When the inconceivable happens...

Summertime Sadness by Lana Del Rey is an incredible number
"Honey, I'm on fire, I feel it everywhere 
Nothing scares me anymore."

In her shoes - the movie. 

..........

They fell in love years back. They were not perfect, but they knew how to love each other perfectly. Years went by. The love remained the same, grew rather. Until 'change' came.
He met new people, he saw a new shade of life, he loved it, he changed. Because he wanted to.
She still stood there. Watching him become a stranger. Hoping it to be a plain phase. She waited long.
He was a different person now. It was the same old her.
She was helpless. They were supposed to be together 'forever' and he had simply vanished. There was this stranger disguised to be him, but it was not him.
He's not a bad person. He's not wrong or culpable.
She cried, yelped, prayed, feared... It's over.


How do you trust anyone after something like this happens? How do you trust anyone after knowing something like this can happen?

Being a mere spectator to this is so saddening and perturbing. I can't gauge the intensity of the pain and hurt she would be carrying in her heart right now. And, that he would, I believe, will go through at some given point of time in future.

Love is an illusion. Togetherness is a delusion. I was right in believing so.
.......

When no one succeeds in comforting you.
When no one manages to get even a faint smile on your face.
When no one cares enough for that little moment.
When no one makes you feel loved and wanted.
It's time you stop fretting about it and be there for yourself.
Only you can love you the way you've wanted to be loved.


Eagerly waiting for the exit of October heat and the mystical entry of the wonderous wintertide.


I wish...
Why do we wish so much!

Strange feelings...

Sometimes we just succumb into the social pressure!
Can't help it, I'm a human being and we are all SOCIAL animals... it's our primal characteristic!

Watched Barfi today. Loved it! Ranbir Kapoor just has it in his genes, he acts so effortlessly... I don't just love him because he looks smokin hot and cute at the same time but it is more because all the characters he's ever played, he's done his part so well that he's always had a long lasting impact on me!

38days to go! I'm in shit... submerged in it completely!!

Listening to 'Glad you came' by 'The wanted'... Super Song!

Sick, physically and mentally.

I feel so messed up at the moment for no freakin reason!
Feeling queasy, insane sneezing, wild running nose... :(

Mood swings!
Sometimes you want your friends to bear with you, be nice to you even when you act like a total bitch, understand you without you asking them to do so...
Results tomorrow, my tummy is churning badly! There's just too much pressure being imposed on me currently...
Mr God, I truly trust on you, I know whether negative or positive, You'll always be in my favor! ;)

What is it with people?! Every time before results they call and ask you if you are tensed about the forthcoming results? Duhh isn't it obvious... I mean, who is not anxious about the results, yes the level of anxiousness does vary. 

Especially when you are already behind time and the circumstances need you to be in action immediately, such stupid and unwanted concern gets too exasperating!   

Movies and books are the saving grace, I tell you..

Results in 6 days. Alarmed!
I'm not gonna think about it.

Sleepy but not getting any sleep. No, it's not due to the results. Happens more than often with me.

I discerned, I enjoy movies more than books. :)
Okay, watching 'No reservations' (again)...
Cheerio.

Each time I watch 'A walk to remember', I cry. I don't know what is so great about the movie that I like it so much!
The song 'Only hope' from the movie is so lovely and heartfelt...

What is it about the sea that everyone can relate with it so well?
Had been to Bandstand yesterday, wanted to pen down all that was running in my mind but rains didn't let me do so. I was so within me that even rains didn't bother me since there were things bigger than it vexing me...

Anger needs to be subdued... Mr God help me with it, will you?!! 

I am watching 'Dil Se' right now.
Since childhood this concept of suicide bombers has intrigued me. I guess, I've seen all the available videos on suicide bombers and terrorists on Youtube.
What goes on in their minds? How is possible that someone brainwashes you so badly that you decide to kill yourself and several other people too? How bad has life treated them that they decided to take this step? How can they consider this to be the right thing? etc. etc.




