Merry Christmas!

My Christmas-y Desk!

My Christmas-y Desk!

Mt. Mary Church, Bandra 

Mt. Mary Church, Bandra 

Mt. Mary Church, Bandra 

The statue of Virgin Mary

The statue of Virgin Mary

A shop outside the church (Notice the Jesus Statues)

Christmas Tree at the Church 

A small crib at a building near the Church

My Thanksgiving!

No one likes to ask for favours, but sometimes circumstances are such that you have to ask for help.
I know... I too dislike such situations.
But,
When you have friends like I do, you will be comfortable even during such situations.
(I love you sexy for always being there! I know I've said it a million times before, but I feel like saying it again and again and again... because you really are always there for me! I am blessed to have you in my life!)

Also,
Having that one person at your workplace whose mere smile can make you feel like everything is going to be alright, is a blessing. Not everyone finds a special friend in a colleague. Thank you Mr. God!
Sadness is... when that friend has to leave for a better opportunity.
May Mr. God always bless you with success, happiness and good company. I love you! :*
(Bitch, not everyone has the honour to be a part of my blog, you better feel lucky if at all you ever read this one!)

Yay,
Got my secret Santa gift. It's a deo spray and it is exactly what I was planning on buying next!
But, you know what the best part is... not the gift, it's the one who gifted it to me. Maavshi.
Apart from exchanging a few words on some mornings (when I reach on time that is), we don't really speak that much, yet she gave me what I wanted.
Also, for her to actually spend this amount on me, my gift, it's a big deal. So, yes I feel guilty on making her spend that much unintentionally, but I am also really grateful to her for giving me this wonderful feeling and bringing a smile on my face, which is simply not ready to leave!
 Mr. God, please wave your magic wand and do something really sweet for her, on my behalf, this Christmas.

Today did not begin very well, but it is surely going to end in the best possible way! :)

Lastly,
Mr God, I love you! Thank you so much for blessing me with such a loving family, the best set of friends and the awesomest colleagues ever!

Christmas tomorrow. Excited now. Yay!

Pre-Christmas Celebration at Bandra

Yes, I went to Bandra again yesterday! That place is blooming with the Christmas Spirit. Just day before yesterday I blogged about the awesome festive decorations being sold on every nook and cranny of that place, and then yesterday, adding to my delight, there was a Christmas parade happening. All the Christmas carols and songs being played, fake snow being sprayed on the people around, distribution of chocolates and gifts, everyone wearing Santa caps, entertaining acts, and so much more took place there. 

I was so glad to be there and witness the enchantment of the season. Thanks to my friend who made a plan to go there otherwise I had planned on staying in yesterday.

Also, wherever we went yesterday, we could hear the Christmas carols being sung or played. It gave me such a celestial and rapturous feeling being around such joyful merrymaking!

X'mas Parade at Bandra, Hill Road.

X'mas Parade at Bandra, Hill Road.

X'mas Parade at Bandra, Hill Road.

Fire act at the parade.

A roadside plum cake shop.

A hawker selling decorative Christmas articles.

On a cold Saturday...

It's not a secret that winter is my favorite season, but I would still love to say it again that I love, simply love, winter!

This year, Mumbai is actually cold during winter!

Oh my my... how happy this chilliness makes me! :D

Anyway,
Those moments when you don't wish to feel about certain people in a certain way because you know that it's unfair to be so negative towards them. But, you still continue to hold those little grudges for that little while, and justify doing so by calling it normal human behavior. However, that excuse doesn't really help you from not feeling guilty about feeling negative about them... because, in your heart, you know you are being unfair!

Christmas is almost here! Yay! I have no special plans. Doesn't mean I'm not allowed to feel special about it!

A Christmas shop at Bandra, Hill Road.

They had amazing decorative items and adornments in this little roadside shop. In fact, there were many hawkers also selling baubles and other cute things in Bandra. It was so Christmas-y and positive and blissful being there today, surrounded by the festive spirit. Loved it!

Also,
I don't understand why they call monsoon as the 'season of love and romance' when it should actually be winter! How can you not find this weather the most romantic, the most loving climate ever?
(Yes, love and romance are two very, very different things!)

Twitter is addictive! Very much.

Adieu bloggy doggy! See you soon. :*

They say one should never forget where they come from.

