Actually...

Sometimes when you truly start feeling that something good is actually here, things are really working out well and this is your time.... suddenly it turns out you were totally mistaken and it was nothing but a fake mirage!

Music- Always here to make things right for me! I love music. Can't do without it! 

Even now, it feels as though the beats are charging me up with optimism,when my heart is kinda sinking!

Doing wrong things, knowing they are wrong all through but still continuing to do them stubbornly BUT never actually regretting them, is what I always do. And strangely, I've accepted me like that! Again, I know it's wrong to actually accept such a way of life and continue doing it. But this is me now! Can't help it, really!!

"Nain parindey" from the movie Lafangey parindey... soulful!

"Grace Kelly" by Mika is one song that I loved years back, then I got bored of it and now again I like it!

"I tried to be like Grace Kelly

But all her looks were too sad

So I tried a little a Freddy, (ooooh)

I've gone identity mad!"

This song helps me feel more comfortable in my own skin, when I am bothered by the judgments and conjectures about me! Listening to it right now... and loving it!!

You know, they say that never let anyone else control your emotional buttons... but being a human it is not possible to do that unless you are some saint or a yogi or whatever! It's fine to be sad for a while. Why do people consider being sad as a bad thing? I mean, it's okay...only you should know how to change back to being happy!!

Also, sometimes it's better to keep your sadness and anxiety to yourself. Because when you open your heart about it to people and they don't say the words you want to hear, it only makes you more mad!!  

And YOU... better get out of the door! Hah... YOU don't matter now!! Actually, YOU never did!!!