February 14, 2014

Belated Happy Birthday, Bloggy Doggy! You are three! :D
Also, Happy Valentine's Day, belated! :*

Thank you for such wonderful three years Bloggy Doggy! You have helped me grow in every aspect, and I love you! :* <3
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Mixed Fruit Salad.

I don’t know what to do with myself! Procrastination has its roots stuck deep inside of me!

I've read a lot of articles on most writers being a victim to procrastination but I don’t want to be in that writers’ list or at least not in the first hundred.

Solution: Kill the laziness.

I’m feeling sick, physically and mentally.

This Sunday was fun. I miss Winter. 

One thing I noticed, sometimes you tend to say things just for the heck of it, to have a conversation going. At that time you feel what am I saying, do I even mean it, do I agree with myself, why am I talking like that. But, later you’ll realize, it was your sub-conscious mind speaking and it will all make sense then. And perhaps, you might be embarrassed that you revealed your true and hidden feelings out in the open.  

I like working in the nights with light music playing along. I like blogging while doing so. 

You know an eyelash cannot actually fulfill that big dream, that wish of yours but still sometimes out of hope you like to believe that it will do so, and you softly blow it from the back of your palm, which I just got to know is also known as 'Opisthenar'.
What is life without hope? Death, maybe (I know that was a rhetorical question I stated but the answer just came to me instantly.)

Music at the moment:
Life is Short
Since you've been around
Daddy Cool
Here is a heart
Scratch 
Other side of the world
The dog song
(Yes, these are the same old numbers I like.)

There's maddening traffic everyday in Mumbai. Traffic that doesn't allow any vehicle to move for hours! It's becoming difficult to cope with travelling in this city now.

NO HORN OK PLEASE

What is it with Mumbaikars and honking?

Okay so, you are stuck in traffic and want to reach some place urgently so you start honking like mad. For once, please notice that others are also stuck in the same traffic, and the person driving the vehicle ahead of you is not having the time of his life in that situation.

Stop creating unnecessary noise pollution you fucking moron!!

MONSOON GO SOON

Due to rains, all autowalas have become very pricey, quite literally also. I’m so mad at these autowalas; they think of themselves as the kings of Mumbai, which they are not! I badly need a Vespa now.
Soon I shall get one for myself post monsoon.

Anyway,
I should get back to work now and maybe pop another Crocin!

Happy Valentine's Day!

Today I feel like creating something very beautiful, something that comes straight from the heart.


Cecilia Ahern writes magical stories. I love her writing. Of what books I've read, she always elaborates the sadness and melancholy of the characters in the story so well that despite the happy ending, I still cannot get over those tragedies. Her stories are all heart-breaking at some point and that's the beauty of it.

I can't make you love me- Ester Dean
Fade into Darkness- Avicii
Alive- Superchick

Happy birthday bloggy doggy! Time flies and you never realize that, most of the times. And, on a day like this, it suddenly strikes you, how far you have traveled along with time.

Too many inhibitions have surrounded me. I don't know whether I should be trusting me, my heart... but then there ain't another option.

I loved the google doodle for today. Its damn cute!

 Lastly, Happy Valentine's day! :)

Not the time to cower!!

And the machine started working again :)

Mr God knew it very well that I need this now, so he decided to swing his magic wand and start my rickety computer! And also, Paa got a new spike-guard for it ;P

*sigh*

Gave my second exam today, it too dint go well, just like the 1st one! I so wanted this to be it! I am kinda stuck in this stolid elongated "study" phase... I know there are many others like me but that really doesn't help! 

I know I am stuck here, I know I am culpable for it, I know I myself will have to try hard and get out of here! 

*gasp*

I am so lost at the moment! Perhaps whatever did I was not up-to the brink. Perhaps some stones were still unturned, some pages were still unflipped... 

When the one who is to be blamed is you yourself... there are no words... seriously!

Nonetheless 6 more to go... Maybe things dint go well up until now but that doesn't mean I'm gonna sit back... I may have lost hopes but I am not gonna lose on the hard work... I'll continue with my efforts, though MY efforts are or won't be enough but that won't keep me back from trying... I don't know whether I will make it or not but certainly know I will not quit! At least not now!

It's getting arduous to maintain positivism... I have been a little negative since last 3-4 days but then when it comes to rationality, rigid positivism seems like denial... 

