You owe it to yourself

After squashing your wishes to do all that you really want to.
Letting a crooked organisation manipulate your true potential for their benefit.
Sacrificing the most active hours of your day in order to earn a living.
Refraining yourself from exploring the unexplored mountains and seas.

You owe yourself a few hours of doing something that restores your sanity, everyday.
Something that benefits your inner being. Something that commands you to be happy.

3 weeks ago, I began practising Yoga.
It has brought me closer to peace.
It has brought me closer to myself.

Yoga gives me the feeling of being on a mountain alone, of being at a bank of a clear and cold Himalayan river.

I am thankful to myself for doing this.

Someone had said and I quote, "Do not try to find your happiness in people, instead look for it in activities."
I cannot agree more.
When I doodle, I feel happy.
When I read a good book, I feel happy.
When I listen to music, I feel happy.
When I do Yoga, I feel happy.
When I write profoundly, I feel happy.

These joys are different in nature from those bestowed upon you by your loved ones. These joys are created by yourself. They are imperative to your being. They make you an independent person, a complete person and a happy person.

In a life full of chaos, you can never find your peace outside, for it resides within you. Therefore, take a plunge into yourself  and embrace the light of happiness. Only it can lead you to the path of tranquillity.

A lost moment

I see green pastures. I see colorful tents. 

It is so cold I am trembling.

I can feel the pellets of ice falling from the sky on my hand.

It seems like a dream. 

So it can really happen, I tell myself. 

Hail stones.

Every cell in my body, every artery in my heart feels elated and tranquil.

The smile is adamant, it won't leave.

................

Today when I closed my eyes while commuting to work, 

I found this moment that was hidden somewhere deep in my memory.

And within seconds I was transported back to Padri.

To that chilling moment, that beautiful moment, my moment.

The Sixteenth

A month ago, on this day, I embarked on the most unexpected journey in my life. A journey that changed my life. A journey of an epic beginning.

Dear Mr. God,

I love you more than ever now. The happiness that my heart contains is of such magnitude that I am afraid to lose even an ounce of it. It feels like magic. You have surprised me, delighted me, blessed me. You have showered me with such love that  it goes beyond my imagination. I will be thankful to you till my last breath.

..........

I am at the Beas. The cold winds are making my lungs quiver. My clothes are not doing a good job at keeping me warm. I am loving the cold. My teeth clatter and my body shivers. I am standing on the rocks submerged in the river that is flowing effortlessly. The icy water is piercing each cell in my legs. My legs go numb after a while. I cannot feel them. I cannot feel the cold. I am smiling as wide as I can. A tear rolls down my cheek. I feel lighter. I am one with the river. I see pine trees around and the gargantuan mountains with a scoop of snow carelessly dropped on them. The river is feeling me, healing me. I feel empty. I feel full. I feel me. I am happiness. I am love. I am the river and she is me. We are one.

My heart yearns for her.

I wish...
Why do we wish so much?

Best things happen to you when you least expect them while secretly wanting them to happen in a corner of your heart. :)

I am still an overthinker and will always be one. 

The future worries me. The circumstances in the future concern me.

I am not sure if I am ready to face them yet. 

Someone told me I should live only in the present. That's not me. No matter how much I try, I cannot just live in the present. A small part of me still dwells in my past and another small one constantly tries to peep into the future while the rest of me blissfully enjoys the present. 

Anyway,

I would like to believe, epic beginnings never have an ending.  

Current Playlist:

Magic - Colplay

When you say nothing at all - Notting Hill

Just the way you are - Bruno Mars

Alchemy - A&B

Jiya Lage na - Coke Studio (Shankar Mahadevan)

Locha-E-Ulfat - 2 States

Gustakh Dil - English Vinglish

I am in the fairytale phase of life! 

I have a feeling, I might like the rains this year. ;) 

Going Away.

I can’t wait to cease to exist. I can’t wait to go missing. I can’t wait to lose all connections. I can’t wait to go away.

It’s an exaggeration, of course. I am going on a 15-day adventure trip. There is no cell phone network in that area. So I cannot be contacted neither can I get in touch with people.

Every now and then we all need such breaks. They suck all the negative energies that we keep accumulating incessantly.

‘Kal ke andheron se nikal ke, dekha hai aankhein malte malte…

Ful hi ful zindagi kahan hai. Tey kar liyaaa,
Aaj fir jeene ki tamana hai, aaj fir marne ka irada hai.’

