Happily Nostalgic!

I just finished my last article. I just hope the agency doesn't kick me out for another late submission. 
*fingers crossed*

Anyway so, I was just about to shut down the comp but I thought of turning on the TV first, for sometime before sleeping and started shuffling the channels. I stumbled on a channel named Z Smile and what do I see... 'Rishtey' is being shown on the channel...
Back in the late 90's 'Rishtey' used to come on Zee TV, once a week on Sundays at 10PM... and I used to love it, I never used to miss it. What a lovely show! One new story in every episode.
I am watching it right now and am feeling happily nostalgic... I am feeling as though, I am still that 7 year old girl watching TV and eating fast food at home since it's Sunday and we used to order food at home on every Sunday!

Thank you Mr God for this silly little amazing moment! :D

[Episode-Rishtey: Lucky 7, 1997]

Hmmmm......

:D :D

me love music & movies

So yaa yesterday I did see 'One missed call'
I'd been planning to watch it since like years and I finally did it yesterday!
The movie was good but not better than 'I know who killed me'. The psychological quotient, thrill and suspense was much better in'I know...'

Listening to 'Hey there Delilah' by Plain White T...
i L-O-V-E this track! The first time I heard it was on some American singing reality show and that very moment I fell in love with it! I also loved the way that female contestant sang it... it was great!
"Ohhh it's what you do to me,
 Ohhh it's what you do to me..."

P.S.: I got the title from my labels ;P ;) 

I know who killed me

I just finished watching 'I know who killed me' and I just have to admit that I haven't seen a horror/thriller movie like this one, in a long while!
Shit.... Totally awestruck!
I loved it to the core!
I had coldcreeps during the entire movie... it was so damn scary!
Phew...
How I truly love horror flicks! They scare the shit out of me but then that is the real fun about it!
Planning to watch another horror flick now! :D

'I know who killed me' is totally worth a watch! Absolutely amazing movie! It's a hair-raiser!

:D :D :D

Gift of the murk...

Sitting at the wide window and staring out, when the world around is surrounded with murk and the roads are empty with nothing even nearly human being visible to the naked eye, when the light looming from the street lights dimly brightens up the trees, when there's only silence, silence which consists of the sound of breeze gushing swiftly and remnants of rainwater on the tree leaves sprinkling down, when the moon is looking straight into your eyes... while rest of the world has surrendered to sleep... and it feels nothing but peaceful and serene. 


You know, nights are not always scary... because sometimes, it is this darkness that you need, this sound of silence is what is missing inside you and this peace... is a priceless gift from Mr God and Mother Nature...  

Time zonal

26th June, 2:14AM

Iktara from Wake up Sid is an all time favorite. Both versions. :)

"Ik raat baasi baasi padhi hain sirhane, band darwaaja dekhe roti hain subah..."

And, phew... Español no es fácil!
(i.e. Spanish is not easy!)

I have developed this strange habit of listening to movies while writing, instead of music... Perhaps the boring subjects are culpable for this...

So 'Listening' to Before Sunset! :)

26th June, 2:14PM


I never expected me to be soooooo late for an assignment! I am amused at my capacity of flippancy!

Kishore kumar's Music is something to die for! :) :)

Estoy feliz! :) :D

"Bailamos, let the rhythm take you over Bailamos... Te quiero amor mio..." by Enrique is one awesome number of all times! Enrique Iglesias is a gifted man. Amazingly sexy voice, looks, body and music... Damn, how can you not be his fan!


I have fallen in love with espaniol (spanish)... Have started taking online lessons. :D :)

Ugh

Instrumentals-I love!
Listening to fatal attraction.

Deadline tomorrow- everything's pending!
Why? Why the hell do I HAVE to procrastinate every bloody thing!

Awful Mood- Various Reasons.

Met some old friends today... Friends, really??
To be true, they were more of a boring set of strangers.
Not going would've been a better option if I was given that alternative!

Spent a lot this week- Guilty!
Also ate a lot- Guilty again!

Have been hiding... myself, things, habits...

Losing the grip totally!

I have been truly and totally spaced out!

