feel worth living and I finally got to catch a glimpse of that moment, when you feel worth living...

Phew...I am still in awe

(I feel so emotional posting this one here..)

I finally defeated the demon, though I realize, this was the small one and the real son of evil still awaits me...

Finally getting to see that big, wide and hearty grin (that you caused) on your parents' faces is priceless...

Still cannot belive it...!! 

I am falling short of words to articulate this alleviation...It has happened only because of the Almighty and everyone's prayers... I hope, I dont dissapoint them ever again !!

And, the statement I was dying to own, since past 3years: 

  FINALLY REACHED THE FINALS !!

Why the heck do you always assume things about people?!

I have become so grumpy these days. It's not at all difficult to tick me off!! Goodness me...!! I am fuming even now when I am typing about it!! 

Anyway, I had been wanting to blog since my rickety computer went in for repairs and when it got back, I just couldn't write here anymore. It always happens like that, you talk to this one person in your mind a 100 times but when that person comes in front of you, you are unable to utter a friggin word to him/her. In that one moment, you imagine that person giving countless different reactions to what you will say and then you end up not saying anything!! Why do we always assume what the opposite person is thinking or will say or will do or blah?? Isn't it stupid to have such silly assumptions?! 

We never know what is going on in the opposite person's head, just as they don't know what we are thinking but still both will have certain assumptions as to each other's take and comprehension about an issue or topic or feelings...

This assumption thing has been driving me crazy since months. It really plays badly with your head. It is always better to communicate rather than drawing conclusions on the basis of some baseless assumptions!! Your conjectures can really hurt you more than any other person.


It is so easy to be negative, right? Many a times, I find it eminently difficult to be positive about people. It is very important to be positive about the people in your life rather more important than being positive about your own life. Being positive about them is equivalent to trusting them, if you take them in a negative way, it implies that you have lost trust in them. It's better to quit postulating other people's intentions!! 


The monsoon blues are incessant...it keeps getting gloomier and darker...