Anyway... whatever it is, it's not gonna wince me down... I will go on unflinchingly!!

Had read a quote long back, which was something like... Magic happens only when you believe in yourself...
I don't know how far I believe in myself but I know I am not quitting!!

  

Fully Loaded!

Sheww!
Okay so... One day after ages I talk to people and interact a little and here I am loaded with behemothic & colossal amount of information to handle, out which some is supposed to be a secret!
Haha...  Ohhh Good God... it's really too much for me to handle... too many mixed emotions and feelings! I really tried to vent it all out by writing out all what I felt, everywhere possible because I couldn't say out loud but it still didn't leave my mind alone so here I am blogging it out!
I feel funny! I am just smiling and laughing in awe!
Shit man... Mr God is really awesome at his job of making life so damn unpredictable! I seriously can't stop laughing! The event that has happened is not even close to funny but I am finding it to be so! Only I know the reason (and Mr God, Of course)! ;) :P

Sigh... Everyone out there (and by everyone I mean EVERYONE) is looking for love or falling in love or making love! Haha.... No offense to anyone but I find it a little tickling! No, not that I am saying it's wrong or anything so don't get me wrong... just that everyone I've spoken to today since noon, has spoken on this subject or things that linger around this subject!

Man... It's like an overdose!
Either love and relationships are really over-rated by everyone or I under-rate them (at times)... One out of the two is certainly correct!

I did not study the entire day and I am feeling guilty about it because with the amount of portion left I should be licking my books and swallowing each word in them like crazy but unfortunately I am not doing it... nonetheless I shall do that now on...

Oh my! It was one mad day but now that it's gone I should concentrate on the eminently important thing i.e. my big exam!


To one of my super bestie... I love that you consider me SO important in your life and I also love to be prioritized (who doesn't!) ... so please continue doing that, okay!! Love you loads, always and forever! 

It's been weeks and Adele has been on my playlist incessantly, love her voice!
So long bloggy doggy!

P.S.: I HATE SUMMER!! IT AGGRAVATES ME EVEN INDOORS!

I hate 'have tos'!

I've upgraded my blogger and yeah... it's different! I don't know in what way is this the "upgraded" version yet! Since I am not used to it, I am finding it too drab to work with!


Hmm,
So, long back when I revealed my love for writing to my bunch, they started teasing me saying "Soon you'll  be out with a book... blah..." and I used to laugh it off, giving them a "maybe".
Of course, I'd never contemplated about the idea of writing a book, earnestly... But, today I am certain about it! There is going to be no book!
Why? Well, I don't wanna state the reasons...
Also, writing is not only restricted to "books"! It's an art and it totally depends on your creativity, how you decide to play with it!  


'Devil woman' by Cliff Richard :)
I heard this song from the movie Housefull 2 on the radio today, I don't remember the lyrics or the title of the song but it is some papa song. This song is a ghastly Hindi version of 'We speak no Americano' !! It hugely sucks! Man... it's such a disgrace to the awesome original one!              


"Awareness without action is worthless" - Phil McGraw  
Something that I need to understand and IMPLEMENT!


Just sometime back I read an article by Osho. He is the first spiritual Guru, whom I've heard, promoting live-in relationships for a few years before marriage. Dude... I've started respecting this man more! Whatever things I've read, that he has written, always make sense to me. There's really lot to learn from him! No doubt Badi Mummy devoted him so religiously!
I don't understand why our society hates the idea of 'live-in' relationships! I personally believe more in live-in than marriage! There are too many 'have tos' in a marriage! Like, you have to throw these stupid wedding parties, you (girls) have to leave your parents but he still has his folks by his side, you have to stick to that person even if you realize you never loved him/her or love just never happened (because divorce is looked upon with contempt in the Indian society), you (guys) have to give huge pin-money to the wives (they should be earning themself) etc. etc. One single stupid certificate adds on too much of burden! It's like this binding obligation, which you have to fulfill and you just have to get married to be accepted by the society! 
I mean, why do you need a certificate to validate your relationship if you really love the person and if it's arranged marriage, you are stuck for the rest of your life (if at all true love never comes your way)?! 