Today (yesterday now) was fun! I ate everything that I love, what else is needed to make a day good! ;)

People should be obsessed with the memories embedded in the photos and not with how they look in them. It's okay to make your portfolio, go ahead click a million beautiful snaps of yourself but those pictures which hold good memories should be appreciated even if you like a piece of shit in them!
I too whine about my bad pictures that my friends click but I don't argue or beg them to delete it!
Dude, world is full of farcical humans!!
And, the raining never ends... :/
In love with Relief by coastal cities. :)
'Shaitan', the movie, the music - AWESOMENESS.

PEOPLE.

Mood swings are just so absurd! Ugh! I just feel so.... man it's just inexplicable! :S


When you suddenly realize, you are lucky that something you desperately wanted to happen with you, did not happen to you... it is like a little epiphany. 
Gosh, I was crazy to even be whining about something so unwanted and unnecessary. 
Thanks Mr God, I love you! You Rock! Absolutely.




And, I'm watching 'Father of the bride II' for the 3rd time in past 5days.
Life without movies loses its meaning. ;)

Mathew Perry is cute, I've always liked him.


Why does it get so difficult to handle people and their emotions?! I sometimes feel it's better to avoid them but then if I do so, I end up being a bitch which feels awful enough. 
I always have been a people pleaser, someone who's always in the loop but since quite a long time I've kinda stopped caring about others. You may think I've turned selfish but not caring about others doesn't mean I care more about myself because a few of these 'others' are some of the very important people of my life and me being reckless and not being able to maintain things with them has put them away from me which is not any sort of gain for me but strangely I've been so lost that I don't miss them and this has stopped affecting me, it's bad but that's how it is now. 
No, I am not depressed or in the blues. I am doing good. It's just how I've become.   


There's a friend of mine who also has been going through something similar or it is at least how I think. His other friends don't get him, they fail to understand why suddenly he's turned reclusive but the truth is he's not closed up or reticent; this is just how he has become over the time. You can blame the circumstances or situations if want to but he's not culpable. People change with time, you know, if not all at least some of them do and it's not bad or sad, not even a bit.  


I hate hate hate and simple hate extremely judgmental and critical people! Ugh... Good God, why do I even talk to them?! Why do I even know them?! If the world is not running according to them, it's wrong and they mock it off! Damn are they annoying or not! Screw you suckers!! *gasp*


And,
Mumbai rains are truly pleasant in the nights (of course, when I'm indoors). :) 
It's my life- Bon Jovi
Miss you- Enrique

me love music & movies

So yaa yesterday I did see 'One missed call'
I'd been planning to watch it since like years and I finally did it yesterday!
The movie was good but not better than 'I know who killed me'. The psychological quotient, thrill and suspense was much better in'I know...'

Listening to 'Hey there Delilah' by Plain White T...
i L-O-V-E this track! The first time I heard it was on some American singing reality show and that very moment I fell in love with it! I also loved the way that female contestant sang it... it was great!
"Ohhh it's what you do to me,
 Ohhh it's what you do to me..."

P.S.: I got the title from my labels ;P ;) 

I know who killed me

I just finished watching 'I know who killed me' and I just have to admit that I haven't seen a horror/thriller movie like this one, in a long while!
Shit.... Totally awestruck!
I loved it to the core!
I had coldcreeps during the entire movie... it was so damn scary!
Phew...
How I truly love horror flicks! They scare the shit out of me but then that is the real fun about it!
Planning to watch another horror flick now! :D

'I know who killed me' is totally worth a watch! Absolutely amazing movie! It's a hair-raiser!

:D :D :D

My POV!

Was watching 'Mere yaar ki shaadi hai' on Max yesterday, at this time.
I guess I was in 8th grade when the movie came out and since then each time it's been on TV and I've had the knowledge of it, I've seen it. In short, I love the movie!


YashRaj Movies are always worth watching... even if the script sucks, the locations and the cinematography wins you over!


