When your dreams are different from those that your loved ones have for you... What would you do?

If you walk on the path that makes you happy, that seems right to you, work towards making your dreams come true... wouldn't you be called selfish, ruthless and callous?

Because you are hurting the ones who love you the most by not doing what they think is best for you.

If you take the road they think will bring you all the happiness in the world, you are not being you. It's someone else's life. You are being unfair to your ownself.

It's a difficult choice to make, but there is no other way out of this situation. Circumstances like these tell you if you believe more in yourself or your loved ones.

The Weekly

When other people's thought process inspires you...

Not because they are very intellectual or righteous, but because they seem to be more sorted about certain things in life, which you are not.

Sometimes despite of knowing that you should not be thinking about certain things because pondering and planning will not help at all, you still continue obsessing about it.

These are those things/outcomes/situations that depend on your destiny. You wondering about will they or won’t they happen is not going to help. It will simply keep you engaged in day-dreaming, which keeps you from paying heed to reality. So, you would be neglecting your present while imagining what your future would be like. How dumb is that? Yet, we all do it.

Being around happy people living not so happy lives inspires me to be happier in life.

Sleep deprivation leaves you cranky.

Unless you start walking in a certain direction you won’t know if it is the right path that you've taken. Moreover, what’s the worst that can happen, you will discover it’s not the right path. You might fail badly or hurt yourself or have a heart break, but eventually there will be a learning that you won’t forget for the rest of your life. It won’t be anything that you won’t be able to bear. After all, that’s what life is all about, right? Making mistakes and taking lessons. So don’t be scared to do something your heart wishes to do.

Music

Greyhound

Crank it up

Wake me up - AVICII

Born to die - Lana Del Rey

Aye Zindagi - Suryaveer (Prague)

"...Aye zindagi gale lagale. 

Humne bhi tere har ek gum ko gale se lagaya hain, hain naa..."

I wish I could read your mind. I wish I could obey my mind. 

I wish... Why do we wish so much!

P.S.: This post has been written little by little all week. Thus, the title. 

   

The Magic called Music.

The only thing that has kept me going today is Music! EDM to be precise.

SAVIORS OF THE monDAY:
Hardwell
Avicii
Boneless
Best of Tomorrowland Vol. I Chaquea Mix

In order to live in the present, we have to stop anticipating the future. We all know that, right? Then why don't we concentrate on today, everyday? Why on somedays we prefer to dream about how it will be like in the days to come? Why can't we keep the dreaming bit for the night? Why day-dream?
Perhaps, because it gives us hopes.
But, what about the unnecessary expectations that start popping due to these hopes?
Now, that's life, isn't it? Learning to deal with unnecessary expectations... from yourself, from people, and from Mr. God.

I feel like going dancing tonite! :D

Warning! Mushy stuff ahead.

Friend... not anymore...

When I see you, I can't see a friend anymore. All I see is disappointment, and I am sure you too feel the same. It's just sad how two people, who understood each other completely, suddenly fall apart so badly. Maybe, they were never meant to be together. How I wish, for once, you could know what the real problem was, how you brutally ripped my soul... and, rather than agreeing to the problem, you would just put an end to it... Sadly, it did not happen and I know it never will because you are not the person who cares enough... enough to bring those days back in MY life. And, for the record, your relationship was never the issue, really. 

Trust me on this one, it's because of you that my belief in the word "Trust", which was almost dying anyway, has faded away completely. You may have lost a friend but I lost a part of me, and this is not an exaggeration. It's not a scar, it's an open wound, which will never heal. Partly, because I won't ever allow it to heal. 

I'm not blaming you. I know, I have made my share of mistakes, but I just wanted you to make things better whereas you went on making them worse. 

And now, to a certain someone...   

You make me happy. Please continue doing so.  

The butterflies in my tummy are not ready to leave. They love it here it seems! :) :D 

Disclaimer. This is just another bundle of rants.

I am really not the emotional person I used to be. Doesn't mean I don't appreciate or respect my friendships and relationships. I still am a human.

Uff! I'm just sick of being the incapable friend for everyone. Can't they just cut me some slack? Let me be. Not expect anything from me. My expectations anyway have all faded away. Nothing in life is going so wrong that I'm emotionally disturbed or anything. I'm just a more relaxed person, with a temper.

Having said all that, I still NEED people in my life! They all think I need to be left alone and I don't care anymore. Someone has rightly stated, "Presumption is the mother of all fuck-ups."

