I don't understand what is it that is refraining me from sleeping!? It seems as though I am turning nocturnal. I haven't slept in like days!! In fact I just had a big glass of milk ( ugh I hate it!) in order to sleep because I have to get up at 6 am...Oh god am I an official insomniac??
There are so many things going around me but I am not able to do anything. It feels as if my brain and my body have given up! My brain is just not working!!
One of my teacher's had once said and I quote,''Action and reaction are two different things and they are mutually exclusive, when it's time for action one should not go for the reaction...''.
Okay so now that its my time for action, it turns out that neither am I active nor reactive...and this is driving me nuts!!
Exams, personal issues, emotional problems, studies, responsibilities, pressure, classes...there is everything in my life that I need to be working on but I am not doing it...why?? Well I don't know the answer!
I really don't have a problem with my situation, I have a problem with me, I want me to handle the situation which I know I can but still my brain does not obey me... I desperately need to take charge of the situation and its high time now!!
You know I was thinking what is life without problems?? It will be so bland not having them, right? Also its good when new problems come up soon, that way you wont get time to mourn about the old ones!! Yes, its hard to believe that this is coming from me because I do crib about my problems but then problems are meant to be cribbed about I feel but after we are done solving them or just letting them go, that big sigh of relief is a bliss that makes you really feel contented for a moment and that's the best part.
We humans are never satisfied and that's why God lands us in troubles so that we get that one moment of utter contentment after the trouble gets sorted out...isn't he a Genius!!
P.S. I decided to have truce with God. After all I cannot hold grudges for long against anyone and he is too special for me to be on a war actually plus I am also scared of him a little!!
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