Missing on me-time

Times when you've been feeling extremely thoughtless... No matter how hard you try to bring up something to think about in your head, you just can't!
And, for a person who loves pondering over stuff... these are not the 'good' times!

There are times when you want to be around your friends and feel that warmth...
And, those times when you want no one around, you are simply happy being with yourself...

Listening to 'Here is a heart' by Jenny Owen Youngs...

I'm really awestruck by people who know what they want in life, from life. They don't realize how cool it is to have their goals set! I mean most of us are totally clueless about every little thing, not being in the 'nonplussed' category is something to be proud of... But then, as they say, you never value anything you have.

sigh

You know, I'm getting that feeling... when you are standing on one side of the highway, waiting to cross but all the automobiles are racing at such a pace that you just have to stand there looking at them and at that opposite side of the road...
There's no reason attached... it's just how I feel at the moment...

'Jao naa' from 'What's your rashee' - an all time favorite.

Being around too many people for long always does this to me... Perhaps, it's because I don't get much of 'me-time' now-a-days...

Grey's Anatomy- New addiction. Stress buster. Me-time. :)
  

Strange feelings...

Sometimes we just succumb into the social pressure!
Can't help it, I'm a human being and we are all SOCIAL animals... it's our primal characteristic!

Watched Barfi today. Loved it! Ranbir Kapoor just has it in his genes, he acts so effortlessly... I don't just love him because he looks smokin hot and cute at the same time but it is more because all the characters he's ever played, he's done his part so well that he's always had a long lasting impact on me!

38days to go! I'm in shit... submerged in it completely!!

Listening to 'Glad you came' by 'The wanted'... Super Song!

With time everything changes... and what changes most significantly is our feelings.

40 days to go!

Scared and grappling!

Mr God... are you even listening?!

In absolute love with 'Titanium' by David Guetta ft. Sia!

"You shoot me down but I won't fall, I am titanium..."

But then....

You can never know someone completely... And, that's just fair. I'm not complaining.

"What would you do" by Anushka Manchanda, Grey's Anatomy.

Losing a friend is always hurtful, no matter what the reason is... Because you'll have all those sweet memories and jokes left behind after that friend is gone... But then, that's how it is... Always.

'Only hope' by Mandy Moore... such a soothing tune!

Then, there are other things that go wrong at the same time... And you can't do anything but accept it as your destiny because these are the things that are simply not in your hands.
And those things that were never right and you've already accepted what life threw at you... but then there are always bouts of malcontentedness.
Also the things that were never supposed to go wrong but you messed it up and everything went astray.

But then, if it's not wrong... it's not life.
You just have to put up with things...

'Everything fades away' by Poets of Fall.

It is complicated... When is it not!

Fear...
I was just trying to recollect the times when I was scared to death about certain things -Of course, I counted out all the times I had my exam results and other stupid things- and I concluded that it was a bad idea to reminisce them because the memory of all those events was not pleasant at all although I'm not scared of it anymore!
Fear is funny. Why? Because we know it won't last long and it won't help us either as in fear is one of those unnecessary emotions yet we are always submissive to it.
But then, that's just being human, isn't it? You get scared, face it and move on.

Is there anything that has never been said before by anyone or any feeling that has never been felt by anyone before?? I don't think so... It's all happened before and will keep happening... And since our souls have traveled through time, we have actually seen it all, heard it all and felt it all before, many a times probably...

'Trouble is a friend' by Lenka, an all time favorite.

I wish...
Why do we wish so much!

Happy Ganesh Chaturthi!!

I'm feeling restless since the moment I woke up. What is it, I don't get it?

Well, it should be the exams (as only 45days remain) but it ain't that!

I guess, I know who has caused this anxiety pang, if only I could tell that person everything that's in my head...
I don't feel like talking about this to any other person...

Sometimes you just can't say it... perhaps because you shouldn't. Why to mess things up by speaking your mind and end up hurting someone. See, that's why... I can never be "candid".

So much for gender equality!!

If you are a girl and you smoke... you are a slut!!
If you are guy and you smoke... you are either hot or no one cares!!

I feel sorry for all the female smokers who have to be undercover when taking a fag!! 

Yes, India is a free country and democratic too but the society is still living in the past!!

Whether to smoke/drink or not is a personal choice!! I don't think anyone should form inferences on this basis!

