Exam postponed!

My last exam which was supposed to be tomorrow got postponed due to Balasaheb's demise. I don't know how I feel or how I should feel, whether I should be sad about it or relieved that I've some more time to study.
I don't know the date when the exam will be held next, that's not out yet.
Restless.

When you cannot do anything about the way things are turning out or perhaps you should've but you refrained from doing the same... anger is the only emotion you feel the most. You know the source of your exasperation but you don't know how to kill it. It just keeps augmenting all the time. I guess, the only way it can stop impacting you is when you get completely used to it; you should get so accustomed to it that the anger shouldn't matter anymore. But if you are someone who expresses anger then God help you!

One more night by Maroon 5- awesomeness!

Strange feelings...

Sometimes we just succumb into the social pressure!
Can't help it, I'm a human being and we are all SOCIAL animals... it's our primal characteristic!

Watched Barfi today. Loved it! Ranbir Kapoor just has it in his genes, he acts so effortlessly... I don't just love him because he looks smokin hot and cute at the same time but it is more because all the characters he's ever played, he's done his part so well that he's always had a long lasting impact on me!

38days to go! I'm in shit... submerged in it completely!!

Listening to 'Glad you came' by 'The wanted'... Super Song!

No more fretting...

I just had a look at my blog today and I realized that I've been fretting too much since a few weeks...

Each time something silly perturbed me, I blogged it out... and that helped... but I think I should just stop myself from getting affected or disturbed by trivial matters rather than collecting it all and spewing it in here!

I was ruminating about certain things last night and I discerned, how bigger issues don't pest me as much as smaller ones do... I am able to keep my cool when it comes to the 'real' problems but for things that are not even eligible to be termed as issues or troubles, I just lose it completely!

I better study persistently now...
Hardly a month and half left...

Listening to 'Who we are' by Ryan Calhoun. (It just speaks to my heart... I'll always cherish this number)

'...Life hurry now
I'm running out of time
And I am growing weak as are these dreams that are mine
Though the days are long, I'm still running strong
I keep looking up so I can hold on...
For now 
I'll choose this life I live
And for now I'll choose to take my hits
Coz at the end of the day all we have is who we are...'

I'm just so sad...

I'm just so sad...

Why don't I get to do what I want to?
Why? Why?

Again,
even this is my fault!

Sometimes I feel it's better to be immature and self-centered, at least then you won't think about how the other person would be feeling and why they choose to behave like this and that they are completely wrong, whatever be the circumstances!!
I just somehow, in my head, figure out a way to not blame the other person for whatever he/she has done and then end up being angry at myself!

Aaarrrghh... I just can't concentrate on studies with all this running around me!!
*sigh*
Bah... I'll figure out a way (hopefully). After all, how many excuses am I gonna make?!

Anyway,
the truth is, if I would've done the right things at the right time, MAYBE none of this would be happening right now!

I wish...
Why do we wish so much!

Sick, physically and mentally.

I feel so messed up at the moment for no freakin reason!
Feeling queasy, insane sneezing, wild running nose... :(

Mood swings!
Sometimes you want your friends to bear with you, be nice to you even when you act like a total bitch, understand you without you asking them to do so...
Results tomorrow, my tummy is churning badly! There's just too much pressure being imposed on me currently...
Mr God, I truly trust on you, I know whether negative or positive, You'll always be in my favor! ;)

What is it with people?! Every time before results they call and ask you if you are tensed about the forthcoming results? Duhh isn't it obvious... I mean, who is not anxious about the results, yes the level of anxiousness does vary. 

Especially when you are already behind time and the circumstances need you to be in action immediately, such stupid and unwanted concern gets too exasperating!   

Movies and books are the saving grace, I tell you..

Results in 6 days. Alarmed!
I'm not gonna think about it.

Sleepy but not getting any sleep. No, it's not due to the results. Happens more than often with me.

I discerned, I enjoy movies more than books. :)
Okay, watching 'No reservations' (again)...
Cheerio.

Hoping and hoping and hoping and still hoping.....

Why can't rationality and positivity go hand in hand, for once?!
If I am positive, I am being impractical and if I am practical, then I lack a positive attitude...


