I'm just so sad...
Why don't I get to do what I want to?
Why? Why?
Again,
even this is my fault!
Sometimes I feel it's better to be immature and self-centered, at least then you won't think about how the other person would be feeling and why they choose to behave like this and that they are completely wrong, whatever be the circumstances!!
I just somehow, in my head, figure out a way to not blame the other person for whatever he/she has done and then end up being angry at myself!
Aaarrrghh... I just can't concentrate on studies with all this running around me!!
*sigh*
Bah... I'll figure out a way (hopefully). After all, how many excuses am I gonna make?!
Anyway,
the truth is, if I would've done the right things at the right time, MAYBE none of this would be happening right now!
I wish...
Why do we wish so much!
Why don't I get to do what I want to?
Why? Why?
Again,
even this is my fault!
Sometimes I feel it's better to be immature and self-centered, at least then you won't think about how the other person would be feeling and why they choose to behave like this and that they are completely wrong, whatever be the circumstances!!
I just somehow, in my head, figure out a way to not blame the other person for whatever he/she has done and then end up being angry at myself!
Aaarrrghh... I just can't concentrate on studies with all this running around me!!
*sigh*
Bah... I'll figure out a way (hopefully). After all, how many excuses am I gonna make?!
Anyway,
the truth is, if I would've done the right things at the right time, MAYBE none of this would be happening right now!
I wish...
Why do we wish so much!
Are you okay right now? Like at this moment?
ReplyDeleteThat's everyone's story at some point. We give the authority to people around us to be able to decide our state of mind (happiness/sadness). And that's the absolute wrong thing to do but the most basic human error. You know all of this somewhere at the back of your mind, it's just different when a stranger reminds you of something you haven't forgotten but didn't exactly remember to remind yourself.. Hehe. Sahi bola? :) Expectation being the second human error. *sigh
But, I hope you're better than you sound in your post! Take care Reshma :)
Hey Garima,
DeleteI'm pretty much okay at the moment. I was venting out the vexation caused due to certain people and events that happened during the day.
You know, we pass the authority willingly sometimes, because these are the people we are meant to love and "trust" and so we don't expect them to put us in a horrid state of mind.
But then, just like you said, expectation being the second human error.
*sigh
Though sometimes, its not the people speaking, its your previous wrong-doings and mistakes speaking to you through them... and so you can't help feeling miserable...
Also,
At times, when a friend comes and says these absolutely sensible and correct lines while you are going through some emotional troubles, you totally dismiss them saying you don't need an advice at that moment but when a stranger comes and says it, it finally makes sense to you!
Strange but true,
sometimes you need a stranger more than you need a friend!
Thank you for being that stranger to me! :)