I guess I was... Good, Mr. God reminded me. Thank you so much. 

Antidote - Swedish House Mafia

I wish...

Why do we wish so much! 

Think no more!

That moment when you finally decide to give up on your 'neurotic' act because it is literally driving you crazy.
And, finally after you come out of your delusional state, you see how badly your absence, ignorance rather, has affected the real people around you.
Good luck dealing with the awful feeling of not being there when they truly needed you!
 
"When words fail, music prevails."

Above & Beyond (Now I know why everyone was going crazy about them)

Katy Perry - Roar

Counting Stars - One Republic

Lana Del Rey (I love her almost as much as Adele)

Hardwell vs Goyte featuring Kimbra - Spaceman (The best mix ever)  

Bad Romance- Lady Gaga (Some songs can never go out of style)

O Womaniya 

I feel that I have newly started deciphering that yes we have all grown up. Now, when people around me are either getting married or are contemplating marriage. This new knowledge has brought along a lot of inhibitions and insecurities about the future.

Note to self:

• Take it easy sometimes, okay?
• Stop taking everything (including yourself) so seriously!
• There's never a need to thoroughly analyze the actions of other people or yourself. Well, not unless you actually join the CBI! 
• Come out of your sick and stupid dream-bubble. Now.    

Lastly,

I am glad that Winter is finally showing up! 

Times when you feel you are not passionate enough about your passion.

And, when you are not happy with the fact that someone, who is not all that important in your life, manages to be the master of your moods! 

Aaarrgghh... I hate this! 

So you mess things up sometimes, so what!
You also always find a way out of it, right?
And, if not, you simply stop bothering yourself with it by not giving a damn.

And...
Music is not just on my mind, but on my phone too now! Yay! So happy!

Also,
You... confuse me!

Childhood

These two little boys were playing gun on the side of the street near my workplace.

We are all born with a good soul, a pure mind.
Away from the evil ways of the world.
Lost in our own bubble of goodness.
Happy faces making us glow in glee.
Sad faces curling our lips downwards.

Then, time happened...
Innocence started to wear off.
Compassion and empathy were mere words now.
We had grown out of our childhood, We had grown up.

I Love Hardwell!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=R5JGOnZGjLg


Mistakes that you do. That won't stop bothering you no matter how hard you try. Yes, regrets are annoying and they won't let you live in peace till they have sucked the last drop of blood from your head.
And, it doesn't make any sense talking about it to anyone because all they can say is 'forget about it', 'such things happen', 'it's okay', etc. It's not their fault as nothing can make you feel better about what has happened. You just have to wait for time to erode your memory of it.

Final goodbyes list amongst the most difficult things to deal with in life. I wish things were different. 

It's strange how one single relationship can change you as a person and change the way you see all your other relationships, while it lasted and when it broke. Yes, I'm still stuck there. As I've mentioned before, I can never move on.

Anyway, I finished my next Cecelia Ahern, 'A place called here'. I'm scared to see the day when I'll finish all her books. I know it will happen soon. But, I don't want to get out of the magical world that she has created, yet. 

Currently reading The laws of the spirit world. My cousin recommended this book.

My cousin without whom it would've been very difficult to remain sane and survive. 

P.S.: A friendship is also a relationship.

  

NOVEMBER

My 'Nov'ember is here.
My new start is here.

With itself it will bring not just new plans but fresh implementations.
It's going to free me from the excruciating arms of my demons.
It will draw me closer to my guardian angels.
It's goal will be to make me stronger by reminding me my goals.
It won't let me cry to sleep any more.
It will keep me hopeful of the umpteen bright tomorrows in the waiting.
To make me smile from the bottom of my heart each day will be it's priority.
It will turn the mistakes I made into lessons.
It will teach me how to be happy again.

My 'Nov'ember is here... to make me a better person.


P.S.: 'Nov' read as 'nav' means new in Hindi. 

That phase when you really try hard not to bother yourself with what others do or say but you do not succeed...

And, when this phase prolongs its stay...

I'm going crazy! I need help. Really!

Anyway, 

I finished  Kiterunner. It's so heartbreaking and leaves an impact that won't let you sleep for days. Pain cannot be articulated in a better manner than this. Khaled Hosseini is such a skilful writer. There's so much to learn from his writing, the way he expresses, his metaphors. I am just spellbound.

