Note to Self

- To find your one true love is the rarest thing in the world. So, do not EVER take him for granted.
- Always remember what your parents have done for you.
- Respect the few important relationships left with you. Call them every once in a while!
- Life is unpredictable. End is certain. LIVE every moment.
- You love dreaming. You are addicted to your imaginations. It's a good thing. Continue.
- Always, always be a doer. Work to make those dreams come true.
- You think most of the world is a sham. You are right. Keep the judgement. Try not to be like them.
- Mom says money is important. It really is. She's not as wrong as you thought. But, buy nothing at the cost of your inner peace.
- Less is more.
- Travel blogging is not meant for you. You love places more than people so you will never share it with them. Move on.
- Work harder. Be less disappointed with failures so you can rise up quicker for the next round.
- Control your temper. You are not god. You cannot change others. You can change you though.
- Don't expect ANYONE to understand you or think like you or feel like you a 100%. Clones don't exist.
- Be more compassionate. And, less self-centered. The world needs you more than you need you, sometimes.

A fool never learns

To live in a society and not adhere to its ways, will give you the title of a rebel. Or a fool.

But for how long can you continue to be a rebel. Or a fool.

For how long can you sustain the fight.

I don’t know the answer. I am stuck between walking away from the entire set up and giving into their ways.

Well, no good thing comes without compromises and sacrifices. What I wish for also comes with a price.

Sigh...

I was a fool of a sort once upon a time. I used to think of myself as the creator of my own destiny. I thought if I worked hard enough to deserve something, I would earn it for myself. Because if you honestly desire something and sincerely work towards it, how can you not accomplish it? How can you not be victorious? 

I was taught by time, very little is in my hands at any given time. While I may work hard and set my heart at something, I need not be worthy of it yet. There will be times of helplessness. There will be uncertainty. I will have to deal with failures and deprivation of my reward without being given a reason. Because I will have no choice. Because there is a force much bigger than me, a power much greater than me that controls my destiny more than I do, if not fully.

I am a fool of another sort now. 

I wish...

Why do we wish so much!

Confessions of an ego-bound human

I have a problem with a lot of people around me.
If I see someone being greedy, I feel enraged. 
If I see someone talking behind another person's back, I feel disgusted.
If I see someone being violent, I find it unacceptable.
If I see someone bragging about themselves, I consider them repulsive.
If I see someone being mean to another person, I loathe them.
If I see someone talking about certain obvious things as if they were imparting words of wisdom, I find it derogatory.
If I see someone trying to prove me wrong (whether I am or not), I take offence.
If I see someone trying to gossip and create a controversy, I think they are absolutely incorrigible.

However, all these flaws I constantly see in those around me... are mine. In different ways, in different forms. But I have them.

I have done it all. I still do it. More often than not I don't realise while I am doing it because I am so full of myself. My ego does not let me come out of myself and see me as another. If I could do that, I would change a lot of things that I do or think.

As I continue to age, I see more and more aspects of mine that need improvement. I also see myself working on them.

The problem is not them, it is me.
I can't change them, I should not either.
I should change me, I can be better than this.