So how do I do this?
Should I be positive about the future outcomes and then accept whatever that transpires later? 
OR 
Should I practice a rational approach, stop weaving stupid dreams and living in denial and accept what might happen in the future, right from the beginning?
.......................
Jeez... I guess, I'll keep oscillating between the two, because we can never decide what we want to feel or think... maybe we try to curb those feelings when they erupt at first but we can never stop them from coming to life...


hmm....


A Jewish proverb, "I ask not for lighter burden, but for broader shoulders".


The other day, I was watching SNL and I saw this gig where Justin Timberlake was a bottle of beer and Lady Gaga played a bottle of wine.... I loved that gig and the way JT said "Bring it on down to liquorville" each time, was H-O-T!!


Things, people that you leave behind... and times when you wish you could still have them... Isn't it strange, when we can have it, we never want it and once it's gone and not available anymore, you feel as though you always wanted it... 
ABSURD is the word for us humans!

And, 
When someone suddenly gets the life you've always dreamed of... the exact same things happen to them that you happened to dream (or rather day-dream) to be happening with you... and now you are just a mere spectator to all of it... it leaves you stumped, blued, speechless and exasperated!!!
And then comes acceptance... which marks the beginning of your new set of dreams!!


I am becoming unhinged by each passing day.... DUDE, wake up and let bygones (really) be bygones!! 


Anyway just 2 days more and a different shade of craziness will begin... I wanted things to go well so that I would welcome this new phase with a HUGE smile... nevertheless, I can still manage an average smile ;)


'Hit the road Jack' by Ray Charles always sets my mood up! What a pep-up!

Ayo Ayo Ayo...

"Other dancers may be on the floor 
Dear but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak..."
'Sway' by Michael Buble, speaks -suave romance from the 80s and SALSA- to me.
It's an evergreen magical number!

Too many things going on in my head, just as usual, but I am unable to find a way to articulate them... Feel like talking to someone but don't know whom?! Some are busy and those who aren't, don't fit the bill.

Haha... 'We are the champions' by Queen is being played on the playlist and this reminds me of a stupid friend!

The feeling you get after an evening sleep is obnoxiously awful! I hate to sleep in the evenings!

Can't wait to begin writing again! Just a week more... I hope my excitement and enthusiasm pays off! :D

I was never a Coldplay fanatic, in fact their music to me was - boredom! But, I've come to like them now! Yet another late realization!

Exams give you a kind of feeling that nothing else can! Damn... so many hopes, aspirations, disappointments, fear, anxiety, over-solemnity, cynicism, premonitions, desires and many more of such emotions keep gushing inside, all through the examination days! All of these feelings, thoughts and emotions happen to invade your heart even otherwise but during exams, they have a different and outlandish shade!

And,
'Superstar' by Jamila- always makes me sing out loud!
"Baby take a look around...Ayo Ayo Ayo...
Everybody's getting down... Ayo Ayo Ayo..."
It's a hit from college! :) :) 

Not the time to cower!!

And the machine started working again :)

Mr God knew it very well that I need this now, so he decided to swing his magic wand and start my rickety computer! And also, Paa got a new spike-guard for it ;P

*sigh*

Gave my second exam today, it too dint go well, just like the 1st one! I so wanted this to be it! I am kinda stuck in this stolid elongated "study" phase... I know there are many others like me but that really doesn't help! 

I know I am stuck here, I know I am culpable for it, I know I myself will have to try hard and get out of here! 

*gasp*

I am so lost at the moment! Perhaps whatever did I was not up-to the brink. Perhaps some stones were still unturned, some pages were still unflipped... 

When the one who is to be blamed is you yourself... there are no words... seriously!

Nonetheless 6 more to go... Maybe things dint go well up until now but that doesn't mean I'm gonna sit back... I may have lost hopes but I am not gonna lose on the hard work... I'll continue with my efforts, though MY efforts are or won't be enough but that won't keep me back from trying... I don't know whether I will make it or not but certainly know I will not quit! At least not now!

It's getting arduous to maintain positivism... I have been a little negative since last 3-4 days but then when it comes to rationality, rigid positivism seems like denial... 

