I'm on this mad binging spree since a long time now! I should stop. I've gained a lot of unnecessary weight.

Songs that I can relate to, recently...
Dead and gone- JT
One step closer- Linkin Park

Awaiting certain changes. Positive ones, of course.

And the rebellious phase continues…

There’s freedom and shackles.

There’s wind and fire.

There’s tranquility and fury.

There’s belief and oblivion.

There’s bliss and melancholy.

As I read more about psychedelia and psychedelic art, I’m getting obsessed with that culture.

There are times when I make mistakes, which are not really big and don't affect anyone per se, but I rebuke myself because I'm offending someone in my head and it's mean. 

Moving on,

I read some awesome quotes today on tumblr, which made me feel better so I'm sharing them here. I hope this makes you also feel better.  I hope you are so content already, there is no need to make you feel better.

"A few nice words can help a person more than you think."

"Give as much energy to your dreams as you do to your fears."

"Life doesn't get easier, you just get stronger."

"Never let anyone ruin you."

"Dear problem, My dick is bigger than you! (And I'm a girl so you don't exist)"

"Don't expect anyone to understand your journey especially if they have never walked your path."

"Your soul is rooting for you."

"It's useless to show how much you care for special someone when that person is also too busy getting somebody's attention."

"Life doesn't give you the people you want; it gives you the people you need - to help you, to hurt you, to leave you, and to love you & make you into the person you were meant to be."

because there's no one to talk...

It's been an emotional roller-coaster, this week.

I'm tensed and petrified.

I love you and want you to be alright... 

When you need your people the most but you don't say it because you want them to understand automatically and come to you and stand by you. 

The reason behind not saying and wanting them to get it could be the hope that there is someone who is always concerned, knows you in and out and makes sure that you've shared every little thing that bothers you. 

Sadly, no such person exists in the real world.

Because people have their own problems and they are always dealing with them, there is no time for them to look at your troubles.

Moreover, have you ever done that for anyone before you can even think about expecting such a thing?

Life these days is all about work, doodling, reading and family. I have no complains about it. It's good.

And yesterday, 

When I was with my cousin venting many other emotions and thoughts, she said, "Remember Carrie Bradshaw from Sex and the City..."

I Said, "Of course."

"She once stated 'Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they just need to run free til they find someone as wild to run with them.' Maybe this statement defines us", she said and smiled.   

And there it was, the right thing that maybe I wanted to hear.

There is something very similar in both of us. Maybe it was always there and we just realized. 

   

I felt like calling up a friend and talking but didn't know whom to call... so, I  turned to you bloggy doggy.

There's a difference between your personal diary, your blog and your friends. You should  know who out of the three should know what about you and who can help you the best at times.  

Lonliness

I see you. I can't hear you. I can't feel your presence around.
I see you looking at me.
I call out your name. You can't hear me.
I shout your name, quite loudly this time. You stand still as a stone.
My eyes well up. I need you. I scream your name with all my heart.
I see no movement.
I'm helpless. Tears break out from my eyes. There is no hope.
...........