I don't understand how to explain! 

It's such a disappointment to be misunderstood by the people you thought understood you more than anyone else.

While having a heated argument today, a friend said, "You are at loss."

Sigh..

I know that and I even said it. Everyone's just walking away or I'm making them do so, perhaps. Whatever be the reason, I'm the one who's being abandoned, right? So, it has to be my loss.

Here's one big THANK YOU to EACH 'Friend' who has very conveniently (or not so conveniently) given up on me! True, you have left a vacuum in my life but you have also saved me from the guilt of being a disappointment in the name of a friend.
(This is not out of fury or melancholy, I mean it in a very positive and mature way. I can't be who you want me to be anymore and if you can't accept that, it's good for you to leave. I'll deal with it.)

And, This is not self-pity! I just know the nature of problems everyone seems to have with me and I don't feel like working on them and I don't feel sorry for myself for that. 

Once a friend in one of her blogs had called me an extremely emotional shit and hated me for being so. When I stopped being so, she said I've changed and hated me for that. It was funny and sad at the same time. 

Anyway...

By now I've understood that it's not a 'phase', it's my way of life. Because, that's how things have been since almost a year now and I'm pretty much okay with my social behavior, opinions and perspective. I have accepted myself with the so called 'change', only they haven't!

I won't say I'm sad but I'm not happy either. I'm just fine.

Conclusion: I have forgotten everything about the art of maintaining relationships. And, I'm not being pardoned for this crime.

I'm on this mad binging spree since a long time now! I should stop. I've gained a lot of unnecessary weight.

Songs that I can relate to, recently...
Dead and gone- JT
One step closer- Linkin Park

Awaiting certain changes. Positive ones, of course.

And the rebellious phase continues…

There’s freedom and shackles.

There’s wind and fire.

There’s tranquility and fury.

There’s belief and oblivion.

There’s bliss and melancholy.

As I read more about psychedelia and psychedelic art, I’m getting obsessed with that culture.

There are times when I make mistakes, which are not really big and don't affect anyone per se, but I rebuke myself because I'm offending someone in my head and it's mean. 

Moving on,

I read some awesome quotes today on tumblr, which made me feel better so I'm sharing them here. I hope this makes you also feel better.  I hope you are so content already, there is no need to make you feel better.

"A few nice words can help a person more than you think."

"Give as much energy to your dreams as you do to your fears."

"Life doesn't get easier, you just get stronger."

"Never let anyone ruin you."

"Dear problem, My dick is bigger than you! (And I'm a girl so you don't exist)"

"Don't expect anyone to understand your journey especially if they have never walked your path."

"Your soul is rooting for you."

"It's useless to show how much you care for special someone when that person is also too busy getting somebody's attention."

"Life doesn't give you the people you want; it gives you the people you need - to help you, to hurt you, to leave you, and to love you & make you into the person you were meant to be."

because there's no one to talk...

It's been an emotional roller-coaster, this week.

I'm tensed and petrified.

I love you and want you to be alright... 

When you need your people the most but you don't say it because you want them to understand automatically and come to you and stand by you. 

The reason behind not saying and wanting them to get it could be the hope that there is someone who is always concerned, knows you in and out and makes sure that you've shared every little thing that bothers you. 

Sadly, no such person exists in the real world.

Because people have their own problems and they are always dealing with them, there is no time for them to look at your troubles.

Moreover, have you ever done that for anyone before you can even think about expecting such a thing?

Life these days is all about work, doodling, reading and family. I have no complains about it. It's good.

And yesterday, 

When I was with my cousin venting many other emotions and thoughts, she said, "Remember Carrie Bradshaw from Sex and the City..."

I Said, "Of course."

"She once stated 'Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they just need to run free til they find someone as wild to run with them.' Maybe this statement defines us", she said and smiled.   

And there it was, the right thing that maybe I wanted to hear.

There is something very similar in both of us. Maybe it was always there and we just realized. 

   

I felt like calling up a friend and talking but didn't know whom to call... so, I  turned to you bloggy doggy.

There's a difference between your personal diary, your blog and your friends. You should  know who out of the three should know what about you and who can help you the best at times.  

Lonliness

I see you. I can't hear you. I can't feel your presence around.
I see you looking at me.
I call out your name. You can't hear me.
I shout your name, quite loudly this time. You stand still as a stone.
My eyes well up. I need you. I scream your name with all my heart.
I see no movement.
I'm helpless. Tears break out from my eyes. There is no hope.
...........