Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Rosy picture!

Last week I was at a friend's place, I'd been there many times before but for the first time I noticed that they had a rose plant placed on their window.
I've obviously seen roses but never before had I seen a living rose blooming out of a plant.
Rose was never one of my favorites but for the first time I was in love with that flower! I was so glad and delighted to see a rose full of life! I couldn't resist clicking a few pictures from my BB!
Its charm was such that I totally overlooked the thorns until I got pricked... The plant was actually full of thorns so I couldn't really touch the flower although I tried hard to reach it...
It looked so perfect! The color, the shape, even the thorns, everything about it was flawless!




(The clicks may not be as beautiful but that's all my BB could do. But, I still love them)


Friday, March 23, 2012

to-dos & not to-dos

Today, I turned on the TV and what I see, they'd played on London Paris New York but it had reached climax till then... :(
I'm dying to watch that movie... Post exams I'm getting an original DVD of this movie. :)
Listening to its soundtrack... Bah... even the songs are adorable!
Sweet rom-coms are always fun! I love them! :)


Just today I read in a newspaper that stress makes you fat. Like there were already lesser things to make you fat!! I mean, it's so damn easy to put on weight... the couch, food, chocolates (I know it's included in food but I still wanted to write it separately!) and now stress too! That sucks!
So now, stress not only leads to hair-fall but it also makes you fat... hmmm...
Mr stupid silly mind... helloooo.. are you listening??? Stop making me fat and bald! I beg you!

I love the song 'Ahista Ahista' from Bachna ae hasino! I like the movie too! :)

I loathe when people don't return back my msgs, for stupid and invalid reasons!
Soon then, I take the pleasure of reminding myself of the times when I didn't reply to other peoples msgs for, stupid and invalid reasons!
At least my rage mellows down by doing so!

Two undeniable quotes that I stumbled on today and loved them instantaneously:
"The wise are those who try to avoid explosive situations, thus saving themselves from the trammels of confrontation." - Maulana Wahiduddin Khan.
"Peace is wrapped up in willingness to compromise" -Anonymous.

Should study now.
Toodles bloggy-doggy :*

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Keeping quiet...

When the music volume on the headphones is so high that your ear drums start jumping and pumping, you feel you should turn it down a little but reducing it will open doors to those thoughts that you don't want to be thinking...

When blankness takes over.
When suddenly for no good reason, you get the blues, though you didn't do or think any such thing that would invite them... You just go quiet in your head and by quietness I don't mean peace or calmness... it's sheer silence.
Eh, that's nothing new!

Sometimes everything means so much... while sometimes everything means nothing.
It's strange, how our wantings, feelings, thoughts, reactions and behavior are completely dependent on our mood!

Amul butter- Heavenly!
Listening to 'Someday' by 'We the people'.... It used to be an inspiring number back then... but I kept listening to it a little too much and then it lost its magic. The law of diminishing marginal utility, you see. It's a great song though!

Better study!

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Rightly wrong!

I feel, everyone around me is either getting married or hitched or committed. I guess, this is the age as per the Indian norms, where the girl is like a ripe mango, ready to be plucked!
(Do not read it with a perverted mind because I'm pretty serious!)


Whenever my parents come back from a social gathering, they bring up this topic of marriage. Just like we have our own peer pressure, they too have this societal peer pressure on them. Since ages, this has been prevalent in India, girls have to be put in a wedlock at an early age. This is how the system works here.


When my folks see other peoples daughters getting married at 21/22... they also feel like getting their daughter married ASAP and almost all parents are like that! They are not wrong on their part. 
It's like a marketing strategy. If one company reduces the price of their product, their competitors will also have to slash down the prices in order to maintain the competition and sustain their customers. Similarly, if there are a set of people ready to give their girls out for marriage at 21. why will any guys family go for a girl who's 25 or above?! So others to will have to get their daughters married at 21 or 22! You know, our society believes, 'younger the better'!!


I fail to understand why the society reckons marriage to be the solution for girls...
(Haha... Ipso facto, this was the topic of my first ever internet article!)


