Is the past really past??

No matter how much you try, you cannot get rid of your past. Those broken pieces somewhere still poke your heart. The past is a part of you, just as the present and the future are. The past is always present in you, it never leaves you, not even for a minute! BUT, you can leave the past if you want to, though it is immensely arduous to do so!


Watching Oprah Winfrey shows that are about forgetting, moving on and  FORGIVING, is not just it. I've seen so many of them. Without a doubt they inspire me but the implementation is such a gradual process that at one moment, you don't even feel that the process is moving a tad bit! After watching people who too have suffered a lot but have forgiven their abusers and pain-givers, you feel like even you should forgive and learn to move on. 
When you actually start practicing it, it's not an ounce easy. Maybe that's why 'Forgiving' is the biggest lesson that you have to learn and it takes numerous life-times to learn so.


(And I am not referring to some silly fights or issues between friends or some short-term failures...There are things bigger and badder than this but we often forget and land ourselves in such worthless and unnecessary troubles)


"I can forgive but never forget"
I don't understand why people make use of this statement, even I use it! See, if you don't forget that means you still remember the agony, the suffering and unless you let go all those feelings and surpass it, you cannot forgive. 
Forgetting is forgiving, this is what I have assimilated over the years, though I don't follow it hard-core but I genuinely try. Most of the times I am not willing to forget, even if I want to, I don't let me forget... 
I hope I implement my own beliefs in my own life soon... I know it can do me a world of good! 


Why is self- alleviation of sorrows and agony so difficult? Isn't life already too harsh for us to be so hard on ourslves?!


Also, 
'Never judge a book by its cover'.
You never know what the other person has gone through. Every person has got dark secrets, of which hardly anyone knows!


Anyway, I better study now, it's my last exam tomorrow (or rather today!) and I am still left with a big chunk of the portion. But now at least for the next 6months, there wont be anymore exams....phew!

Enticed...

I do not have anything in my mind to blog right now but since my computer is working perfectly fine :) (touchwood), I got enticed to post something.

'Who owns my heart' by Miley Cyrus is :))))

Bloomer died- RIP

I failed to take care of a plant, I guess I should drop the idea of getting a pet :(

People are so different. Sometimes I am flabbergasted with the way different people react in differing situations. Why is everyone so different? How can a single circumstance get umpteen different reactions? HUMANS are so confusing, it is very difficult to understand even one and most of the times, that one human is you yourself... I still don't understand myself and I know that I will take this entire lifetime to fathom me, and maybe my future lives too! Cluelessness is the most frequent feeling that runs inside me....

'Hiding my heart' by Adele is enchanting...

I've been so out of touch with writing. I mean, I do blog and write in my diary and blue book too. But content writing and the like, I miss! 

I had to choose... I loathe selecting out of two things I desperately need to let my life work in order... why do certain valuable and beloved things have to be mutually exclusive :(((

'Dil toh pagal Hain' really makes you believe someone somewhere is made for you and once the movie is over, the reality is back and you discern that it always happens in the movies. 

There so many characters from so many different movies that I would love to be... I was just musing the other day, oftentimes the actors who play certain characters in a movie and have been working on it for months would get attached to their reel roles so much that they would never want to get back to their real life, it would be so difficult to deal with such situations. Acting as a profession is not a child's play!

Speaking of  actors, I have been reading Shobha De's column since a past few months now and I feel she really has some major issues with these actors and their lifestyle. Could there be any more interesting and fun way to mint bucks?! Attending parties, going to places, meeting big people and then writing fowl about them...hmmm.... love her or hate her but you cannot ignore her!

P.S. I love the new look for my blog :D

Finally...!!

Yes, my comp is back again and here I am blogging via it after long :)
Since days I wanted to blog but it turns out blackberry internet package doesn't go with blogger :(
See, yet another flaw... But I have decided I will embrace my BB absolutely now on. So here it is, I LOVE MY BB! (lol...that wasn't easy !)

All the excitement I had about partying after exams fell flat! I really shouldn't have been so enthusiastic about it at such an earlier stage.

One of my very close friend is getting married and I wish her new life turns out to be a great success! I am very happy and glad for her!

Today, I had gone out with a few friends, there is this one friend of mine, who is very critical about everything. When he looks at a person, the first thing that ever comes out of him is a negative comment, he has this habit or rather this is his basic characteristic! Sick!
Who the hell does he think he is.... I can get more tattoos and piercings on my body if I want so and no person on the face of this earth has the power to stop me! Get some substance in your life dude...oooppss did I say 'DUDE', I meant 'DUD'
And it's not just him, I know a few others too, who keep criticizing people like that!
Such kind of people think of themselves as the 'enlightened ones'... I don't think they deserve more of my words... Wannabe morons!

It gets a little confusing though, you like it when people compliment you unexpectedly but when the other set of people criticize for the same, you cannot take it! 
But you know what, in this case, these people who criticize or comment are the ones whom I don't give a shit about! If the genuine and important ones criticize, I can take that!


"Only you" is my new favorite these days.
During the exam leave I saw a lot of movies, on television of course (yes, the studies were on too).
'Sex and the city' - Sinful but enticing and fun... Carrie Bradshaw, I wouldn't mind being her! I would love to have a column of my own in a newspaper (I wish this happens).


Couples, relationships, commitments and the sorts have been all over the place now. Being the only single one between people who are all either in a relationship or in a 'sort of' relationship can get bugging at times. No, I am not a desperate damsel but when you are surrounded by lovers all the time, it is lucid that you will feel 'out of love' even if you are not those kinds, who are eager and day-dream about being in love. 
Then you eat a gooey dough-nut or an Oreo Ice-cream and that stupid 'out of love' feeling vanishes away completely! Food is the perfect solution to all problems.... at least my problems :))


I am very tired now as another set of exams is on.... so hooroo for now!
Love being back :))