(Again very subjective and mostly unacceptable by all!!)
Gasp, me and my exceptionally liberated ideas, I hope we find OUR space in the real world too!
Anyway,
I have to study now! 
(A month to go)
                                                                                                                                                             

Happy Valentines day!

It's valentines day... and also my bloggy-doggy's 1st birthday! Happy Birthday 'My Dreamsville'!! This blog is a piece of me... just can't articulate what it means to me... :) :)


Valentines day... A day that gives you just another reason to celebrate love. It is a day full of positive energy. Love is literally in the air on this day! I know, many don't believe in celebrating valentines but as I said, it gives you just another reason to celebrate love AND if you really love 'love', you won't refrain from celebrating it!
But, the V-Day kinda emphasizes the disadvantages of single-hood :/


There are some songs that give you a rush... You just capitulate to its music, its lyrics, its melody... 'Bad Romance' by Lady Gaga is one such song! I am in deep love with this track! Almost all Lady Gaga numbers are enchanting!!
"I want your love and I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
I want your love and all your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oooooohhhhhhhhhhh caught in bad romance..."  SIMPLY LOVE IT!!! :D




Why do people always choose to consider your words over your intentions? If someone really loves you, be it your family, friends or your beloved, you have got to trust in them that they would never even think about hurting you in any way.
The feeling you get when you have been highly misconstrued by a friend... is awfully upsetting! :( :(
Why do people love to think that everyone else is here to hurt them and the entire world is conspiring against them?? 
I mean, quit the negativity, dude!! Stop being so unaffirmative and cynical!! The world doesn't exactly revolve around you! 
I am fucking sick of being around the grouchy ones, the sullen ones and the huffy ones!!!


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There's always a part of your heart that can never think practically or rationally come what may!  


And sometimes despite of having many dear ones, when you are feeling very chatty, somehow you can't manage to find a single person to talk to!!
Then, you realize that you actually blabber and drivel a little too much!


It's not good to turn blase about important issues. Levity and flippancy can really mess your life up to no limits!  
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Enticed...

I do not have anything in my mind to blog right now but since my computer is working perfectly fine :) (touchwood), I got enticed to post something.

'Who owns my heart' by Miley Cyrus is :))))

Bloomer died- RIP

I failed to take care of a plant, I guess I should drop the idea of getting a pet :(

People are so different. Sometimes I am flabbergasted with the way different people react in differing situations. Why is everyone so different? How can a single circumstance get umpteen different reactions? HUMANS are so confusing, it is very difficult to understand even one and most of the times, that one human is you yourself... I still don't understand myself and I know that I will take this entire lifetime to fathom me, and maybe my future lives too! Cluelessness is the most frequent feeling that runs inside me....

'Hiding my heart' by Adele is enchanting...

I've been so out of touch with writing. I mean, I do blog and write in my diary and blue book too. But content writing and the like, I miss! 

I had to choose... I loathe selecting out of two things I desperately need to let my life work in order... why do certain valuable and beloved things have to be mutually exclusive :(((

'Dil toh pagal Hain' really makes you believe someone somewhere is made for you and once the movie is over, the reality is back and you discern that it always happens in the movies. 

There so many characters from so many different movies that I would love to be... I was just musing the other day, oftentimes the actors who play certain characters in a movie and have been working on it for months would get attached to their reel roles so much that they would never want to get back to their real life, it would be so difficult to deal with such situations. Acting as a profession is not a child's play!

Speaking of  actors, I have been reading Shobha De's column since a past few months now and I feel she really has some major issues with these actors and their lifestyle. Could there be any more interesting and fun way to mint bucks?! Attending parties, going to places, meeting big people and then writing fowl about them...hmmm.... love her or hate her but you cannot ignore her!

P.S. I love the new look for my blog :D

Time-out

Sitting at home, sipping my green tea and contemplating what should be done at the moment, what I am doing and what am I not doing is worthless! Isn't it better to get into action than to mull over the future reactions?!

Most of the times I blog to enunciate certain things and thoughts to myself, just as I am doing now. This blog is more about me talking to myself rather than a pitstop for my viewpoints or so called philosophies (as most of the people mistake it to be so!!)

'Shakespeare in Love', what a movie!! It was due to this movie that I liked Gwenyth Palthrow for the first time.

It feels good to have me by myself at certain times... Having a pandemonium around or even just having a lot of quiet faces surrounding me all the time, makes me mad! I always need MY space, where it's just me and me and me!! A time-out from the people,the world and everything whatsoever, is imperative!