Anyway... whatever it is, it's not gonna wince me down... I will go on unflinchingly!!

Had read a quote long back, which was something like... Magic happens only when you believe in yourself...
I don't know how far I believe in myself but I know I am not quitting!!

  

Fully Loaded!

Sheww!
Okay so... One day after ages I talk to people and interact a little and here I am loaded with behemothic & colossal amount of information to handle, out which some is supposed to be a secret!
Haha...  Ohhh Good God... it's really too much for me to handle... too many mixed emotions and feelings! I really tried to vent it all out by writing out all what I felt, everywhere possible because I couldn't say out loud but it still didn't leave my mind alone so here I am blogging it out!
I feel funny! I am just smiling and laughing in awe!
Shit man... Mr God is really awesome at his job of making life so damn unpredictable! I seriously can't stop laughing! The event that has happened is not even close to funny but I am finding it to be so! Only I know the reason (and Mr God, Of course)! ;) :P

Sigh... Everyone out there (and by everyone I mean EVERYONE) is looking for love or falling in love or making love! Haha.... No offense to anyone but I find it a little tickling! No, not that I am saying it's wrong or anything so don't get me wrong... just that everyone I've spoken to today since noon, has spoken on this subject or things that linger around this subject!

Man... It's like an overdose!
Either love and relationships are really over-rated by everyone or I under-rate them (at times)... One out of the two is certainly correct!

I did not study the entire day and I am feeling guilty about it because with the amount of portion left I should be licking my books and swallowing each word in them like crazy but unfortunately I am not doing it... nonetheless I shall do that now on...

Oh my! It was one mad day but now that it's gone I should concentrate on the eminently important thing i.e. my big exam!


To one of my super bestie... I love that you consider me SO important in your life and I also love to be prioritized (who doesn't!) ... so please continue doing that, okay!! Love you loads, always and forever! 

It's been weeks and Adele has been on my playlist incessantly, love her voice!
So long bloggy doggy!

P.S.: I HATE SUMMER!! IT AGGRAVATES ME EVEN INDOORS!

I hate 'have tos'!

I've upgraded my blogger and yeah... it's different! I don't know in what way is this the "upgraded" version yet! Since I am not used to it, I am finding it too drab to work with!


Hmm,
So, long back when I revealed my love for writing to my bunch, they started teasing me saying "Soon you'll  be out with a book... blah..." and I used to laugh it off, giving them a "maybe".
Of course, I'd never contemplated about the idea of writing a book, earnestly... But, today I am certain about it! There is going to be no book!
Why? Well, I don't wanna state the reasons...
Also, writing is not only restricted to "books"! It's an art and it totally depends on your creativity, how you decide to play with it!  


'Devil woman' by Cliff Richard :)
I heard this song from the movie Housefull 2 on the radio today, I don't remember the lyrics or the title of the song but it is some papa song. This song is a ghastly Hindi version of 'We speak no Americano' !! It hugely sucks! Man... it's such a disgrace to the awesome original one!              


"Awareness without action is worthless" - Phil McGraw  
Something that I need to understand and IMPLEMENT!


Just sometime back I read an article by Osho. He is the first spiritual Guru, whom I've heard, promoting live-in relationships for a few years before marriage. Dude... I've started respecting this man more! Whatever things I've read, that he has written, always make sense to me. There's really lot to learn from him! No doubt Badi Mummy devoted him so religiously!
I don't understand why our society hates the idea of 'live-in' relationships! I personally believe more in live-in than marriage! There are too many 'have tos' in a marriage! Like, you have to throw these stupid wedding parties, you (girls) have to leave your parents but he still has his folks by his side, you have to stick to that person even if you realize you never loved him/her or love just never happened (because divorce is looked upon with contempt in the Indian society), you (guys) have to give huge pin-money to the wives (they should be earning themself) etc. etc. One single stupid certificate adds on too much of burden! It's like this binding obligation, which you have to fulfill and you just have to get married to be accepted by the society! 
I mean, why do you need a certificate to validate your relationship if you really love the person and if it's arranged marriage, you are stuck for the rest of your life (if at all true love never comes your way)?! 