No matter how much I debate with my parents, my family or anyone... there are some rules, in the society, that we'll never be able to break completely. We can be amongst the exception but we cannot expect the society to transform its beliefs! They call it Indian culture but I beg to differ!


I can comprehend the rudiment on which "arranged marriages" ever came into being. I mean, it's good that parents and families, here in India, want their children (boy or girl) to have a partner, a family, a home! 
But, the times have changed... It is not about imitating the western culture, it is about bringing certain necessary mutations in the primitive and orthodox school of norms and beliefs! We, the human beings are evolving with every new generation coming to life... so isn't it important for the society also to evolve and move along, with us?!
I don't mean to degrade or sabotage our great Indian culture, I do value it... but here, culture is not the subject of matter... It's the societal norms and beliefs that I am speaking of!
Arranged marriages are our culture and I respect that but the age bar for the girls is not our culture! The age criterion is an obstinate and dogmatic societal creation! 
It is unjust to the girls, in a way... Maybe not all girls but to the ones like me, they are! 


The funny thing is.... some portion of our generation also believes that marriage is the solution to all their problems and it's not only the girls that I mean here, even the guys believe so!
It's like... 
Relationship troubles- I guess, I should get married!
Career failures- I think, marriage is the only thing left for me.
Family fights- I better get married! 
*gasp*
And, I kid you not, I really do know few such people! 
(Also, girls I can fathom for once, if they think like that because we've been made believe so... BUT the guys?? Now see, such guys are the official 'girl-guys'!! Haha... I am sorry, I'm not being sexist! Really!)


Well,
THEY may be right and I may be wrong here.... But then, I'm known to do things wrongly... so why should I do it right here!!! ;)

Sunday, March 18, 2012

The demented duo!

It's been circa 10 years, since we've been best friends... We know each other better than we know ourselves. There are many arguments and disagreements that happen between us frequently (& most of them are prodigal) ... And that's because we are so emotionally dependent on each other... But, still we stand strong and together and we always will. Our never-ending craziness... Sanity no where exists around us! The way we discuss our most important, serious and earnest problems and decisions also with sheer sarcasm and humor..(We can never be serious!!). How we never fall short of things to talk about...Yes, you are the only person with whom I ALWAYS have things to talk... I can't remember a single time when both us had nothing to talk about! Seriously! Hahaha.. maybe because we always talk crap and the world can never go out of crap!! We might have changed in all these years but when we are together, we are always those two silly school girls, who make fun of everything and anything that comes on their way... and I cannot be more sure of the fact that this, what we have, is never gonna change!!

Waise bhi mere alava koi aur tujhe jhel nahi sakta... All thanks to my bad karma!!

A befitting quote that comes to my mind, for us:
"It's the privilege of friendship to talk nonsense, and have her nonsense respected"



Saturday, March 17, 2012

Only if...

Dil Chahta Hai- :) :)


I like Palaash Sen. He has a great voice, an amazing sense of music, a cool personality, appears to be sensible (at least in his interviews) and he's also a doc!


Le jaa tu mujhe - a song that speaks to me.


"It's never too late to be what you might have been" - George Eliot
I had cold-creeps when I first read this quote... I don't know why?!
Maybe because I know I lack the gumption...


When you are craving for a heart-to-heart conversation and you also try to have it with your bunch but somehow you are unable to click. Then the annoyance that follows thereafter...


Just now, while having a conversation with a friend... I (rather we) discerned how people don't give out all the information. I mean, I kinda reveal out excess unnecessary things, about myself, when interacting with people. This has to be slashed down! But then, I've tried it before and it has never worked with me...So perhaps, now or in future...
You should do what you have to do..... Now only if I followed it!!!



"The more you take responsibility of your past and present, the more you are able to create the future you seek"  - Celestine chua 


Ugh... In a bizarre state of mind... feeling too antsy!! 


