Not the time to cower!!

And the machine started working again :)

Mr God knew it very well that I need this now, so he decided to swing his magic wand and start my rickety computer! And also, Paa got a new spike-guard for it ;P

*sigh*

Gave my second exam today, it too dint go well, just like the 1st one! I so wanted this to be it! I am kinda stuck in this stolid elongated "study" phase... I know there are many others like me but that really doesn't help! 

I know I am stuck here, I know I am culpable for it, I know I myself will have to try hard and get out of here! 

*gasp*

I am so lost at the moment! Perhaps whatever did I was not up-to the brink. Perhaps some stones were still unturned, some pages were still unflipped... 

When the one who is to be blamed is you yourself... there are no words... seriously!

Nonetheless 6 more to go... Maybe things dint go well up until now but that doesn't mean I'm gonna sit back... I may have lost hopes but I am not gonna lose on the hard work... I'll continue with my efforts, though MY efforts are or won't be enough but that won't keep me back from trying... I don't know whether I will make it or not but certainly know I will not quit! At least not now!

It's getting arduous to maintain positivism... I have been a little negative since last 3-4 days but then when it comes to rationality, rigid positivism seems like denial... 

Anyway... whatever it is, it's not gonna wince me down... I will go on unflinchingly!!

Had read a quote long back, which was something like... Magic happens only when you believe in yourself...
I don't know how far I believe in myself but I know I am not quitting!!