(Again very subjective and mostly unacceptable by all!!)
Gasp, me and my exceptionally liberated ideas, I hope we find OUR space in the real world too!
Anyway,
I have to study now! 
(A month to go)
                                                                                                                                                             

It's all very subjective

When randomly an old conversation with someone pops up in your head and you suddenly start thinking that you must've used the wrong words or that someone must've perceived your part of the conversation in some wrong way due to which that someone can form certain false and erroneous opinions about you... And, just then it strikes you.... How does that opinion matter?
If that someone is not someone important then even if he/she has fathomed you in an erring manner, it shouldn't matter.
I always want to be taken in the right way. I always want everyone, whom I interact with, to be perfectly perceptive to whatever I utter. And this 'want' of mine has always been a subject of botheration. But. gradually as the time has passed I've learnt how to desist this habit... Though I still get those pangs but then as I just mentioned, they are only short-lived pangs!

Judgment free and non-dogmatic world has never existed and will never exist! I too do it, at times. I guess, that's how we are wired. So, I may often whine as to why to people have to be so opinionated... but I know, there's no prevention for it; although there is a cure, which is IGNORANCE!

Also,
Once I was having a conversation with a friend, where I argued that beauty and outward appearance are excessively over-rated. My friend said that it of course cannot be ignored and everyone whether knowingly or unknowingly is biased, in a way, towards beauty.
I had to agree. When we first meet a person, it's his/her outward appearance that we can first see. So, the first ever nano-thought that comes to our mind about him/her will be based on how that person looks. It has always been that way.
But, I reminded my friend that I never said it should be ignored, I said it is over-rated. Which is true.
Beauty is always appreciated. And, why shouldn't it be so? It's always good to be appreciative, especially, towards something that truly is praise-worthy. But, when it is given unnecessary excessive importance, it becomes ugly!
Anyway, it's all very subjective.

*Sigh* 
Still struggling with things. Ohh God....Please help me help myself!! Jeez.. I am such a hard nut to crack, when it comes to certain things!!

A month and a half left!

Happily imperfect!

Belated Happy Holi Bloggy-doggy!! :*
Dil toh pagal hai- the movie, the songs - :) :) :)


Finally, catching up. A little relieved. Though I still have a long long way to go but at least I've begun. :)


Perfection. What is that?! Does it really exist? Well, who cares... I am happily imperfect!!


Trekking: Fun...
Trek-tan: Annoying!
Friends: Necessity


The joy of buying a new skirt can be actually felt only when you have someone who'll be as excited as you about it!
To the two of you: We'll always be the 'awesome threesome' we are. Love you both! The best thing about the three of us is we all truly enjoy and value the bond we share. Who says two is company, three is crowd?!
I don't hope, I know this bond is gonna stay unbiased and intact forever!!


I've been having too much of cocoa these days! It's yumm!
Missing someone you never had in your life but still is a part of your life.
When you listen to someone talking about themself and you realize how their little habits and way of thinking are similar to yours. You know, all of us are so similar in some way or the other.


When you feel like going back in time, taking up the opportunity that you'd turned down then, just so that you know what it would be like if you had chosen things to be otherwise.
Times when you willingly allow certain people to walk out of your life... and when you finally quit doubting your decision about it or rather you just learn to accept it. Because there'll always be what-if's, whether whatever you choose... because there'll be this other thing that you did not select. And, you always have to choose, in fact your destiny is based on what you choose. At least I believe so. You invariably have two ways to go about it, be it anything, Mr God has his book of fate well-written for both your ways, if you choose the first way, your destiny is based on that and if you choose the other way, you destiny will be based on that! So basically, most of the times it's OUR choice and the rest is up to the destiny!


Love: Utterly Beautiful
But, Love at first sight : BS!!


Expectations can be scary at times.


The entire world has become a victim to the atrocious mosquitoes!! Every person I talk to, whines about being mosquito-stricken! I am finding it eminently arduous to find a cure for this! I mean... my house is clean, windows are shut, Ac's on, mosquito coil and liquid mosquito destroyer together working in this room and still they are eating me up!! We actually have those mosquito killing electric rackets at my place! I feel like I am living in some amazon forest! Sick! Mr God please, please, don't make us pay for our bad karma like this!