How many times have you wished you were dead?

No, not because life is being too harsh on you, but just for fun or for no reason or perhaps out of anger on a loved one.

My train of thought on ‘going away’ got me thinking on this topic.

I have had a few friends who had at some point mentioned that they wonder what it would be like when they are dead. They were keen to know how their family and friends will cope with it. I deciphered that there was a sense of sadism attached to this thought of theirs. It pleased them to imagine their loved ones craving for them. To be honest, I, too, have thought about it, and yes, I did gain some delight out of it.

It's okay, everyone likes to think in this manner, at least once or twice, because we are a self-centered species. We love it when people love us and want us. We simply love the attention, doesn’t matter if we are dead or alive.

In contrast to the above, can I say that it is our fear of losing that love, respect and want, or the feeling that we are not getting enough? It is not pleasure, but remedy for the pain that stems of out of our anxiety and insecurities.
Think about it.
  

Merry Christmas!

My Christmas-y Desk!

My Christmas-y Desk!

Mt. Mary Church, Bandra 

Mt. Mary Church, Bandra 

Mt. Mary Church, Bandra 

The statue of Virgin Mary

The statue of Virgin Mary

A shop outside the church (Notice the Jesus Statues)

Christmas Tree at the Church 

A small crib at a building near the Church

On a cold Saturday...

It's not a secret that winter is my favorite season, but I would still love to say it again that I love, simply love, winter!

This year, Mumbai is actually cold during winter!

Oh my my... how happy this chilliness makes me! :D

Anyway,
Those moments when you don't wish to feel about certain people in a certain way because you know that it's unfair to be so negative towards them. But, you still continue to hold those little grudges for that little while, and justify doing so by calling it normal human behavior. However, that excuse doesn't really help you from not feeling guilty about feeling negative about them... because, in your heart, you know you are being unfair!

Christmas is almost here! Yay! I have no special plans. Doesn't mean I'm not allowed to feel special about it!

A Christmas shop at Bandra, Hill Road.

They had amazing decorative items and adornments in this little roadside shop. In fact, there were many hawkers also selling baubles and other cute things in Bandra. It was so Christmas-y and positive and blissful being there today, surrounded by the festive spirit. Loved it!

Also,
I don't understand why they call monsoon as the 'season of love and romance' when it should actually be winter! How can you not find this weather the most romantic, the most loving climate ever?
(Yes, love and romance are two very, very different things!)

Twitter is addictive! Very much.

Adieu bloggy doggy! See you soon. :*

one by two

Office.
Sometimes its just us, we over-think. The other person is not always the bad guy.

People are not that difficult to deal with, we make ourselves believe that they are. I know, I too have umpteen times said that its not a cinch being around people rather being happy around them but eventually I always realize it never was a big deal.

Another thing that got me thinking was, whether to say it out or not?
For say, when having a conversation with a bunch of people, you have so many things in head that you can say but you choose to stay mum. How does it matter if you speak your heart?
Now, there are countless reasons why you don't say it but for how long will this continue?
There will be a time when you'll stop not talking, when you'll start being yourself. So why not do it right away!

I think I shouldn't have done it, that thing. But now, it's all said and done so rather than fretting about it, I should do something constructive.

Home.
Feel, speak, enjoy, love, live, cry, suffer, make mistakes, be outrageous, apologize, learn, discover yourself!
Now is what we have. Who knows world might really end on 21/12/12!!
Haha...
What if it actually does?

When you wonder about death, you realize who are the ones that truly matter to you and you would wish to spend more time with them before everything is over.
If believing in 21/12/12 helps you express your love to your loved ones, then you are not as stupid as people would think!

I love Mumbai. People here can be as sweet as bitter they are! Confusing naa?? That's how we are.

Adele-Skyfall. Love it like crazy!

P.S.: I wrote half the post at work but then I got busy so I saved it as a draft and now added more and posted, hence the title!

GANPATI BAPPA MORYA!!

Ganesh Chaturthi is almost after a week now and I'm sooooooooo excited about it although my enthusiasm doesn't beat my baby brother's but still I just can't wait to see the pomp and grandeur throughout the city when Bappa arrives on 19th.

GANPATI BAPPA MORYA!!