Fucked up! :S 

Moving along with the scars...

"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now"


*sigh*


Whatever... it was a bad phase and I can already feel that it's fading away... it may leave behind its remnants but at least a major chunk will be let gone... which is good, isn't it?!


I discerned, I cannot brood for more than 3 days, that's the limit for me! Even when Badimummy passed away, I cried like crazy for 2 days, then on the 3rd day all tears had dried up and I went blank and after the 3rd day I started accepting things the way they were... and the similar thing happened now... 


Black pages are present in every person's life; you weep, yell, brood and finally you move on but moving on doesn't mean you forget about it completely. Just the way every page is a part of a book, every event that happened, be it good or bad, is a part of you, your life. It shapes your personality. Of course, what has happened in these past few days has impacted me badly but I cannot stop there, I'll at least start trudging ahead; the agony will still be there but then that's how it is...


When they say, no one can even imagine what you really are from within and what you have been through, they are right...
People see what you want them to see about you, well 97% of the times...
And, I'm not just talking about me but everyone... I have a few friends who've been through hell in real terms but when you see them, you may never be able to tell...
Such people are real life heroes to me! Kudos to each of them! 


One such source of inspiration to me is one of my best friend's little sister. How to live life and value it, should be learned from her! She may not know but she has indirectly been a great teacher to me, I do not pity her, not a bit... BUT I respect her with all my heart. Thank you, thank you so much darling!

When I start liking listening to sad songs, it's then that I realize, I'm super sad and extra grave...
And right now, I'm liking Jal-Aadat... that means I'm not happy inside though I'm trying to be... No matter how hard I try, I can't fool myself!

Like dealing with the present wasn't already difficult that the past also knocked at my door...

:( :'(

Absolute nothingness

It is strange how presence of work and people keep you away from yourself... and how sometimes it is all that might just help you...

When the pain is so grave that you don't want to talk of it to anyone... in fact you don't want anyone to even know about it...

When we say 'I want to be alone', do we really mean it?
Well... sometimes yes and sometimes no!

But truly, I did not expect me to be so dense... How could I just...
*sigh*

Absolute nothingness is what I feel....
Perhaps this is what happens after the tears dry up...

Cannot survive without music and writing...

And suddenly I'm loving Bon Jovi!

A silent cry

Darkness is all I can see and feel.
Am I really making it a big deal?
It is only me who knows what had happened.
And how it had happened.
How could I trust so easily?
How could I just let it happen to me?
How could I just sit back and see?
What has happened is gone.
I know I can't change it and should move on.
But how do I heal my soul,
For it is wounded deeply.
The tearless agony of which
Will never lessen an inch...

The touch

He swiftly held her hand and started caressing it softly

Softness of that touch had set her soul ablaze

He then touched her left thigh

And the sea of revulsion within her turned more violent

As he kept feeling her

She kept dying a little more

When his hands were on her waist

She felt as though a dagger was smoothly slicing her marrow

Next he grabbed her tight in his arms

Hollowness conquered her

And each molecule in her body had surrendered to trepidation

She could feel his piercing breath on her neck

The touch of his breath was like a boa’s teeth penetrating gradually in her skin

Suddenly a little pang of valor erupted in her veins

And she shoved him away, she escaped him

She saved her soul from vacating her body

But that gruesome touch will remain intact inside her for eternity 

Nothing's sacred anymore.... It never was...

When someone you respected truly, breaks your myth...
Something very shocking and disgusting happened yesterday, something that I never in my deadliest nightmare could have imagined...
It is strange how you can never know what goes on, on the inside of a person...

...........
Men are only men, not brothers not fathers but only men!  No relation, no love, no values, no ethics, nothing in this world is greater than the cravings of their testosterone...

Sad...

I get it why the figures show that 90% of rapes take place within the family...
It is so easy for them to cross the frontier of values...

Disgustingly morbid!

Totally shaken-up...

In one of my previous post I'd written, 'I don't get why guys love to assume that every girl who tries to interact with them is interested in them!!!' -that time it never struck me that this also applies to the male members in your family but now it is pretty much clear!