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Thursday, March 15, 2012

INHUMANE


She was a free will
Living her imperfect life in her own little ways
With a face that never failed to sport a smile
Her expressive eyes always filled with umpteen dreams to chase

An optimist who never hoped of anything ugly
She could've never guessed what the fate had conjured up for her
But there came a day which couldn't have been more murky
Her life took a turn which no man could ever decipher

She was lost in her own little world, ambling her way home
Two demons with humanly masks and attire
Appeared out of nowhere and caught her when she was alone
And her innocence was shredded in fire

Their grip was rigidly firm to her dismay  
Their touch was sharper than the incisiveness of hundred knives
She was trying so hard to fight them, to push them away
But all her efforts weren’t enough to match the strength of those two evil lives

They thrashed her, slapped her and ripped off her guise
She tried to shove them off but there was no way she could’ve escaped
She cried, yelled and howled in disgrace, dolor and despise
Yet there came not a single soul to her help… she was raped

Destiny took away all her colors and her smile, left her with darkness to accompany
There she was abandoned in the middle of nowhere with a naked body and a nude heart
All she could feel was a sharp twinge of abashment, woe and melancholy
With a twinge that would last all her life; she fell prey to the devil’s dart

[Rape is an Incorrigible offence. My heart goes out to every such girl, every such woman, who has been a victim to this ghastly human act.] 

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

It's all very subjective

When randomly an old conversation with someone pops up in your head and you suddenly start thinking that you must've used the wrong words or that someone must've perceived your part of the conversation in some wrong way due to which that someone can form certain false and erroneous opinions about you... And, just then it strikes you.... How does that opinion matter?
If that someone is not someone important then even if he/she has fathomed you in an erring manner, it shouldn't matter.
I always want to be taken in the right way. I always want everyone, whom I interact with, to be perfectly perceptive to whatever I utter. And this 'want' of mine has always been a subject of botheration. But. gradually as the time has passed I've learnt how to desist this habit... Though I still get those pangs but then as I just mentioned, they are only short-lived pangs!

Judgment free and non-dogmatic world has never existed and will never exist! I too do it, at times. I guess, that's how we are wired. So, I may often whine as to why to people have to be so opinionated... but I know, there's no prevention for it; although there is a cure, which is IGNORANCE!

Also,
Once I was having a conversation with a friend, where I argued that beauty and outward appearance are excessively over-rated. My friend said that it of course cannot be ignored and everyone whether knowingly or unknowingly is biased, in a way, towards beauty.
I had to agree. When we first meet a person, it's his/her outward appearance that we can first see. So, the first ever nano-thought that comes to our mind about him/her will be based on how that person looks. It has always been that way.
But, I reminded my friend that I never said it should be ignored, I said it is over-rated. Which is true.
Beauty is always appreciated. And, why shouldn't it be so? It's always good to be appreciative, especially, towards something that truly is praise-worthy. But, when it is given unnecessary excessive importance, it becomes ugly!
Anyway, it's all very subjective.

*Sigh* 
Still struggling with things. Ohh God....Please help me help myself!! Jeez.. I am such a hard nut to crack, when it comes to certain things!!

A month and a half left!

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Happily imperfect!

Belated Happy Holi Bloggy-doggy!! :*
Dil toh pagal hai- the movie, the songs - :) :) :)


Finally, catching up. A little relieved. Though I still have a long long way to go but at least I've begun. :)


Perfection. What is that?! Does it really exist? Well, who cares... I am happily imperfect!!


Trekking: Fun...
Trek-tan: Annoying!
Friends: Necessity


The joy of buying a new skirt can be actually felt only when you have someone who'll be as excited as you about it!
To the two of you: We'll always be the 'awesome threesome' we are. Love you both! The best thing about the three of us is we all truly enjoy and value the bond we share. Who says two is company, three is crowd?!
I don't hope, I know this bond is gonna stay unbiased and intact forever!!


I've been having too much of cocoa these days! It's yumm!
Missing someone you never had in your life but still is a part of your life.
When you listen to someone talking about themself and you realize how their little habits and way of thinking are similar to yours. You know, all of us are so similar in some way or the other.