Love aaj kal- One Bolly movie that portrayed true love, I believe! I like it!
I simply love Maroon 5. Listening to 'Won't go home without you'...


Thoughtless.
Wasted a lot of time. Have to study!!
Ciao!

I gave up!

So my friends finally coerced me and I am going to follow my heart again!! I gave up on the thought of rational and logical thinking (ONCE AGAIN)!
(Sorry Paa... I know you will hate me for this...)
Many mixed emotions gushing inside my veins.... A little scared....
........
Have to study. 

The subject of matter

When in a sticky situation...at first, you fret about the fact that no one understands you and when someone actually understands... what happens next? What happens after getting an "I understand" from someone? Is the problem solved?
No, it isn't! You are still there. In the same place where you were before that person or anyone fathomed you. So how does it matter?! Really?
'No one understands me'... A statement that's void ab initio. Because, why should someone or anyone understand you, when their comprehension is actually worth a diddly and if it's not at all conducive to the situation! Rather than concentrating on making things better, we brood about no one grasping us!
But still.. we are humans (and I am no different)... we love to feel that no one understands us... so be it!


I've always done what I've wanted to do, be it right or wrong! I've always followed my heart (well, 98% of the times)... But when the heart is misleading you to do something that it knows is not good for you, in any possible way... the pleasure won't be worth the pain, at all... then it's advisable not to follow it! Certain times it is necessary to follow your brain! Because you have got to be rational, logical and practical, to understand the gravity of the situation! Life really has been a party (since quite sometime now)... but just like every other party, this one also has to be ended! Fun cannot be the only essence of life! I need to put a break to the 'My way or the highway' thing that I've been practicing!!

In both the above paragraphs... All that matters is the knowledge and acumen of the subject of matter in those situations!

Never back down is a nice movie. I quite liked it!
Stronger by Kelly Clarkson- Awesome!

Less than 2months left for the exams! I should be studying now! Mr God... Please, the 3D's... deliver them to me ASAP!!

Unkempt

Some people are very confusing... You never know what's going on in their head, whether they are serious with you or it's their sarcasm!

Still stuck on "only you"!
"What's that feeling that I get, my heart is drowning every grade...."

I want to watch this upcoming movie 'London Paris New York'!
I love the song "Voh Dekhnay mein...." form the movie! Listening to it now...

And, sometimes Mr God brings in some people in your life because He wants to perplex and bamboozle you! After all, even He needs entertainment! ;)

I am sure no one can have funnier dreams than me! Every morning I wake up astonished at the capability of my unconscious mind to actually dream such utterly farcical and funny situations!
Some people have nightmares, some dream epiphanies, some dream of romance and me..I dream funny (always)!! I've never understood how do I do it every night!!

I love Nancy and Sluggo. They are so dang cute!!
Times when you have nothing to talk about with the person you've always had something to talk about!

Running out of time... But still acting as if there's abundant time left!! Not good and totally not happening!! What's up Mr stupid mind?!!

Moments when you say or do some silly, unnecessary and totally meaningless things... and people make a song and dance about them.... and you go "What the heck?!".. Even prodigal words and actions can land you in a soup! For friggin no reason!

There are 2 opposite MEs always battling inside me... both are equally good and bad... but they think very differently... It's outcome: one single utterly confused and baffled outer ME!!

And, people are still making more versions of 'Kolaveri di'.... Guys can you please get over it, already!!

And,
Sometimes a cute little toy that comes along for free in a packet of chips can make you feel so full of glee... for a moment you become that 7 year old kid again!!

Also,
For someone who called me an emotional sissy... (And I actually said all of this except for the last line!)
I am emotional, I agree! Absolutely! But, that doesn't make me any weak in any possible way! I can FEEL better than you but I still know how to get over things and move on. So veritably, you are the one who's in tatters! It's about time, people stop confusing the quality of being "emotional" with "weak and depressed"!!!!
SCREW YOU, YOU OPINIONATED PSYCHOTIC FREAK!!!!!

Just out of habit...