Blessed :)

Yesterday was one of my best friend's party and I danced like crazy (just as always)! The 'dance hangover' still exists and that's the reason I've been prancing all over my house since morning, err afternoon because that's when I woke up!! :D

Also, I realized if I had to choose, I would choose dance over drinks... haha...
(though it would make no difference because whenever I'm dancing, I dance like I'm already a few shots down even if I ain't... so I've been told by all!)

And yesterday, I could empathize with her happiness and gaiety completely... It was as if her achievement had become my achievement...
I love you so much and I truly and totally wish, you to be as happy all your life!

Also,
Today is my childhood best friend's birthday, which is another reason why I'm feeling so gleeful. She knows me in and out, more than anyone else could ever know... and I guess its vice versa too!
Despite the fact that it's so difficult to admit (it really is), I will have to say that you are "the best friend" that everyone should have, that they show in the movies and soaps, that I never ever imagined me having and I'm just so blessed to have you.  

Thank you Mr God for bestowing me with such happy moments. You, I love the most! :*

Of Television and Schmucks!

After Friends, Everybody loves Raymond, Full house, Sex and the City and Make it or break it, The big bang theory has been qualified to be one of my favorite American sitcoms of all times! :)

Damn, I can watch them all my life and prove the Law of Diminishing Marginal Utility wrong! :D :D

I don't know how would I have survived today without TV.
It was one of those utter grave days today.

I thought I would never have to face you again ever in my life. No, rather I tried to think that but I knew this had to happen, not once, not twice but many times....
Yet another person added to that list, the list I wish no person on this earth to have...
Bah, who ever said there won't be any schmucks on this globe?!

I found perfect!

I've been to Lonavala countless times but on Saturday, when I was there with a group of friends, we discovered a pulchritudinous lake. Oh lord, that vision is something that I'm never gonna forget! Water moving so silently and graciously, a distant waterfall on the other side of the lake, huge round rocks, lots of different little bushes, each wearing a uniquely different shade of green... it was only us and no one else around... I never wanted to get out of that lake, that place... so picturesque, so perfect! Sadly, we were running out of time so we couldn't be there for long...  :(
I've not traveled a lot but what I experienced there, I hadn't experienced anywhere else!

Isn't God the best architect ever! I love Him sooooo much for creating something so alluring, marvelous, spectacular, phenomenal... ohhh I can go on and on about it until I fall short of all the adjectives known to me! It was truly a treat to the eyes... and the way it made me feel is inexplicable and unbeatable!
Thank you so much Mr God for that magnificent and bewitching view... just please don't let it elude by mind ever!
None of us had a camera or a cell phone in hand to click a picture that time.
You know, I could've enjoyed the view better if we had more time because I was inside the water all the time so my eyes did not get enough time to eat up all that they could see... but nonetheless the experience was simply divine!
Now I know where can I find it the next time I go.... and I'm certain to pay a visit again!! :)

For the first time, I knew what perfect meant, the real definition, something that can make me feel what I felt like when I was there!
I wish I was there right now...

One of my friend was shocked, how and why was I ENJOYING RAINS suddenly?! Well, that trip was meant to be for that, right, so... Moreover, I was already drenched in water due the waterfall so how would rains annoy me when I'm already soaked?? Duhh!
Actually,
it was not the rain that I loved but the cold and frigidness embedded in those icy raindrops hitting my skin... I wanted to hear my teeth clatter, see my body getting cold-creeps, feel the extreme frigidness the weather that time could offer and so I was standing out in the rain when most of them were sitting in a shanty, sipping hot tea and eating maggi...

And so I've been on bed since the time I've reached home with a red running nose, sore throat, no voice and fever! Gosh, I just can't stop sneezing, I would've had like a 100 aachhooss while typing this post!
BUT I still love cold! :D

My head is practically spinning right now. I was so drunk last night, I don't exactly remember it but I can recollect some bits and pieces of it. Haha... whatever it was, it was fun!
I had gone off to sleep but I guess the fear of my deadline tomorrow morning, woke me up.... I don't know what I'm gonna write and how but i'll do it & send it right away...

I love writing!

It's so eminent to have the right people around, who help you not make a fool of yourself while you are in a drunken state.... and then, despite of their efforts you end up looking tipsy and stupid because you are that drunk... Haha

Thanks Mr God for gifting me such stupid and sweet friends... Cheers! ;)

Listening to 'Blue (da ba de)' by Eiffel 65... and loving it...