When you feel like going back in time, taking up the opportunity that you'd turned down then, just so that you know what it would be like if you had chosen things to be otherwise.
Times when you willingly allow certain people to walk out of your life... and when you finally quit doubting your decision about it or rather you just learn to accept it. Because there'll always be what-if's, whether whatever you choose... because there'll be this other thing that you did not select. And, you always have to choose, in fact your destiny is based on what you choose. At least I believe so. You invariably have two ways to go about it, be it anything, Mr God has his book of fate well-written for both your ways, if you choose the first way, your destiny is based on that and if you choose the other way, you destiny will be based on that! So basically, most of the times it's OUR choice and the rest is up to the destiny!


Love: Utterly Beautiful
But, Love at first sight : BS!!


Expectations can be scary at times.


The entire world has become a victim to the atrocious mosquitoes!! Every person I talk to, whines about being mosquito-stricken! I am finding it eminently arduous to find a cure for this! I mean... my house is clean, windows are shut, Ac's on, mosquito coil and liquid mosquito destroyer together working in this room and still they are eating me up!! We actually have those mosquito killing electric rackets at my place! I feel like I am living in some amazon forest! Sick! Mr God please, please, don't make us pay for our bad karma like this!


Love aaj kal- One Bolly movie that portrayed true love, I believe! I like it!
I simply love Maroon 5. Listening to 'Won't go home without you'...


Thoughtless.
Wasted a lot of time. Have to study!!
Ciao!

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

I gave up!

So my friends finally coerced me and I am going to follow my heart again!! I gave up on the thought of rational and logical thinking (ONCE AGAIN)!
(Sorry Paa... I know you will hate me for this...)
Many mixed emotions gushing inside my veins.... A little scared....
........
Have to study. 

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

The subject of matter

When in a sticky situation...at first, you fret about the fact that no one understands you and when someone actually understands... what happens next? What happens after getting an "I understand" from someone? Is the problem solved?
No, it isn't! You are still there. In the same place where you were before that person or anyone fathomed you. So how does it matter?! Really?
'No one understands me'... A statement that's void ab initio. Because, why should someone or anyone understand you, when their comprehension is actually worth a diddly and if it's not at all conducive to the situation! Rather than concentrating on making things better, we brood about no one grasping us!
But still.. we are humans (and I am no different)... we love to feel that no one understands us... so be it!


I've always done what I've wanted to do, be it right or wrong! I've always followed my heart (well, 98% of the times)... But when the heart is misleading you to do something that it knows is not good for you, in any possible way... the pleasure won't be worth the pain, at all... then it's advisable not to follow it! Certain times it is necessary to follow your brain! Because you have got to be rational, logical and practical, to understand the gravity of the situation! Life really has been a party (since quite sometime now)... but just like every other party, this one also has to be ended! Fun cannot be the only essence of life! I need to put a break to the 'My way or the highway' thing that I've been practicing!!

In both the above paragraphs... All that matters is the knowledge and acumen of the subject of matter in those situations!

Never back down is a nice movie. I quite liked it!
Stronger by Kelly Clarkson- Awesome!

Less than 2months left for the exams! I should be studying now! Mr God... Please, the 3D's... deliver them to me ASAP!!

Saturday, March 3, 2012

From Deedo...

Happy birthday Nanakss!! You are 15!!! So unbelievable!!
It feels just yesterday when you were a 5 year old kid who couldn't do a thing without his deedo, who used to sit on the window and look at every red BEST bus passing by the street, who used to give me geeli pappis! I vividly remember, how dad used to get those blank coloring books with various colorless images in it and we used to color it together. As soon as I would put on music, you would start spinning round and round, you could actually spin around all day!
Scores of countless memories... Can't list them all even if I want to!
Your mere presence has been the biggest strength of my life! I wouldn't have survived without you! I am here because I have you...
Thank you Mr God... for the best gift of my life... You knew how much I needed him!
I love you! I love you more than any person in this world, I don't think I have or ever will love anyone, half as much as you! I love you beyond any words and boundaries!!