Yesterday, my baby brother tells me...
"You know, your problem is that you say you don't expect but you really really do. And, no one in this world really cares enough so please stop doing this to yourself because I don't like to see you sad..."
He's not completely wrong, but he's not completely right either.
He is one sweet thing and I love him like no other. May God be with him always. 

Let's call the security!

Today if you ask me to describe human being in a single word, I would say insecurity.
Last whole week was like that, all I could see was insecurity brimming everywhere.

Why are we so insecure by nature?
Why can't we be satisfied with what we have in our hands?
I wondered...

Perhaps, it's because we see others having plenty of something we lack in, or because we had it earlier and now it's either fading away or it's completely gone.

Be it friendships, relationships, love, weight loss, money, job, career, future, anything, everything... insecurity persists and it always will.
It's like the tides, sometimes provoking high tides haunt your life, and then there are low tides that quietly come touch you and tread backwards

The problem with me is all people around me are infected with high intensity of insecurity, at the same time. And, I don't know about you but I do believe in the concept of 'vibes'. Yes, it's contagious - insecurity. No matter how hard you try to hide, it will for look you, grab you by the hand and punch you hard in the face.

I'm sick and tired - literally also, thanks to this stupid sinus attack - of people being at their rudest best and then blaming their 'insecurities' for it; of people shedding tears, making their loved ones feel helpless, because they are 'insecure' about a certain something; of people screaming at others in the most offensive tone and justifying to themselves that it was their 'insecurity' speaking and not them; and of all the rest who parade their 'insecurities' in various other ways.

I hope all of these discontent souls find peace in the coming week. I hope I find peace too. If not completely, at least a piece of peace. If not for long, at least for a couple of days.

When the inconceivable happens...

Summertime Sadness by Lana Del Rey is an incredible number
"Honey, I'm on fire, I feel it everywhere 
Nothing scares me anymore."

In her shoes - the movie. 

..........

They fell in love years back. They were not perfect, but they knew how to love each other perfectly. Years went by. The love remained the same, grew rather. Until 'change' came.
He met new people, he saw a new shade of life, he loved it, he changed. Because he wanted to.
She still stood there. Watching him become a stranger. Hoping it to be a plain phase. She waited long.
He was a different person now. It was the same old her.
She was helpless. They were supposed to be together 'forever' and he had simply vanished. There was this stranger disguised to be him, but it was not him.
He's not a bad person. He's not wrong or culpable.
She cried, yelped, prayed, feared... It's over.


How do you trust anyone after something like this happens? How do you trust anyone after knowing something like this can happen?

Being a mere spectator to this is so saddening and perturbing. I can't gauge the intensity of the pain and hurt she would be carrying in her heart right now. And, that he would, I believe, will go through at some given point of time in future.

Love is an illusion. Togetherness is a delusion. I was right in believing so.
.......

When no one succeeds in comforting you.
When no one manages to get even a faint smile on your face.
When no one cares enough for that little moment.
When no one makes you feel loved and wanted.
It's time you stop fretting about it and be there for yourself.
Only you can love you the way you've wanted to be loved.


Eagerly waiting for the exit of October heat and the mystical entry of the wonderous wintertide.


I wish...
Why do we wish so much!

And, the blankness prevails...

I have fallen in love with this little tale. It won't leave my mind. I've been repeating it over and over again in my head.

When an ugly event from past decides to revisit your mind...

And, to you,
I buried the very thought of being like we used to be, months back.Yet you manage to hurt me each time I think about us. But, I'm fine. Really.

Life is full of people who'll keep finding flaws in you and your work, whether the faults truly exist or not, whether with good intentions or bad. You have to learn how not to be demoralized and keep going on.
When they say that you should take it positively, ask them fuck themselves, and simply ignore.
Because when you've heard bad things about yourself all your life, they fail to serve any kind of inspirational or motivational purpose after a while.

Having said that, constructive criticism should always be welcomed because that helps you learn and grow, in every aspect of your life.

I wish...
Why do we wish so much!

Oh yeah... my net is working, and I'm networking!

"....So wake me up when it's all over, when I'm wiser and I'm older..."

EDM is addictive! Literally!

What do you prefer chat or call?

In olden day, like really old, when there was no phone, the only way people could communicate was by meeting each other. Communication was not restricted to the use of words, but it included expressions, body language and the tone of voice. 