Anyway so,
'Ek ladka aur ladki kabhi dost nai ho sakte...' , a discussion that goes on between Riya and Sanjay in the very start of the movie.
Hmmm... I guess everyone would've had this discussion with a friend, at least once.
As much as I hate to admit, the statement is not completely false!
Why?
I don't know... May be because everyone is so keen on looking for love every where that they even start considering their best friends.
Perhaps I'm wrong but it's just a personal observation.
Actually, it's the movies that are more culpable here, I mean for eg.,
'Made of honor', 'Ek main aur ek tu', 'Sky high', 'My best friend's wedding', 'Some kind of wonderful', etc etc etc.
All of them promote the subject of best friends falling in love. 
Okay so, is it a thumb rule that if you have a best friend from the opposite sex (and otherwise in case of homosexuals) and that friend understands you well, you are in frequent touch with that friend and you like the company... you have to date that friend?!
All of this is too subjective and situational. 
Actually, the society since the very beginning has always accepted a boy either as a brother or as a husband to a girl. Though the people have become open-minded about the 'friendship' aspect between a boy and a girl, with time but still some remnants of ancient orthodoxical and narrow-minded beliefs haven't vacated the human minds yet!


And, the struggle is still on...

Listening to Lost by Coldplay... Love it!

Basshunter- First time I heard the song was few days before the Taj-terror attack and each time I listen to the song, those visuals of terrorists firing at CST, Grenade explosions from the hotel windows and the blood shed, start running in my head and I get the cold-creeps! I can never forget those 3 terror-filled days, that attack had a huge impact on all the Mumbaikars, I guess... I vividly remember everything that happened in those 3 days. Still get tears in my eyes reminiscing that time. 
And, that Goddamn Kasab is still breathing the Indian air!! I mean, I respect the Indian law and order and also the fact that everyone is given an opportunity to be heard and defend themselves here but for heaven's sake, we know he is the culprit, he had ghastly and malicious intentions and also had killed many innocent lives so why the wait?!
Then I think, perhaps this serves him better... let him plead for his life, let him live in the fear of death, let him be all restless and anxious as to what and when will the court decide for him and then finally after all the mental torture, he should be sentenced to death! 
All in all, I want him dead, sooner or later!! 

I hate rains! ;) :P

Yes, I am a feminist! So... Is that a problem?! Umm... I don't think so ;)


'God is a girl'- an all time favorite!


'Promiscuous girl' by Nelly Furtado is on the radio. I guess it came out when I was in SYJC and me & one of my cousins were all gaga about it... I still like that number.
"It's okay, it's alright, I got something that you don't like..."
Back then, Nelly Furtado was all that I used to listen all day!


And the monsoon has begun.... 
Shew... finally, the summer is done with!!


Speaking of monsoon, just yesterday a friend popped up the same old mysterious question... 'Why are you single?'
Hahaha... okay so I've never understood how to answer that question and as far as I remember, each time, I've answered different
So yaa... we were talking about rains and I mentioned how I hate them, on that she said ' Once you get into a relationship, you'll love rains!' and I said 'Umm Okay!!!!'
This friend is not the first girl who has made this statement. A few of my other girlfriends had also said the same once...
Okay so let me make it clear, I hate rains but I don't hate monsoon! Meaning I hate the wetness, the dampness and the swamp about monsoon but I truly love the sweet and mellow fragrance of the soil embedded in the swirling monsoon breeze and of course, the floral greenery!! hmmmm.... I love that and what I love more is a stroll in such weather, PROVIDED it's not raining or even drizzling and the roads are not all that damp and swampy!! 
Pretty complicated huh...that's why to make it short and avoid the excess blabber, I say I hate rains! 
Anyway so,
these are the things that I like and dislike about monsoon and I don't think, I know that this will remain the SAME despite of what my relationship status is!!!
Phew... 
Why do people make a big deal about singlehood? 
To this, a friend answered, 'Because everyone around you is dating so being single really becomes a big deal!!'
Damn... it's ridiculously hilarious!


'You give the strength to me' - love the song! 


New in town- nice movie :)

In the groove :D

Mujhse fraanship karoge- Cute :)

Mango Cake- My new love! :D
(the taste is still lingering in my mouth.... damn... how can something ever taste soooooo crazily delectable!!! I wish it was low calorie, I'd eat it all the time!)

Okay so...
I was just reminiscing how I was this silly girl who was always scared to do anything and everything, some years back! I used to be scared and intimidated invariably... I still remember how scared I was to open an Orkut account, I actually asked my mom whether I should do that!
And now, I never ask, I just do!
Damn, have I changed!
Though not completely...