"...you are so stuck in my heart, like counting a million stars, for that many reasons you are...."  -  by C21 :) :) :)

I feel so thoughtless at the moment... Like there's just nothing to talk about or write about... Anyway, it just came to me that I haven't donated blood and it's been more than 3months since I last did... I should do it soon now.

Since a few days I'm feeling pretty spaced-out... It always happens during exams; exam period is like a sanctuary for me!!

I had a dream last night about a friend, who's no more in contact... I've been feeling this urge to contact that friend since morning but there's no way to do so!
It's strange how people come in and go out of our life... Few always stay, few stay in the memories only and a few are forgotten...

BBM, Whatsapp, Facebook, Chat messengers etc, have made it so easier for people to socialize... you don't realize when you befriend a stranger and when that new friend becomes your best friend! It's not all that good though... too much socializing can get too annoying!

Sometimes it's so difficult to find the perfect song you wish to hear... Just shuffling through my music folder and no song is really inviting me at the moment!! Music and mood always should go hand in hand!

Found one... "Why do all good things come to an end?" by Nelly Furtado...

Summer is here :( The noons are too sunny and I already feel tanned!

When you desperately want to talk to a person and there are too many emotions to vent out but somehow you never permit yourself to do so... For certain vague reasons, it seems befitting to keep things to yourself!


And, some food for thought:
"What we see mainly depends on what we look for"  (I personally too believe so, substantially!)
"Whatever you can do, or you believe you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it"

"If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is a part of yourself. What isn't part of ourselves doesn't disturb us." (So true!!)

'Disturbia' by Rihanna ..... 

Today...

'Bumpy ride' by Mohombi is one of the best groovy track ever! How I love fast dance numbers!! I can really dance all day if I get a chance!

I love Milkybar and Milk treat. White chocolates are yummy! I remember when I was in school, Milkybar was newly introduced and it used to be wrapped in this hard paper cover, on the back of which, there used to be a tiny Milkybar man comic strip. Each time Milkybar man used to eat the bar, he would kick the villain's ass, bad! I loved Milkybar man!

Today, when I was heading back home via a moderately crowded train, I was tired and wanted to sit but all the seats were pre-occupied with 3 females. I started looking around to spot a seat occupied with thinner women so I could get a decent place to sit. I found one and asked the ladies to shift in and make some space for me but they hardly budged, the place offered to me was not even big enough for a 5 yr old but I was so weary that I somehow managed to sit on that edge. I was very pissed and just as I started thinking, how Mumbaikars don't care about each other and why will a stranger's discomfort ever matter to them unless they themselves are at ease.... the lady sitting on the opposite seat noticed me and she asked the other two females sitting next to her to shift in properly, she made enough room and asked me to sit there! God bless that angelic lady! I mean, you can never conclude on Mumbai.... On one hand there are these narcissist people who don't give a damn whatever happens to you and on the other hand there are these compassionate Mumbaikars who try to do something to get you out of a sticky situation!
There are many such little incidences that happen with you everyday that make you feel good and bad about a particular thing at the same time and of course I cannot list out every such event every day, this one was fresh in mind so I decided to put it here.

I miss writing so much! I'll get back as soon as my exams get over. It's been like more than 7 months now that I'd done any assignment. It made me happy! Even the pressure made me feel good about myself. I really miss that feeling a lot!

'In the end it was you' by Kat Deluna - :o)
'Without you' by David Guetta is also amazing!

Have I ever said how much I love 'Friends' and 'Everybody loves Raymond'?! Ohh yess I have, several times!! And, I can say it a million more times... I just can't get bored of them! EVER!!

90 days to go for the exams..... Ciao!

More of me...

Well,
In my previous blog-post someone commented that I didn't accept something about myself so I'd been thinking about it and I concluded on: I do accept everything about it, it's just that at the moment, these are my thoughts about the subject but it's not like I'm reluctant to change. Maybe my views would be completely differing in the future but right now... this is me.
(Err, sorry for this elongated elucidation... that's one of my problems, I always like to explain and clarify tiniest of things!)


So, exam-results... is there anyone who is not apprehensive about them?! 