Then Graham came up with telephone, communication now happened conveniently, and without expressions and body language.  

Some Mr. Martin Cooper invented cellular phones in 1970s, which added to the convenience.  

And, Wikipedia affirms..

"SMS messaging was used for the first time on 3 December 1992, when Neil Papworth, a 22-year-old test engineer for Sema Group in the UK[2] (now Airwide Solutions),[3] used a personal computer to send the text message "Merry Christmas" via the Vodafone network to the phone of Richard Jarvis.[4][5]"

The SMS service made our lives more easy. As years passed, brilliant minds kept re-inventing technology, and thus, convenience.

Now, we have messaging apps like Whatsapp, Hike, BBM, etc.   

Communication is easier than ever, and doesn't require the tone of voice now. Mere usage of words is enough. And, our choice words today represent us more than ever. 

I would like to list some other benefits apart from convenience that 'chatting' has provided us with:

• You can hide your true feelings in a better way because there is no one looking in your eyes or noticing the hesitation in your voice
• You can totally pretend to be someone you are not, who's gonna know? 
• You can even couple up with a bunch of friends and flirt with one girl/boy together, without her/him even getting to know about it. Sounds fun, eh?
• Basically, you can lie easily, about EVERYTHING!

How cool is that? 

Or how lame is that?

You decide for yourself. It's pretty subjective.

P.S.: Deliberate usage of terms like 'cool', 'lame', 'totally', and 'like' has been made in this post so it reads like today's generation, 'as in' we, talk... rather chat. 

When your dreams are different from those that your loved ones have for you... What would you do?

If you walk on the path that makes you happy, that seems right to you, work towards making your dreams come true... wouldn't you be called selfish, ruthless and callous?

Because you are hurting the ones who love you the most by not doing what they think is best for you.

If you take the road they think will bring you all the happiness in the world, you are not being you. It's someone else's life. You are being unfair to your ownself.

It's a difficult choice to make, but there is no other way out of this situation. Circumstances like these tell you if you believe more in yourself or your loved ones.

The Weekly

When other people's thought process inspires you...

Not because they are very intellectual or righteous, but because they seem to be more sorted about certain things in life, which you are not.

Sometimes despite of knowing that you should not be thinking about certain things because pondering and planning will not help at all, you still continue obsessing about it.

These are those things/outcomes/situations that depend on your destiny. You wondering about will they or won’t they happen is not going to help. It will simply keep you engaged in day-dreaming, which keeps you from paying heed to reality. So, you would be neglecting your present while imagining what your future would be like. How dumb is that? Yet, we all do it.

Being around happy people living not so happy lives inspires me to be happier in life.

Sleep deprivation leaves you cranky.

Unless you start walking in a certain direction you won’t know if it is the right path that you've taken. Moreover, what’s the worst that can happen, you will discover it’s not the right path. You might fail badly or hurt yourself or have a heart break, but eventually there will be a learning that you won’t forget for the rest of your life. It won’t be anything that you won’t be able to bear. After all, that’s what life is all about, right? Making mistakes and taking lessons. So don’t be scared to do something your heart wishes to do.

Music

Greyhound

Crank it up

Wake me up - AVICII

Born to die - Lana Del Rey

Aye Zindagi - Suryaveer (Prague)

"...Aye zindagi gale lagale. 

Humne bhi tere har ek gum ko gale se lagaya hain, hain naa..."

I wish I could read your mind. I wish I could obey my mind. 

I wish... Why do we wish so much!

P.S.: This post has been written little by little all week. Thus, the title. 

   

The Magic called Music.

The only thing that has kept me going today is Music! EDM to be precise.

SAVIORS OF THE monDAY:
Hardwell
Avicii
Boneless
Best of Tomorrowland Vol. I Chaquea Mix

In order to live in the present, we have to stop anticipating the future. We all know that, right? Then why don't we concentrate on today, everyday? Why on somedays we prefer to dream about how it will be like in the days to come? Why can't we keep the dreaming bit for the night? Why day-dream?
Perhaps, because it gives us hopes.
But, what about the unnecessary expectations that start popping due to these hopes?
Now, that's life, isn't it? Learning to deal with unnecessary expectations... from yourself, from people, and from Mr. God.

I feel like going dancing tonite! :D

Warning! Mushy stuff ahead.