I am watching 'Dil Se' right now.
Since childhood this concept of suicide bombers has intrigued me. I guess, I've seen all the available videos on suicide bombers and terrorists on Youtube.
What goes on in their minds? How is possible that someone brainwashes you so badly that you decide to kill yourself and several other people too? How bad has life treated them that they decided to take this step? How can they consider this to be the right thing? etc. etc.




Today (yesterday now) was fun! I ate everything that I love, what else is needed to make a day good! ;)

Happily Nostalgic!

I just finished my last article. I just hope the agency doesn't kick me out for another late submission. 
*fingers crossed*

Anyway so, I was just about to shut down the comp but I thought of turning on the TV first, for sometime before sleeping and started shuffling the channels. I stumbled on a channel named Z Smile and what do I see... 'Rishtey' is being shown on the channel...
Back in the late 90's 'Rishtey' used to come on Zee TV, once a week on Sundays at 10PM... and I used to love it, I never used to miss it. What a lovely show! One new story in every episode.
I am watching it right now and am feeling happily nostalgic... I am feeling as though, I am still that 7 year old girl watching TV and eating fast food at home since it's Sunday and we used to order food at home on every Sunday!

Thank you Mr God for this silly little amazing moment! :D

[Episode-Rishtey: Lucky 7, 1997]

Hmmmm......

:D :D

I hate rains! ;) :P

Yes, I am a feminist! So... Is that a problem?! Umm... I don't think so ;)


'God is a girl'- an all time favorite!


'Promiscuous girl' by Nelly Furtado is on the radio. I guess it came out when I was in SYJC and me & one of my cousins were all gaga about it... I still like that number.
"It's okay, it's alright, I got something that you don't like..."
Back then, Nelly Furtado was all that I used to listen all day!


And the monsoon has begun.... 
Shew... finally, the summer is done with!!


Speaking of monsoon, just yesterday a friend popped up the same old mysterious question... 'Why are you single?'
Hahaha... okay so I've never understood how to answer that question and as far as I remember, each time, I've answered different
So yaa... we were talking about rains and I mentioned how I hate them, on that she said ' Once you get into a relationship, you'll love rains!' and I said 'Umm Okay!!!!'
This friend is not the first girl who has made this statement. A few of my other girlfriends had also said the same once...
Okay so let me make it clear, I hate rains but I don't hate monsoon! Meaning I hate the wetness, the dampness and the swamp about monsoon but I truly love the sweet and mellow fragrance of the soil embedded in the swirling monsoon breeze and of course, the floral greenery!! hmmmm.... I love that and what I love more is a stroll in such weather, PROVIDED it's not raining or even drizzling and the roads are not all that damp and swampy!! 
Pretty complicated huh...that's why to make it short and avoid the excess blabber, I say I hate rains! 
Anyway so,
these are the things that I like and dislike about monsoon and I don't think, I know that this will remain the SAME despite of what my relationship status is!!!
Phew... 
Why do people make a big deal about singlehood? 
To this, a friend answered, 'Because everyone around you is dating so being single really becomes a big deal!!'
Damn... it's ridiculously hilarious!


'You give the strength to me' - love the song! 


New in town- nice movie :)

In the groove :D

Mujhse fraanship karoge- Cute :)

Mango Cake- My new love! :D
(the taste is still lingering in my mouth.... damn... how can something ever taste soooooo crazily delectable!!! I wish it was low calorie, I'd eat it all the time!)

Okay so...
I was just reminiscing how I was this silly girl who was always scared to do anything and everything, some years back! I used to be scared and intimidated invariably... I still remember how scared I was to open an Orkut account, I actually asked my mom whether I should do that!
And now, I never ask, I just do!
Damn, have I changed!
Though not completely...

Listening to Futuristic Lover by Katy Perry....
"Boy, your an alien
your touch are foreign
it's super natural
extra-terrestrial"


Katy Perry is damn good!

"Coz baby your a firework
c'mon show'em what your worth..."


Ohh,I love her!


Am I in a good mood or what! :D
It was an awesomely amazing weekend!

I had really expected a lot of writing to come my way post exams but none did! :(

I loveeee Movies!

Reading The Gift by Cecelia Ahern currently...

Love to dance!

Oh and FYI I still abhor summer!!

Damn, since when am I trying to download a few tracks but something's wrong, unable to download!!! Aaaarrgghh!! :/

'Good Girl', this movie always gets me thinking...