A quote that's just meant for you....
"I sought my soul but my soul I couldn't see, I sought my God but my God eluded me, I sought my brother and I found all three."  



Friday, March 2, 2012

Unkempt

Some people are very confusing... You never know what's going on in their head, whether they are serious with you or it's their sarcasm!

Still stuck on "only you"!
"What's that feeling that I get, my heart is drowning every grade...."

I want to watch this upcoming movie 'London Paris New York'!
I love the song "Voh Dekhnay mein...." form the movie! Listening to it now...

And, sometimes Mr God brings in some people in your life because He wants to perplex and bamboozle you! After all, even He needs entertainment! ;)

I am sure no one can have funnier dreams than me! Every morning I wake up astonished at the capability of my unconscious mind to actually dream such utterly farcical and funny situations!
Some people have nightmares, some dream epiphanies, some dream of romance and me..I dream funny (always)!! I've never understood how do I do it every night!!

I love Nancy and Sluggo. They are so dang cute!!
Times when you have nothing to talk about with the person you've always had something to talk about!

Running out of time... But still acting as if there's abundant time left!! Not good and totally not happening!! What's up Mr stupid mind?!!

Moments when you say or do some silly, unnecessary and totally meaningless things... and people make a song and dance about them.... and you go "What the heck?!".. Even prodigal words and actions can land you in a soup! For friggin no reason!

There are 2 opposite MEs always battling inside me... both are equally good and bad... but they think very differently... It's outcome: one single utterly confused and baffled outer ME!!

And, people are still making more versions of 'Kolaveri di'.... Guys can you please get over it, already!!

And,
Sometimes a cute little toy that comes along for free in a packet of chips can make you feel so full of glee... for a moment you become that 7 year old kid again!!

Also,
For someone who called me an emotional sissy... (And I actually said all of this except for the last line!)
I am emotional, I agree! Absolutely! But, that doesn't make me any weak in any possible way! I can FEEL better than you but I still know how to get over things and move on. So veritably, you are the one who's in tatters! It's about time, people stop confusing the quality of being "emotional" with "weak and depressed"!!!!
SCREW YOU, YOU OPINIONATED PSYCHOTIC FREAK!!!!!

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Mix

"Waiting for tonight" by JLo = old memories!

I never ever like my photographs!! I don't think I ever will!! :l :/
I don't mind getting clicked. I never bother to check how I look in the snaps because the pictures are MINE only so how does it make a difference! But... I loathe them! Can't help it!

My friend who got married, her wedding snaps were out on FB yesterday... Although I hated all my clicks but still the memories each one of those pictures carries are priceless!!
Sigh... Where does the time fly?!
I am feeling overly reminiscent, at the moment!

I just found a very old playlist in my PC... :) :)
Angry birds- I love!
All Taylor Swift songs sound just the same to me!!

Sometimes you wish to eject a few people out of your life, even though they are important and valuable. Because, excess of everything, be it good or bad, is always bad...

Boredom- One common feeling (I won't term it as an emotion because I find it inappropriate), which every one feels too frequently! It's a very funny feeling. As a matter of fact, it's the only feeling, no would want anyone to understand or you know, empathize with...
So if this word never existed, is it possible the feeling also wouldn't have existed?! Perhaps...

Anyway so,
Everyday I read at least 1 rape case in the newspapers. They say only 15-20% of the cases are actually registered with the police and still we (India) rank amongst the top-most countries, where rapes are most prevalent! It gives me chills to read them or watch them on news! Rapists are as repugnant as the terrorists... They can never imagine what it can do to the victim! I wish each one of the rapists that exists on this globe anywhere, gets punished  and agonized so hard and so ugly that they would pray for their death but Mr God would not let them die; He would keep them alive and as miserable as a human being can ever bear to be, in fact more forlorn than that!! Rape is an incorrigible offence! 

(Papa...Belated Happy birthday! You will always be my SUPERHERO!)