Friend... not anymore...

When I see you, I can't see a friend anymore. All I see is disappointment, and I am sure you too feel the same. It's just sad how two people, who understood each other completely, suddenly fall apart so badly. Maybe, they were never meant to be together. How I wish, for once, you could know what the real problem was, how you brutally ripped my soul... and, rather than agreeing to the problem, you would just put an end to it... Sadly, it did not happen and I know it never will because you are not the person who cares enough... enough to bring those days back in MY life. And, for the record, your relationship was never the issue, really. 

Trust me on this one, it's because of you that my belief in the word "Trust", which was almost dying anyway, has faded away completely. You may have lost a friend but I lost a part of me, and this is not an exaggeration. It's not a scar, it's an open wound, which will never heal. Partly, because I won't ever allow it to heal. 

I'm not blaming you. I know, I have made my share of mistakes, but I just wanted you to make things better whereas you went on making them worse. 

And now, to a certain someone...   

You make me happy. Please continue doing so.  

The butterflies in my tummy are not ready to leave. They love it here it seems! :) :D 

Disclaimer. This is just another bundle of rants.

I am really not the emotional person I used to be. Doesn't mean I don't appreciate or respect my friendships and relationships. I still am a human.

Uff! I'm just sick of being the incapable friend for everyone. Can't they just cut me some slack? Let me be. Not expect anything from me. My expectations anyway have all faded away. Nothing in life is going so wrong that I'm emotionally disturbed or anything. I'm just a more relaxed person, with a temper.

Having said all that, I still NEED people in my life! They all think I need to be left alone and I don't care anymore. Someone has rightly stated, "Presumption is the mother of all fuck-ups."

I don't understand how to explain! 

It's such a disappointment to be misunderstood by the people you thought understood you more than anyone else.

While having a heated argument today, a friend said, "You are at loss."

Sigh..

I know that and I even said it. Everyone's just walking away or I'm making them do so, perhaps. Whatever be the reason, I'm the one who's being abandoned, right? So, it has to be my loss.

Here's one big THANK YOU to EACH 'Friend' who has very conveniently (or not so conveniently) given up on me! True, you have left a vacuum in my life but you have also saved me from the guilt of being a disappointment in the name of a friend.
(This is not out of fury or melancholy, I mean it in a very positive and mature way. I can't be who you want me to be anymore and if you can't accept that, it's good for you to leave. I'll deal with it.)

And, This is not self-pity! I just know the nature of problems everyone seems to have with me and I don't feel like working on them and I don't feel sorry for myself for that. 

Once a friend in one of her blogs had called me an extremely emotional shit and hated me for being so. When I stopped being so, she said I've changed and hated me for that. It was funny and sad at the same time. 

Anyway...

By now I've understood that it's not a 'phase', it's my way of life. Because, that's how things have been since almost a year now and I'm pretty much okay with my social behavior, opinions and perspective. I have accepted myself with the so called 'change', only they haven't!

I won't say I'm sad but I'm not happy either. I'm just fine.

Conclusion: I have forgotten everything about the art of maintaining relationships. And, I'm not being pardoned for this crime.

I'm on this mad binging spree since a long time now! I should stop. I've gained a lot of unnecessary weight.

Songs that I can relate to, recently...
Dead and gone- JT
One step closer- Linkin Park

Awaiting certain changes. Positive ones, of course.

And the rebellious phase continues…

There’s freedom and shackles.

There’s wind and fire.

There’s tranquility and fury.

There’s belief and oblivion.

There’s bliss and melancholy.

As I read more about psychedelia and psychedelic art, I’m getting obsessed with that culture.

There are times when I make mistakes, which are not really big and don't affect anyone per se, but I rebuke myself because I'm offending someone in my head and it's mean. 

Moving on,

I read some awesome quotes today on tumblr, which made me feel better so I'm sharing them here. I hope this makes you also feel better.  I hope you are so content already, there is no need to make you feel better.

"A few nice words can help a person more than you think."

"Give as much energy to your dreams as you do to your fears."

"Life doesn't get easier, you just get stronger."

"Never let anyone ruin you."

"Dear problem, My dick is bigger than you! (And I'm a girl so you don't exist)"

"Don't expect anyone to understand your journey especially if they have never walked your path."

"Your soul is rooting for you."