And,
I don't get why do guys love to assume that every girl who tries to interact with them is interested in them!!!
Dude, get a life... Shit aren't they desperate!! If a girl approaches you, it doesn't always mean she wants to sleep with you! Please for Christ's sake grow up and for once think of things other than intercourse and blow-jobs!!! Boys are highly and over-excessively self centered! And then they ask me why am I single!! Hellllooo....

(I am not generalizing, there can be exceptions but I haven't stumbled across many yet!)

Some freaky jerk concluded that I have a crush on a so-so friend's boyfriend just because I once said he looks good! What single-mindedness!! Since when did appreciating good looks turn into having an infatuation! Fuckerr! Ugh... I feel like shoving him off from the 26th floor of any goddamn sky-scrapper!!

I told him, how sick his thought process is but I still feel morbid reminiscing that conversation.... Dude I feel like puking on your face!!

Anyway... I need not let some thick-headed and obtuse fool affect me!
*Sigh* 


'Like I love you' by JT :))

Fully Loaded!

Sheww!
Okay so... One day after ages I talk to people and interact a little and here I am loaded with behemothic & colossal amount of information to handle, out which some is supposed to be a secret!
Haha...  Ohhh Good God... it's really too much for me to handle... too many mixed emotions and feelings! I really tried to vent it all out by writing out all what I felt, everywhere possible because I couldn't say out loud but it still didn't leave my mind alone so here I am blogging it out!
I feel funny! I am just smiling and laughing in awe!
Shit man... Mr God is really awesome at his job of making life so damn unpredictable! I seriously can't stop laughing! The event that has happened is not even close to funny but I am finding it to be so! Only I know the reason (and Mr God, Of course)! ;) :P

Sigh... Everyone out there (and by everyone I mean EVERYONE) is looking for love or falling in love or making love! Haha.... No offense to anyone but I find it a little tickling! No, not that I am saying it's wrong or anything so don't get me wrong... just that everyone I've spoken to today since noon, has spoken on this subject or things that linger around this subject!

Man... It's like an overdose!
Either love and relationships are really over-rated by everyone or I under-rate them (at times)... One out of the two is certainly correct!

I did not study the entire day and I am feeling guilty about it because with the amount of portion left I should be licking my books and swallowing each word in them like crazy but unfortunately I am not doing it... nonetheless I shall do that now on...

Oh my! It was one mad day but now that it's gone I should concentrate on the eminently important thing i.e. my big exam!


To one of my super bestie... I love that you consider me SO important in your life and I also love to be prioritized (who doesn't!) ... so please continue doing that, okay!! Love you loads, always and forever! 

It's been weeks and Adele has been on my playlist incessantly, love her voice!
So long bloggy doggy!

P.S.: I HATE SUMMER!! IT AGGRAVATES ME EVEN INDOORS!

Rosy picture!

Last week I was at a friend's place, I'd been there many times before but for the first time I noticed that they had a rose plant placed on their window.
I've obviously seen roses but never before had I seen a living rose blooming out of a plant.
Rose was never one of my favorites but for the first time I was in love with that flower! I was so glad and delighted to see a rose full of life! I couldn't resist clicking a few pictures from my BB!
Its charm was such that I totally overlooked the thorns until I got pricked... The plant was actually full of thorns so I couldn't really touch the flower although I tried hard to reach it...
It looked so perfect! The color, the shape, even the thorns, everything about it was flawless!

(The clicks may not be as beautiful but that's all my BB could do. But, I still love them)

The demented duo!

It's been circa 10 years, since we've been best friends... We know each other better than we know ourselves. There are many arguments and disagreements that happen between us frequently (& most of them are prodigal) ... And that's because we are so emotionally dependent on each other... But, still we stand strong and together and we always will. Our never-ending craziness... Sanity no where exists around us! The way we discuss our most important, serious and earnest problems and decisions also with sheer sarcasm and humor..(We can never be serious!!). How we never fall short of things to talk about...Yes, you are the only person with whom I ALWAYS have things to talk... I can't remember a single time when both us had nothing to talk about! Seriously! Hahaha.. maybe because we always talk crap and the world can never go out of crap!! We might have changed in all these years but when we are together, we are always those two silly school girls, who make fun of everything and anything that comes on their way... and I cannot be more sure of the fact that this, what we have, is never gonna change!!

Waise bhi mere alava koi aur tujhe jhel nahi sakta... All thanks to my bad karma!!

A befitting quote that comes to my mind, for us:
"It's the privilege of friendship to talk nonsense, and have her nonsense respected"