Mr God please save the planet from such parasites... they are eating up the humanity and the global cultural values... Do something!

My POV!

Was watching 'Mere yaar ki shaadi hai' on Max yesterday, at this time.
I guess I was in 8th grade when the movie came out and since then each time it's been on TV and I've had the knowledge of it, I've seen it. In short, I love the movie!


YashRaj Movies are always worth watching... even if the script sucks, the locations and the cinematography wins you over!


Anyway so,
'Ek ladka aur ladki kabhi dost nai ho sakte...' , a discussion that goes on between Riya and Sanjay in the very start of the movie.
Hmmm... I guess everyone would've had this discussion with a friend, at least once.
As much as I hate to admit, the statement is not completely false!
Why?
I don't know... May be because everyone is so keen on looking for love every where that they even start considering their best friends.
Perhaps I'm wrong but it's just a personal observation.
Actually, it's the movies that are more culpable here, I mean for eg.,
'Made of honor', 'Ek main aur ek tu', 'Sky high', 'My best friend's wedding', 'Some kind of wonderful', etc etc etc.
All of them promote the subject of best friends falling in love. 
Okay so, is it a thumb rule that if you have a best friend from the opposite sex (and otherwise in case of homosexuals) and that friend understands you well, you are in frequent touch with that friend and you like the company... you have to date that friend?!
All of this is too subjective and situational. 
Actually, the society since the very beginning has always accepted a boy either as a brother or as a husband to a girl. Though the people have become open-minded about the 'friendship' aspect between a boy and a girl, with time but still some remnants of ancient orthodoxical and narrow-minded beliefs haven't vacated the human minds yet!


And, the struggle is still on...

Listening to Lost by Coldplay... Love it!

Basshunter- First time I heard the song was few days before the Taj-terror attack and each time I listen to the song, those visuals of terrorists firing at CST, Grenade explosions from the hotel windows and the blood shed, start running in my head and I get the cold-creeps! I can never forget those 3 terror-filled days, that attack had a huge impact on all the Mumbaikars, I guess... I vividly remember everything that happened in those 3 days. Still get tears in my eyes reminiscing that time. 
And, that Goddamn Kasab is still breathing the Indian air!! I mean, I respect the Indian law and order and also the fact that everyone is given an opportunity to be heard and defend themselves here but for heaven's sake, we know he is the culprit, he had ghastly and malicious intentions and also had killed many innocent lives so why the wait?!
Then I think, perhaps this serves him better... let him plead for his life, let him live in the fear of death, let him be all restless and anxious as to what and when will the court decide for him and then finally after all the mental torture, he should be sentenced to death! 
All in all, I want him dead, sooner or later!! 

Why does it so happen that when you are not at the peak of happiness, every such person who is singing happy, annoys you?!

hmm....
Insecurities and inhibitions... why is it so difficult to get rid of them??

You know, I could have been miserable about it but I decided not to make it a big deal and let it go... and now it doesn't bother me... say 2 months back, when it happened, I was a lil stumped but I handled it pretty well! Though, there are times when I question Mr God but then I know He'll never be unfair to me.

Aaaaarrrrrggghhhhhh!
I hate this ! I hate this! I hate this!!
The feeling of deprivation... The air of annoyance.... Ugh!!

I can be such a sucker, at times!!

Life is not a cinch for anyone. Everyone is living in some sort of crises. Each time I see around, I feel mine is easier.

I hate rains! ;) :P

Yes, I am a feminist! So... Is that a problem?! Umm... I don't think so ;)


'God is a girl'- an all time favorite!


'Promiscuous girl' by Nelly Furtado is on the radio. I guess it came out when I was in SYJC and me & one of my cousins were all gaga about it... I still like that number.
"It's okay, it's alright, I got something that you don't like..."
Back then, Nelly Furtado was all that I used to listen all day!


And the monsoon has begun.... 
Shew... finally, the summer is done with!!