"It's useless to show how much you care for special someone when that person is also too busy getting somebody's attention."

"Life doesn't give you the people you want; it gives you the people you need - to help you, to hurt you, to leave you, and to love you & make you into the person you were meant to be."

because there's no one to talk...

It's been an emotional roller-coaster, this week.

I'm tensed and petrified.

I love you and want you to be alright... 

When you need your people the most but you don't say it because you want them to understand automatically and come to you and stand by you. 

The reason behind not saying and wanting them to get it could be the hope that there is someone who is always concerned, knows you in and out and makes sure that you've shared every little thing that bothers you. 

Sadly, no such person exists in the real world.

Because people have their own problems and they are always dealing with them, there is no time for them to look at your troubles.

Moreover, have you ever done that for anyone before you can even think about expecting such a thing?

Life these days is all about work, doodling, reading and family. I have no complains about it. It's good.

And yesterday, 

When I was with my cousin venting many other emotions and thoughts, she said, "Remember Carrie Bradshaw from Sex and the City..."

I Said, "Of course."

"She once stated 'Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they just need to run free til they find someone as wild to run with them.' Maybe this statement defines us", she said and smiled.   

And there it was, the right thing that maybe I wanted to hear.

There is something very similar in both of us. Maybe it was always there and we just realized. 

   

I felt like calling up a friend and talking but didn't know whom to call... so, I  turned to you bloggy doggy.

There's a difference between your personal diary, your blog and your friends. You should  know who out of the three should know what about you and who can help you the best at times.  

Lonliness

I see you. I can't hear you. I can't feel your presence around.
I see you looking at me.
I call out your name. You can't hear me.
I shout your name, quite loudly this time. You stand still as a stone.
My eyes well up. I need you. I scream your name with all my heart.
I see no movement.
I'm helpless. Tears break out from my eyes. There is no hope.
...........

I see!

Colors are the source of emotions. Each color invokes a different feeling inside. Each of them has special characteristics and a different meaning.

There’s only one common thing among all, each of them is beautiful. Yet in that similarity also there is a difference, the beauty of each has a different and unique shape.

They symbolize sadness. They symbolize happiness. And, all that lie in between. They impart beauty to every object, living or non-living.

It’s so hard to imagine life without color.

You can’t see the grayish road while you walk.  You miss that green little torn packet with light gold bordering of Radha Souf lying on the road. You can’t see the brown dog with white patches barking at a dark beggar with a white beard embellished with dirt, whose body is covered with dusty red and brown rags.

They are present in everything, big or small, real or unreal, natural or man-made. Even if you close your eyes or turn blind, you will see only one thing, black color.

Looking at life in that one single color keeps you deprived of those little feelings, epiphanies and discomforts, which only other colors are capable of producing.

Today, I want to thank Mr. God for bestowing me with the ability to see, for allowing me to feel every possible emotion.

Mixed Fruit Salad.

I don’t know what to do with myself! Procrastination has its roots stuck deep inside of me!

I've read a lot of articles on most writers being a victim to procrastination but I don’t want to be in that writers’ list or at least not in the first hundred.

Solution: Kill the laziness.

I’m feeling sick, physically and mentally.

This Sunday was fun. I miss Winter. 

One thing I noticed, sometimes you tend to say things just for the heck of it, to have a conversation going. At that time you feel what am I saying, do I even mean it, do I agree with myself, why am I talking like that. But, later you’ll realize, it was your sub-conscious mind speaking and it will all make sense then. And perhaps, you might be embarrassed that you revealed your true and hidden feelings out in the open.  

I like working in the nights with light music playing along. I like blogging while doing so. 

You know an eyelash cannot actually fulfill that big dream, that wish of yours but still sometimes out of hope you like to believe that it will do so, and you softly blow it from the back of your palm, which I just got to know is also known as 'Opisthenar'.
What is life without hope? Death, maybe (I know that was a rhetorical question I stated but the answer just came to me instantly.)

Music at the moment:
Life is Short
Since you've been around
Daddy Cool
Here is a heart
Scratch 
Other side of the world
The dog song
(Yes, these are the same old numbers I like.)

There's maddening traffic everyday in Mumbai. Traffic that doesn't allow any vehicle to move for hours! It's becoming difficult to cope with travelling in this city now.

NO HORN OK PLEASE

What is it with Mumbaikars and honking?