Well, perhaps I can say this because I've had and still have plenty smokers and drinkers in my family... But still, you cannot address someone with contempt just because they drink or smoke!!

The sad thing is... it's not only the middle-aged or oldies who have this sick mentality... it's our own generation too!

You hate smoking or drinking because of health issues- Acceptable! 
But, you bitch and talk ill about a girl just because SHE practices it- You are sick jerk!!

Today, a friend (who smokes) had a bad experience and she shared it with me and somehow, I wasn't amazed at all at the backwardness and single-mindedness that still exists in OUR society!! 

I am so sick of this cheap male chauvinist society! And, MEN... someone should tell them that they not GODS!! 

:-/

P.S.: This was not unnecessary ranting! But, it is a manifestation of the persisting sexual bias in the Indian society!  

'At the end of the day, faith is a funny thing' - Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy.  

A new me...

It will be a whole new day tomorrow

A new sun will rise and show

Fresh new flowers will bloom

Birds will chirp a new tune

A new sparrow will learn to fly

New bright stars will fill up the dark sky

With everything new happening around to see

How can there not be a new me

GANPATI BAPPA MORYA!!

Ganesh Chaturthi is almost after a week now and I'm sooooooooo excited about it although my enthusiasm doesn't beat my baby brother's but still I just can't wait to see the pomp and grandeur throughout the city when Bappa arrives on 19th.

GANPATI BAPPA MORYA!!

No more fretting...

I just had a look at my blog today and I realized that I've been fretting too much since a few weeks...

Each time something silly perturbed me, I blogged it out... and that helped... but I think I should just stop myself from getting affected or disturbed by trivial matters rather than collecting it all and spewing it in here!

I was ruminating about certain things last night and I discerned, how bigger issues don't pest me as much as smaller ones do... I am able to keep my cool when it comes to the 'real' problems but for things that are not even eligible to be termed as issues or troubles, I just lose it completely!

I better study persistently now...
Hardly a month and half left...

Listening to 'Who we are' by Ryan Calhoun. (It just speaks to my heart... I'll always cherish this number)

'...Life hurry now
I'm running out of time
And I am growing weak as are these dreams that are mine
Though the days are long, I'm still running strong
I keep looking up so I can hold on...
For now 
I'll choose this life I live
And for now I'll choose to take my hits
Coz at the end of the day all we have is who we are...'

Complaint box

I need to get certain things off my mind in order to get back in-order!!

Note: These are things that are so petty that I do not feel like putting them in my diary and so this is the best possible way to get rid of all the aimless pondering and ANGER.

1. Enough with the drama!! Just leave me alone, will you?! I too feel bad even if I don't show it!!
2. When you talk bad... it still hurts... sometimes... Because there are certain things that one can never get accustomed to COMPLETELY, no matter how hard one tries... 
3. Boys are not the only topic that we girls can talk about! So please for heaven's sake, STOP!!
4. And, just because my friends are all dating doesn't mean I HAVE to see someone too!! I ACTUALLY am very happy being single and I do not understand why is it soooooo hard to gulp that in?!
5. To myself - Speed up!! FAST!!! Be assiduous and sedulous! 
6. To Mr. God - Help me to help me! *begging*
7. Beauty is not perfection! Some people need to comprehend that being good-looking does not mean you are above everyone else or average lookers do not deserve better than you!!
8. Being candid about your thoughts and opinions may seem to be a great thing when you are practicing it but when others practice it and start throwing their unwanted and unnecessary opinions on you... you'll know how "great" it really is!!
9. You are funny- HAHA!! Now shooo!
10. If you don't find me interesting then don't talk to me... it's just that simple! I really wouldn't mind even if you are a good friend!!
11. And... I've always believed that you need a break from every person in your life at some point of time, no matter how important or special that person is!! I do this... a lot.. I need my space.. now, is that soo bad?!
12. Yes, I can be a super bitch, at times... Deal with it or leave!!
13. I knew I had to face it... I was prepared...

And yet, I survived all of it, thanks to:

1. Mr. God
2. My stupid little brother [I love you!]
3. Music (Of course, duhh!!)
4. Food (Always!)
5. Finally realizing I was being stupid by even letting myself get bothered for the last 3 hours, for these silly thoughts!

*gasp*
*sigh*

P.S.: No comments or views or opinions will be welcomed here (unless they are expressly in my favor)!!