Desirous

There is so much I want to do,
There is so little time left.

I wish I knew things previously.
If I would, would I be any different from what I am?

Exploration may not always lead towards the goal
But it does most of the times.

The fear of not making it is always daunting
So should I sit back and not try at all?

Perhaps I don't have it me
But that doesn't mean I never will!

How can I not hope,
When hope is the only way to survive!

How should I not dream,
When dreaming is the reason I'm alive!

There is so much I want to do,
There is so little time left.

A new me...

It will be a whole new day tomorrow

A new sun will rise and show

Fresh new flowers will bloom

Birds will chirp a new tune

A new sparrow will learn to fly

New bright stars will fill up the dark sky

With everything new happening around to see

How can there not be a new me

A silent cry

Darkness is all I can see and feel.
Am I really making it a big deal?
It is only me who knows what had happened.
And how it had happened.
How could I trust so easily?
How could I just let it happen to me?
How could I just sit back and see?
What has happened is gone.
I know I can't change it and should move on.
But how do I heal my soul,
For it is wounded deeply.
The tearless agony of which
Will never lessen an inch...

The touch

He swiftly held her hand and started caressing it softly

Softness of that touch had set her soul ablaze

He then touched her left thigh

And the sea of revulsion within her turned more violent

As he kept feeling her

She kept dying a little more

When his hands were on her waist

She felt as though a dagger was smoothly slicing her marrow

Next he grabbed her tight in his arms

Hollowness conquered her

And each molecule in her body had surrendered to trepidation

She could feel his piercing breath on her neck

The touch of his breath was like a boa’s teeth penetrating gradually in her skin

Suddenly a little pang of valor erupted in her veins

And she shoved him away, she escaped him

She saved her soul from vacating her body

But that gruesome touch will remain intact inside her for eternity 

INHUMANE

She was a free will

Living her imperfect life in her own little ways

With a face that never failed to sport a smile

Her expressive eyes always filled with umpteen dreams to chase

An optimist who never hoped of anything ugly

She could've never guessed what the fate had conjured up for her

But there came a day which couldn't have been more murky

Her life took a turn which no man could ever decipher

She was lost in her own little world, ambling her way home

Two demons with humanly masks and attire

Appeared out of nowhere and caught her when she was alone

And her innocence was shredded in fire

Their grip was rigidly firm to her dismay  

Their touch was sharper than the incisiveness of hundred knives

She was trying so hard to fight them, to push them away

But all her efforts weren’t enough to match the strength of those two evil lives

They thrashed her, slapped her and ripped off her guise

She tried to shove them off but there was no way she could’ve escaped

She cried, yelled and howled in disgrace, dolor and despise

Yet there came not a single soul to her help… she was raped

Destiny took away all her colors and her smile, left her with darkness to accompany

There she was abandoned in the middle of nowhere with a naked body and a nude heart

All she could feel was a sharp twinge of abashment, woe and melancholy

With a twinge that would last all her life; she fell prey to the devil’s dart

[Rape is an Incorrigible offence. My heart goes out to every such girl, every such woman, who has been a victim to this ghastly human act.] 

The quest

I am locked here

There is nobody near

I need to live, I wish to fly, I want to love

But the monster obstructs me from flying like a dove

In a castle, I am enthroned as a queen

The queen of her own delusions and phantasms

There is no prince who'll come to the rescue

It is only the queen and the demons in the view

This is a quest to hunt a doorway or a window

That will get me out of this deluded world into the real show

Helpless but not hopeless as I trudge

I am certain to pave my way out of this sludge

Soon will the day come when I will be dethroned

The sun will shine and the devils will die

From illusion to verity shall I fly

Who are you?

Who are you?
Are you a foe in a friend or a friend in a foe
Will I ever know...


I reminisce the times you have filled my heart with comfort
I remember the nights you have dipped my soul in despair


I wish you could ever measure the depth of the sea of sorrows, you have gifted me
By which you could gauge the profuse warmth I have for you


Nonetheless my mate, your sour gift has bestowed me with a teaching of life
Which says a human shows it's true colors only with time


Whoever you are, a foe in a friend or a friend in a foe
I hold no grudge against you as my heart forbids me to


I shall always remember you my dear
As someone who added to my soul a wisdom layer 

Rather me...

The closed door opened, when she just started exploring a small new path,

She was attracted towards that bright light coming from the other side of the grand opened gateway.

And then, she discerned that she’ll never be able to walk on the newly discovered path…

She was ambling towards the enticing gateway and hoping that the small path, she had carved when she had no hope of the shut door opening, shall meet the road beyond the gateway.... 

A sonnet

I don’t like it when my friends enjoy without me,

I don’t like it when they abandon me,

I hate it when me not being there with them doesn’t matter to them

Because when they are not with me it bothers me then.

I hate it when people get all judgmental about me,

When they think that my life is sad and without glee.

How do they know what’s going on with me?

Passing comments and giving advices always is not what friends are supposed to do!

Maybe I am taking them in a wrong way, but I really don’t care even if I do.

They say, you should not think so much

But instead of saying this, they could have cared as much!

The more I will think, the more I will cry

So I better let this thought go pass by.

I too would have sometime, left them with a sigh!

I never knew...

I never knew that i had a dream

I never knew what i wanted to do

I never knew that i could do it

I never knew i could ever make myself so happy

I never knew i could do something for myself

I never knew i would feel so independent in life

I never knew a door was still open

But now that i know it, i can feel the life in me!