I am watching Disnep's 'Hercules'...It was one of my favorites during school times... 
There's something about certain cartoons, you know? No matter how old you get, you will always enjoy watching them! Especially me, me and cartoons had a longer relationship than other kids... Even when all my peers stopped watching cartoons, I went on for a few more years... that time TV was all about toons for me... Rugrats, Catdog, Aladdin, Hercules, Looney toons, Flintstones, Jetsons, Scooby doo, Jungle book, Captain planet, Timon and Pumba, Powerpuff girls, As told by Ginger, Courage the cowardly dog, Dexter's Lab, Superman, Little Mermaid, and many many more... It's an endless list!! And, that's how I ended up with my glasses!    
Ahh... those 'toony' days....were the best of all... these toons were my imaginary friends too. I didn't have many friends those days so I used to look for warmth in them and you know what? They did a pretty good job! They'll always hold a special place in my heart! :) :)
I loved the purple and violet colored sky in Aladdin, Hercules and some animated Disnep movies. That sky looked alluring, charming and fascinating. I wish it was real, I could gaze at it for hours!


Oftentimes, when things are perfectly alright and serene around you, you find a way to mess it up! 
So, what is it? Do I don't like being in a calm and peaceful atmosphere? Am I habitual to have stupid and prodigal issues and drama around me? Maybe yes...


Some two days back, I had a heated argument with a friend... and I cried... I hadn't cried after an argument with anyone, since long... this time, these tears were something else... they were the tears of an awakening... I really have changed a lot (as that friend emphatically said)... and most of this "change" is negatively colored. No, I don't regret this "change" but I am sure, with time, this "change" will also change! (fingers-crossed)


This winter has been blissful and now the fall, is even more pleasant and pulchritudinous... Thank you God for this wondrous wintertide... I've absolutely enjoyed every moment of it! God has His own magical way to keep you smiling. And, since these last 2 months, He has made the winds make me smile, all the time! Mr God, you really rock!! I love you!

Finally...!!

Yes, my comp is back again and here I am blogging via it after long :)
Since days I wanted to blog but it turns out blackberry internet package doesn't go with blogger :(
See, yet another flaw... But I have decided I will embrace my BB absolutely now on. So here it is, I LOVE MY BB! (lol...that wasn't easy !)

All the excitement I had about partying after exams fell flat! I really shouldn't have been so enthusiastic about it at such an earlier stage.

One of my very close friend is getting married and I wish her new life turns out to be a great success! I am very happy and glad for her!

Today, I had gone out with a few friends, there is this one friend of mine, who is very critical about everything. When he looks at a person, the first thing that ever comes out of him is a negative comment, he has this habit or rather this is his basic characteristic! Sick!
Who the hell does he think he is.... I can get more tattoos and piercings on my body if I want so and no person on the face of this earth has the power to stop me! Get some substance in your life dude...oooppss did I say 'DUDE', I meant 'DUD'
And it's not just him, I know a few others too, who keep criticizing people like that!
Such kind of people think of themselves as the 'enlightened ones'... I don't think they deserve more of my words... Wannabe morons!

It gets a little confusing though, you like it when people compliment you unexpectedly but when the other set of people criticize for the same, you cannot take it! 
But you know what, in this case, these people who criticize or comment are the ones whom I don't give a shit about! If the genuine and important ones criticize, I can take that!


"Only you" is my new favorite these days.
During the exam leave I saw a lot of movies, on television of course (yes, the studies were on too).
'Sex and the city' - Sinful but enticing and fun... Carrie Bradshaw, I wouldn't mind being her! I would love to have a column of my own in a newspaper (I wish this happens).


Couples, relationships, commitments and the sorts have been all over the place now. Being the only single one between people who are all either in a relationship or in a 'sort of' relationship can get bugging at times. No, I am not a desperate damsel but when you are surrounded by lovers all the time, it is lucid that you will feel 'out of love' even if you are not those kinds, who are eager and day-dream about being in love. 
Then you eat a gooey dough-nut or an Oreo Ice-cream and that stupid 'out of love' feeling vanishes away completely! Food is the perfect solution to all problems.... at least my problems :))


I am very tired now as another set of exams is on.... so hooroo for now!
Love being back :))