Possessiveness, a devil.

I am referring to all kinds of possessiveness here. Be it for a lover, friend, ideas, music or any random thing.
It makes you a negative person because you start to despise the one who gives the air of ownership for what you consider to be yours.
I remember mentioning in a previous post, 'mine' is a myth.
The earlier you start digesting this fact, the simpler your life will be.
 

The Future Store

Life is calling - JoeySuki & Kill The Buzz (Hardwell mix)
"...And we are always finding places where the silence is so loud
And there's something about a distance but we can't be fading now.

Most of us always want to know what the future has in store for us, expecting something positive to be in there, obviously. And when you get to know that the picture is not all that rosy, fears, insecurities, anxiety, inhibitions, and all other negative emotions start chasing after you.

Why can't we leave the future for the future? Is it so hard to do that? Can't we be happy with knowing the present?

Anyway, if you are now aware of something not-so-good that might happen later, keep your eyes open and stay focused to avoid it from occuring. That's the only thing you can do.

Be it a palmist, an astrologer, a numerologist or a tarot card reader; all of them only offer possibilities, probablities, warnings and hopes. What more than that? They never give a guarantee, it's always a 'may', 'might', 'can' or 'could'.

Here are a few common readings:

• You might meet someone and fall in love 
• Finances may need some control
• Someone in the family might fall victim to health issues
• New opportunities could come in your way
• Relationships might need more attention
• blah blah blah

They never have anything exciting or new to tell you. It's always the same. 

Don't be dishearterned if your readings show some impediments, negative signs or unfavorable circumstances. Take it as a warning. Now that you have an idea of what could go wrong, you can try not going in that direction or if not that, at least you'll be prepared for the worst.

Destiny may not be in your hands completely, but it is not completely off your hands too!

Sandhan Valley

'Valley of Shadows' is another way of addressing this little piece of heaven in Maharashtra. This previous weekend, I had gone there with my office colleagues and a few others.

Expecting nothing, I left my house. My parents in disagreement and my excitement donning an invisibility cloak. 

A backpack and a sling, with only basic necessities in them came along with me. 

The train journey began in a not-so-interesting manner, but as the journey progressed, it only got better and better. 

I had my notepad and pen with me all through, and I captured most of my experience in words.

No, I'm not gonna describe it again. I have written enough about it. Writing more would make it redundant for me. Having said that, I can never be bored of thinking & reminiscing about this picturesque beauty, ever.

This place has given me a lot, but more than anything, it has added a new dimension to my perspective in life. It has made me feel complete by being with myself alone. Something which I hadn't witnessed before. 

Also, now I know what wanderlust is like. I am feeling it. 

"...You shoot me down, but I won't fall, I am titanium..."

Cecelia Ahern

That copywriter chick - 1

My entry in the Ad Mad World was so unexpected and yet so perfect. I believe, I have found the ideal way to use my passion and skills. Yes, I’m still a novice. Not just in the field of advertising, but as a writer as well.

There’s still a long way to go. I still have to learn a lot. Yet there are a certain things that I have etched in my head about copywriting, so far. 

• Every ad you write or make should make a difference, whether big or small. 
• Research more. Read more. 
• THINK!
•  Trust yourself.
• Mind your ego.Take inputs from everyone possible, they can be really helpful.
• Do not justify your ad when it’s being reviewed. Your ad should speak for itself.
• You never stop learning. You never know it all.
• Be careful while taking advises as not all are to be considered seriously.

Today, a senior from the industry looked at a few ads I made and he wasn’t really impressed. He said I lacked uniqueness, but I can work my way towards it. His comment was both discouraging and motivating. It made me doubt myself.

I wondered… Am I really meant to be a copywriter? What if I am not? How will I know? How does anyone know? How do you know that this ad is good? Who tells you that? How do ideas come? How do you know which idea to execute?  How do you know?

