Qualms and consternations...!!

To begin with, it's one of my very good friend's birthday so I would like to wish all the good in the world for him!

Now,

When the heck will I learn to let go the 'bygones' and the 'what-if's'?! If this really happen's, more than half of my troubles will wither away!! 

I've also discerned that since past few months, I've been contradicting my ownself! I decide on a thing, very firmly (be it the smallest decision or an important one), and then eventually I do the complete opposite of what I had decided! 

I know, it happens with everyone but lately, the frequency of it happening with me is more than usual... I am scared of myself because of this. Whatever I want to do (and it should be done that way), I do the exact opposite! Something has gone terribly wrong with my system! It's high time I do something about it! 

I mean, if I can't trust ME to do the right things, I'll sure make my life messier! I have to listen to ME!! 

(Yeah I know, it's confounding!)  

Listening to 'Locking up the sun' by Poets of Fall... love the song!

Then, there are a few songs, I like as well as dislike... 

There are a few things I can't blog about, that's why journals exist and I have written in mine. But the fear about IT is undermining me! I am so daunted by IT! I hope I am walking on the right path. Or am I being too repressive.. Life is such a mystery, you never know, whether what you have chose is right or wrong...

Birthdays... Why are they SO important?! 

Also, I've been trying to study since last two days but I am not doing it! I know, the word 'TRY' doesn't exist. You either DO or you DON'T! I hope I start up soon...

Or maybe, I should just STOP cogitating and anticipating on certain things!!