Listening to Futuristic Lover by Katy Perry....
"Boy, your an alien
your touch are foreign
it's super natural
extra-terrestrial"


Katy Perry is damn good!

"Coz baby your a firework
c'mon show'em what your worth..."


Ohh,I love her!


Am I in a good mood or what! :D
It was an awesomely amazing weekend!

I had really expected a lot of writing to come my way post exams but none did! :(

I loveeee Movies!

Reading The Gift by Cecelia Ahern currently...

Love to dance!

Oh and FYI I still abhor summer!!

Damn, since when am I trying to download a few tracks but something's wrong, unable to download!!! Aaaarrgghh!! :/

'Good Girl', this movie always gets me thinking...

And,
I don't get why do guys love to assume that every girl who tries to interact with them is interested in them!!!
Dude, get a life... Shit aren't they desperate!! If a girl approaches you, it doesn't always mean she wants to sleep with you! Please for Christ's sake grow up and for once think of things other than intercourse and blow-jobs!!! Boys are highly and over-excessively self centered! And then they ask me why am I single!! Hellllooo....

(I am not generalizing, there can be exceptions but I haven't stumbled across many yet!)

Some freaky jerk concluded that I have a crush on a so-so friend's boyfriend just because I once said he looks good! What single-mindedness!! Since when did appreciating good looks turn into having an infatuation! Fuckerr! Ugh... I feel like shoving him off from the 26th floor of any goddamn sky-scrapper!!

I told him, how sick his thought process is but I still feel morbid reminiscing that conversation.... Dude I feel like puking on your face!!

Anyway... I need not let some thick-headed and obtuse fool affect me!
*Sigh* 


'Like I love you' by JT :))

to-dos & not to-dos

Today, I turned on the TV and what I see, they'd played on London Paris New York but it had reached climax till then... :(
I'm dying to watch that movie... Post exams I'm getting an original DVD of this movie. :)
Listening to its soundtrack... Bah... even the songs are adorable!
Sweet rom-coms are always fun! I love them! :)


Just today I read in a newspaper that stress makes you fat. Like there were already lesser things to make you fat!! I mean, it's so damn easy to put on weight... the couch, food, chocolates (I know it's included in food but I still wanted to write it separately!) and now stress too! That sucks!
So now, stress not only leads to hair-fall but it also makes you fat... hmmm...
Mr stupid silly mind... helloooo.. are you listening??? Stop making me fat and bald! I beg you!

I love the song 'Ahista Ahista' from Bachna ae hasino! I like the movie too! :)

I loathe when people don't return back my msgs, for stupid and invalid reasons!
Soon then, I take the pleasure of reminding myself of the times when I didn't reply to other peoples msgs for, stupid and invalid reasons!
At least my rage mellows down by doing so!

Two undeniable quotes that I stumbled on today and loved them instantaneously:
"The wise are those who try to avoid explosive situations, thus saving themselves from the trammels of confrontation." - Maulana Wahiduddin Khan.
"Peace is wrapped up in willingness to compromise" -Anonymous.

Should study now.
Toodles bloggy-doggy :*

Only if...

Dil Chahta Hai- :) :)


I like Palaash Sen. He has a great voice, an amazing sense of music, a cool personality, appears to be sensible (at least in his interviews) and he's also a doc!


Le jaa tu mujhe - a song that speaks to me.


"It's never too late to be what you might have been" - George Eliot
I had cold-creeps when I first read this quote... I don't know why?!
Maybe because I know I lack the gumption...


When you are craving for a heart-to-heart conversation and you also try to have it with your bunch but somehow you are unable to click. Then the annoyance that follows thereafter...


Just now, while having a conversation with a friend... I (rather we) discerned how people don't give out all the information. I mean, I kinda reveal out excess unnecessary things, about myself, when interacting with people. This has to be slashed down! But then, I've tried it before and it has never worked with me...So perhaps, now or in future...
You should do what you have to do..... Now only if I followed it!!!



"The more you take responsibility of your past and present, the more you are able to create the future you seek"  - Celestine chua 


Ugh... In a bizarre state of mind... feeling too antsy!! 


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Happily imperfect!