Anyway, it's time to fall in love with taxes... Cheerio bloggy doggy!!

My Dreamsville to the rescue !! :)

I feel that there's something missing... I know everyone always feels so, invariably. I mean you get these pangs, when you feel that something very important is left incomplete but you don't know what it is and if at all you are aware about it, you don't know how to fix this anxiety! 
I am never complacent, I somehow always manage to find out a thing that is not going right, every time. I know a lot of people don't embrace this trait of mine but I cannot help it, it's me, that's how I am and no one in this world is absolutely sanctimonious! Each person has various odds.
I wish I knew how to meditate, I wish I was not so reluctant in doing it...
I didn't know what to do as I was feeling very restless so I decided to blog. I love writing, I don't know what I would've done without it and especially this blog, it really has helped me a lot. 
"Thank you" by Dido is real good (I guess, I've mentioned this song before).  
(I was talking to a friend, amid this post now, who too was feeling sleepless and wanted to speak to someone so I got digressed for a while...)
Mood Swings are bizarre! Sometimes you crave company and sometimes you crave solitude. Sometimes you wish to party hard and sometimes you want to be in a silent and peaceful atmosphere. Why is it so that most of us are oscillating between our own several wants, why cant we be steadfast of what we want in life and from life... 
I remember having a plan for my life some 4 years back but I failed the execution process and since then no plan has ever worked for me... It's not a bad thing, not having a plan. It's OK. You can pave your way as you walk. 
I had gone to a cafe today with a bunch of friends and there was this guy there, playing guitar to entertain the customers, he sang and played Enrique's 'Hero'...that tune is still playing in my head and this has linked me to a few other Enrique numbers. I like 'Ring my bells' and 'Tired of being sorry' and many more of his songs...ugh he's so cute.. :) :)
I am too sleepy now...signing off...

lost sight of articulation...

It's been ages since I've posted anything here. I find my blog rather boring now. I remember how earlier I used to visit my blog and re-read my old posts. May be because previously I used to write about my views and now I write about me and I don't find me interesting. Many a times in the past few days I opened the blog with the intention of writing but whenever I would start to type, I would go blank. I feel I have become less expressive over the days... :(


Although a few assignments have been coming from here and there, they have not been enough so as to satisfy me. Also my work is getting erroneous day by day. What is it? Is it the lethargy, the situation or just me? CONFUSED (as always) !!?!


So, the rains are getting very irksome now. When it should rain, it doesn't and when it should not, it pours heavily!! Well, my own life doesn't go according to me, how can I expect the monsoon to work as per me!!


Right now  I am feeling as if I am sitting in a roller coaster, thoughtless and emotionless and the roller coaster is going round and round, it wont stop until I am all set to hurl. 


I met some old friends last week. It was fun. I realized that friends can be old or new but friendships are always evergreen. We didn't party nor did we go to some amazing place, it was a normal dinner and a long walk but my happiness on being with them was so huge that it made me enjoy those simple moments more than anything. I guess this what true friends do to you! And, my baby bloomer bloomed a flower after weeks (touchwood), I am very glad this happened !! :))


One thing I hate the most about Mumbai is that people here really can be mean and rude. No one cares even if you get hit by a car, at times. You are the only one who has to be careful about yourself, no one comes to help, you have to be your own help!!  


Anyway, I don't have anything more to write now. When the thoughts in your head stop meandering for a while, you can express it out but when they just keep running continuously it's hard to catch pace and articulate!!

My Dreamsville!!

When I started writing here, I hadn't thought that it would help me in anyway but because of it I have had one of the most important realizations and now I comprehend, how it is the only way through which I am able to sustain the bit of sanity left in me!

I would really not like this blog to turn into my ranting ground but sometimes it is the only way left to clear out the junk in my mind but I will certainly try to do this as seldom as possible.

This Blogosphere is a whole different world, a world where I can articulate well. This is 'My Dreamsville' de facto!!

Thank you my bloggy doggy...!! 

The block...

I just sometime back came to know about this blockage in blogspot...its just been a day I created my blog here but I have not yet faced any problem in this regard (touchwood). I hope all this gets sorted soon. I would certainly hate to lose this blog.