The questions just wouldn’t stop crowding my head. I still don’t have the answers. All I have is the will to find the answers.

I don’t know if I am ‘the copywriter’ or not. Although I do know that I could be if I want to because if you honestly want something and work towards it, you always get it.    

Advertising tantalizes me. Copywriting challenges me.  

The difference... or distance?

When I decided to switch my career path, I lost one of the common factors in my friendship with some of my very close friends.
When they entered into a serious relationship with their new respective partners, I was truly delighted for them but now there was one more thing that differentiated me from them.
And now, as they consider marriage and life after it, I wish them the very best while also making an addition to the list that keeps us from being on the same page.

Yesterday, I was out with a bunch of people, not friends really. One of them, a well-accomplished lady, mentioned that her best friend has a child and it's been 2 years now. She has been trying for one herself since a long time now.
She said whenever they used to meet, all that friend had to talk about was her daughter. It had begin to become discomforting for her to be in her friend's company now. She was not envious, in fact, she was happy that her friend was blessed with a bundle of joy.
But, she wasn't able to empathize with that friend anymore. They weren't on the same page. Their priorities, their scenarios, their day-to-schedule, everything had changed.
So, she started distancing herself from that woman, not intentionally though. It just happened. They don't meet anymore.

As I was listening to her story, I wondered, isn't it really how I too feel for those close friends of mine? I couldn't get myself to say yes, but I did not say a no as well.

I also thought if they too feel so about this situation. But then, I refuse to believe they do because there's so much going on in their lives, in our lives, that they really wouldn't have the time to sit and contemplate about something as trivial as this. It's merely me over-thinking, as usual.

Sigh...

Sadly, this is not the first time I've been perturbed by this obvious feeling. It has been worrying me since quite some time now. So, it was not this lady's words that triggered this thought. It was always there. I was just scared to admit it to myself so bluntly.

Dad says, "You should do what everyone is doing in order to be a part of the society. You will be happy only if you start living your life like everyone else does, as only then you will be able to maintain your relationships. You can't just stand there while everyone else is taking the next step."

Do I have to? Really?
I am scared. I don't know what to do about it. I never thought 'peer pressure' could actually be so pressurizing.
Perhaps Dad is right...
But, is it something I want to do? 
  
Sometimes I wish, somethings would never change. But, we humans, we are all assholes, we are responsible for most changes that transpire and later brood about them.

Anyway, I shall leave it to the future. Whatever has to happen, will happen.

Time flows differently in everyone's life. Different phases occur to different people at different times. One cannot control it. And, it's fair. It's simply life.

I wish...
Why do we wish so much!

A final goodbye... to something, which could've defined me, in a way.

24

Yes, that's how old I am now.

Have I really grown up?
Have I learned all that I was supposed to and should have by now?
Have I given enough to the world yet?
Have I bettered as a person in all these years?

Listening to Lonely Girl - Above & Beyond 

There are so many questions meandering in my head right now. Along with them, there are insecurities and inhibitions as well. There is so much I want to achieve. There is so much I wish to do. And the clock won't stop ticking. Sometimes, I wish I could simply pause 'time' for a little while. Not because I want to savor a special moment or refrain from facing the coming moment, but because I need a 'time-out'... to stop the excessive rumination and stabilize my mind.

I remember reading somewhere that most people in the world fear happiness and love, and it's because they fear losing anything they have. I am no different. Today, I am scared to death of losing even an ounce of love that surrounds me.

I had also read once that all you have to do is be a good person and you won't lose on love.
Isn't easy, right? But, for the love of 'love' you can do that much. 

And just when I had started to feel lonely, Mr. God sent all those who love me to erase that dirty feeling.
Of course, I love everyone around me because they love me so much, but more than anyone else I love you and my guardian angels (BM & Daddy, I believe)!

Lonliness, just like happiness, is a state of mind and a matter of choice, I guess!

I am so tired and sleepy!

Happy New Year!