Belated Happy Holi Bloggy-doggy!! :*
Dil toh pagal hai- the movie, the songs - :) :) :)


Finally, catching up. A little relieved. Though I still have a long long way to go but at least I've begun. :)


Perfection. What is that?! Does it really exist? Well, who cares... I am happily imperfect!!


Trekking: Fun...
Trek-tan: Annoying!
Friends: Necessity


The joy of buying a new skirt can be actually felt only when you have someone who'll be as excited as you about it!
To the two of you: We'll always be the 'awesome threesome' we are. Love you both! The best thing about the three of us is we all truly enjoy and value the bond we share. Who says two is company, three is crowd?!
I don't hope, I know this bond is gonna stay unbiased and intact forever!!


I've been having too much of cocoa these days! It's yumm!
Missing someone you never had in your life but still is a part of your life.
When you listen to someone talking about themself and you realize how their little habits and way of thinking are similar to yours. You know, all of us are so similar in some way or the other.


When you feel like going back in time, taking up the opportunity that you'd turned down then, just so that you know what it would be like if you had chosen things to be otherwise.
Times when you willingly allow certain people to walk out of your life... and when you finally quit doubting your decision about it or rather you just learn to accept it. Because there'll always be what-if's, whether whatever you choose... because there'll be this other thing that you did not select. And, you always have to choose, in fact your destiny is based on what you choose. At least I believe so. You invariably have two ways to go about it, be it anything, Mr God has his book of fate well-written for both your ways, if you choose the first way, your destiny is based on that and if you choose the other way, you destiny will be based on that! So basically, most of the times it's OUR choice and the rest is up to the destiny!


Love: Utterly Beautiful
But, Love at first sight : BS!!


Expectations can be scary at times.


The entire world has become a victim to the atrocious mosquitoes!! Every person I talk to, whines about being mosquito-stricken! I am finding it eminently arduous to find a cure for this! I mean... my house is clean, windows are shut, Ac's on, mosquito coil and liquid mosquito destroyer together working in this room and still they are eating me up!! We actually have those mosquito killing electric rackets at my place! I feel like I am living in some amazon forest! Sick! Mr God please, please, don't make us pay for our bad karma like this!


Love aaj kal- One Bolly movie that portrayed true love, I believe! I like it!
I simply love Maroon 5. Listening to 'Won't go home without you'...


Thoughtless.
Wasted a lot of time. Have to study!!
Ciao!

The subject of matter

When in a sticky situation...at first, you fret about the fact that no one understands you and when someone actually understands... what happens next? What happens after getting an "I understand" from someone? Is the problem solved?
No, it isn't! You are still there. In the same place where you were before that person or anyone fathomed you. So how does it matter?! Really?
'No one understands me'... A statement that's void ab initio. Because, why should someone or anyone understand you, when their comprehension is actually worth a diddly and if it's not at all conducive to the situation! Rather than concentrating on making things better, we brood about no one grasping us!
But still.. we are humans (and I am no different)... we love to feel that no one understands us... so be it!


I've always done what I've wanted to do, be it right or wrong! I've always followed my heart (well, 98% of the times)... But when the heart is misleading you to do something that it knows is not good for you, in any possible way... the pleasure won't be worth the pain, at all... then it's advisable not to follow it! Certain times it is necessary to follow your brain! Because you have got to be rational, logical and practical, to understand the gravity of the situation! Life really has been a party (since quite sometime now)... but just like every other party, this one also has to be ended! Fun cannot be the only essence of life! I need to put a break to the 'My way or the highway' thing that I've been practicing!!

In both the above paragraphs... All that matters is the knowledge and acumen of the subject of matter in those situations!

Never back down is a nice movie. I quite liked it!
Stronger by Kelly Clarkson- Awesome!

Less than 2months left for the exams! I should be studying now! Mr God... Please, the 3D's... deliver them to me ASAP!!

Unkempt

Some people are very confusing... You never know what's going on in their head, whether they are serious with you or it's their sarcasm!

Still stuck on "only you"!
"What's that feeling that I get, my heart is drowning every grade...."

I want to watch this upcoming movie 'London Paris New York'!
I love the song "Voh Dekhnay mein...." form the movie! Listening to it now...