Speaking of monsoon, just yesterday a friend popped up the same old mysterious question... 'Why are you single?'
Hahaha... okay so I've never understood how to answer that question and as far as I remember, each time, I've answered different
So yaa... we were talking about rains and I mentioned how I hate them, on that she said ' Once you get into a relationship, you'll love rains!' and I said 'Umm Okay!!!!'
This friend is not the first girl who has made this statement. A few of my other girlfriends had also said the same once...
Okay so let me make it clear, I hate rains but I don't hate monsoon! Meaning I hate the wetness, the dampness and the swamp about monsoon but I truly love the sweet and mellow fragrance of the soil embedded in the swirling monsoon breeze and of course, the floral greenery!! hmmmm.... I love that and what I love more is a stroll in such weather, PROVIDED it's not raining or even drizzling and the roads are not all that damp and swampy!! 
Pretty complicated huh...that's why to make it short and avoid the excess blabber, I say I hate rains! 
Anyway so,
these are the things that I like and dislike about monsoon and I don't think, I know that this will remain the SAME despite of what my relationship status is!!!
Phew... 
Why do people make a big deal about singlehood? 
To this, a friend answered, 'Because everyone around you is dating so being single really becomes a big deal!!'
Damn... it's ridiculously hilarious!


'You give the strength to me' - love the song! 


New in town- nice movie :)

In the groove :D

Mujhse fraanship karoge- Cute :)

Mango Cake- My new love! :D
(the taste is still lingering in my mouth.... damn... how can something ever taste soooooo crazily delectable!!! I wish it was low calorie, I'd eat it all the time!)

Okay so...
I was just reminiscing how I was this silly girl who was always scared to do anything and everything, some years back! I used to be scared and intimidated invariably... I still remember how scared I was to open an Orkut account, I actually asked my mom whether I should do that!
And now, I never ask, I just do!
Damn, have I changed!
Though not completely...

Listening to Futuristic Lover by Katy Perry....
"Boy, your an alien
your touch are foreign
it's super natural
extra-terrestrial"


Katy Perry is damn good!

"Coz baby your a firework
c'mon show'em what your worth..."


Ohh,I love her!


Am I in a good mood or what! :D
It was an awesomely amazing weekend!

I had really expected a lot of writing to come my way post exams but none did! :(

I loveeee Movies!

Reading The Gift by Cecelia Ahern currently...

Love to dance!

Oh and FYI I still abhor summer!!

Damn, since when am I trying to download a few tracks but something's wrong, unable to download!!! Aaaarrgghh!! :/

'Good Girl', this movie always gets me thinking...

And,
I don't get why do guys love to assume that every girl who tries to interact with them is interested in them!!!
Dude, get a life... Shit aren't they desperate!! If a girl approaches you, it doesn't always mean she wants to sleep with you! Please for Christ's sake grow up and for once think of things other than intercourse and blow-jobs!!! Boys are highly and over-excessively self centered! And then they ask me why am I single!! Hellllooo....

(I am not generalizing, there can be exceptions but I haven't stumbled across many yet!)

Some freaky jerk concluded that I have a crush on a so-so friend's boyfriend just because I once said he looks good! What single-mindedness!! Since when did appreciating good looks turn into having an infatuation! Fuckerr! Ugh... I feel like shoving him off from the 26th floor of any goddamn sky-scrapper!!

I told him, how sick his thought process is but I still feel morbid reminiscing that conversation.... Dude I feel like puking on your face!!

Anyway... I need not let some thick-headed and obtuse fool affect me!
*Sigh* 


'Like I love you' by JT :))

losing grip

When you are running late, running late on life...

Some bad habits that are catching up and some good habits that are fading away...

Just looking at the world from a distant peak is not called living a life, you've got to be a part of that world and not a mere spectator, in order to validate your life...


Travelling places gives me that kinda feeling... the one that is difficult to verbalize...

Pizza - One of the best creation humankind has ever been able to beget!

I simply loathe summer!!! Ugh!
I wish the equator belt could shift away!

When the things that perturbed once, don't matter to you anymore... calmness follows

When the clandestine evil face of someone whom you once referred as a friend comes to your knowledge and you realize what an asshole that someone really is... all you can feel is sorry for that asshole! ;)

Stronger- Kelly Clarkson :)

A picture of me from a recent trip that made me wonder....