Okay so, you are stuck in traffic and want to reach some place urgently so you start honking like mad. For once, please notice that others are also stuck in the same traffic, and the person driving the vehicle ahead of you is not having the time of his life in that situation.

Stop creating unnecessary noise pollution you fucking moron!!

MONSOON GO SOON

Due to rains, all autowalas have become very pricey, quite literally also. I’m so mad at these autowalas; they think of themselves as the kings of Mumbai, which they are not! I badly need a Vespa now.
Soon I shall get one for myself post monsoon.

Anyway,
I should get back to work now and maybe pop another Crocin!

Planet of Naricissists

Many a times I feel I’m a narcissist. Then I wonder who isn’t. And then I realize, I’m defending myself by generalizing this behavior, which adds to my narcissism. 

But, coming to think of it, I still haven’t met a single person who is not a narcissist and does not wish to seek attention in some way or the other. I don’t know how not to be one amongst them, but I really want to.

Realization always comes easy. But, doing the right thing is always arduous.

Monsoon is depressing. Or maybe my mood is… Whatever, I’m not very fond of rains anyway!

Doodling is like meditation for me. It always helps. It may not impart any positivity in me but it does clear all the negativity from the head.

Yesterday night, I was randomly thinking how my life has changed, it’s like complete revamping. I’m happy with the way it is right now. I’m happy that I learned to follow my heart. I’m happy that I’m doing it my way. I’m happy there won’t be any more blaming-others. The successes and failures will be completely mine. My life is completely mine.  No, this is not called being narcissist, it is called being alive.

It was all going good until last week. This week was very off.

Anyway... I'm sure days will get better.

Rambling in the noon.

I love my work!
Advertising is Awesome. Advertising is life.
And writing... it's me.

Need to work on certain things. It's high time!

One of the worst things happening in life right now is I don't get to listen to music much due to my bum phone, which annoys me like nothing else does!
Yes, I still grumble about it and will continue to do so until I get myself a good MP3 Player! I need one so desperately. Can't live without music! :( :'(

There's not much of pondering happening in my head but suddenly there's this urge to travel. I know everyone would love to see new places, meet new people, experience new cultures, breath in a different air, get that celestial feeling. I am no different. I want to do all of that.

When I told one of my friend about this, he said I must have seen YJHD recently, and its the movie talking. I told him, I haven't and that this is not the first time I'm getting this craving.
I'm aware of the fact that not all wishes come true, but by now I also know, if you are determined and the wish is realistic enough, you can make it come true.

Back-bitching, eh?

Is there a person in your life, for whom you haven't spoken badly behind their back?
Have you told them all that you felt about them, when you were annoyed at them?
There's no lies between you?

What led me thinking about this, if you ask... I got introduced to some "bitching" done by a friend recently.
Human tendency, you see. You don't like someone, you will want others to understand why you don't like them and join the hatred club, just to feel better. More importantly, to feel right!

So, is there anyone in my life I've never really spoken ill about to others but them?
Yes, two people. My baby and a friend, maybe because they understand my intentions more than my behavior, which no one else does. That doesn't mean we don't fight or argue.

Point to be noted.
One should always have that one person in life who will understand their intentions more than their behavior. These people know the real you. But, the worst thing to do to them will be taking them for granted. Then again, the best part about them, they will still understand and keep no malice in the heart.

So, does it mean that others are not as important in your life, or you in their's?
No, importance is still there, it's the understanding and trust that lacks behind.

Uff... Trust? Again, really?
I think, I'm over-doing it!
I'm obsessed with the word and at the same time, with its existence in the real world!

P.S.: One should still not trust ANYONE with their real secrets. If you already have, then be ready to have certain regrets (like me).

Choose your words wisely.

Forgiveness comes easy, trust doesn’t. It either takes years or never happens again.

Words. Why don’t people realize how powerful they are! They can break someone’s heart, make someone smile, break a promise, give an assurance. Too many happenings and non-happenings are dependent on your choice of words. Anger is a terrorist that makes use of words as a weapon in the most disastrous and ghastly manner possible.

And,

At times I feel, I force myself to think in a certain way in order to protect myself from getting hurt but mostly, I don’t listen to myself and end up feeling like shit.

Everyday’s to-do list:

• Obey yourself
• Don’t eat too much
• Think outside the box
• Keep your temper in check