There have been many instances when I feel m lost, that there’s no 1 around me…many of my friends feel I think a little to much about stuff and I am an emotional fool, maybe its true, maybe its not. Everyone has a dark patch in their lives and they don’t like to disclose that, then why do people become so judgmental about others? Why any pre-conceived notion? What’s there on the exterior may not be true always then how can people go on commenting about every passerby. Such people who feel they have achieved the highest maturity levels on the basis of which they decide and categorize others are actually a bunch of big-time losers who have no substance in their own lives and so they thrive at the expense of others…!!
I feel sometimes I over-expect things but isn’t it okay to over-expect from your close friends because if not from them should I expect, then from whom..??
They say I always play my part well and its others who are at fault if that’s the case then why do I punish myself for their mistake then wouldn’t it be much better if I hadn’t played my part well ever.
I always believe that when u give someone huge importance in ur life u want to command equal amount of importance in theirs and when u realize that’s not the case or when they fail to give those warm gestures u feel u have been betrayed at least I feel so.
I have always prioritized my people over my career which has harmed me immensely in my academics. Frankly, earlier I was aware of this mistake but never felt the severe urge of correcting it but now I think I am doing it for the first time, for myself, for my betterment without caring about what people think…and it feels good!
Yes, maybe that was the problem people keep themselves and their career 1st and then every thing and everyone else which is so correct and I did it the other way round so I suffered in both ways and lost so much…I hope and pray that this change never changes ever. I owe this to myself I cannot afford to make me suffer anymore!
I have learnt this from a friend of mine that it’s better to be wrong to everyone else than to your own self although her way of teaching me this was a little harsh but nonetheless it will help me now I hope…!!
And having said all these things I still love my friends a lot and will always do. How can I ever stop loving them? They have done a lot for me, if I am unsatisfied and confused it’s my problem and not their fault. I can proudly say, I have the best set of people.
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