And, sometimes Mr God brings in some people in your life because He wants to perplex and bamboozle you! After all, even He needs entertainment! ;)

I am sure no one can have funnier dreams than me! Every morning I wake up astonished at the capability of my unconscious mind to actually dream such utterly farcical and funny situations!
Some people have nightmares, some dream epiphanies, some dream of romance and me..I dream funny (always)!! I've never understood how do I do it every night!!

I love Nancy and Sluggo. They are so dang cute!!
Times when you have nothing to talk about with the person you've always had something to talk about!

Running out of time... But still acting as if there's abundant time left!! Not good and totally not happening!! What's up Mr stupid mind?!!

Moments when you say or do some silly, unnecessary and totally meaningless things... and people make a song and dance about them.... and you go "What the heck?!".. Even prodigal words and actions can land you in a soup! For friggin no reason!

There are 2 opposite MEs always battling inside me... both are equally good and bad... but they think very differently... It's outcome: one single utterly confused and baffled outer ME!!

And, people are still making more versions of 'Kolaveri di'.... Guys can you please get over it, already!!

And,
Sometimes a cute little toy that comes along for free in a packet of chips can make you feel so full of glee... for a moment you become that 7 year old kid again!!

Also,
For someone who called me an emotional sissy... (And I actually said all of this except for the last line!)
I am emotional, I agree! Absolutely! But, that doesn't make me any weak in any possible way! I can FEEL better than you but I still know how to get over things and move on. So veritably, you are the one who's in tatters! It's about time, people stop confusing the quality of being "emotional" with "weak and depressed"!!!!
SCREW YOU, YOU OPINIONATED PSYCHOTIC FREAK!!!!!

Totally random!

Just when I am about to hit the bed, I take a final look in the mirror and see my hair falling perfectly. Why can't the hair look that good when I have to go out?! 
Well, perhaps my hair looks the same even then. It's just my perception, just because I am going to be sleeping and getting up looking like a wreckage, I feel the hair is too good to be slept with! But, when I get ready for an occasion, nothing in the world can make me believe that I am looking fine for the day!
Humans... Never satisfied!


The more time I spend around people, the lesser I know me for that day!


'Notting Hill' is a lovely romantic movie! 
I saw 'Ek main aur ek tu' last week. I liked the movie, it was quite realistic! Maybe that's the reason many people around me did not like it! 
People like to see rom-coms or love stories because of their happy endings. 'Ek main aur ek tu' did not have a happy ending, rather it did not have an ending at all! The hero was still hoping in the climax that he'll win the heroine over and the movie ended without giving the audience any exact conclusion. So people were disappointed! Many real life love stories actually end in 'HOPE'. Sometimes, you get the person you want and sometimes you have to accept things and move on!


And, 
it's not good to perceive someone as you want them to be, rather than what they really are! This is nothing but fooling your own self! 


I am humming Rihanna's 'Pon De Replay'... I don't know how, this song suddenly struck me after ages!
"Come, Mr DJ song pon de replay. Come, Mr DJ won't you turn the music up?........"


Oftentimes, you don't feel contented living some moments, only once. You wish you could re-live them again and again! Just the way we can hear the same song any number of times we want. 
But then, at least we have been given the liberty to reminisce those moments and imagine re-living them! See... Mr God always has own way of giving us whatever we wish for, it's just us... who never acknowledge his givings! 


Adieu!! 

Feminine!

I can see a slight beam of light coming out of the shut window so there's still a thin ray of hope left... So Mr stupid little brain, are you there?! Hellloooo?! Kindly start working!!!

Why are the heart and head always battling? Can't they for once settle on a single mutual thing?!

I've been listening too much to "Oh Johnny..." since last 2 days. It's a song by 'Andrew sisters'. It was a US chart-buster during the world-war!! I know... it's a very old song but it's very gleeful! 

Also, the soundtrack from the Bolly movie 'Life in a metro' is really good. Too romantic songs, not really my thing but sometimes they work well because the music is amazing (especially the guitar sounds)... When the movie was out years back, everyone was crazy about its songs but I never paid attention and now when people are bored of them... I've started liking them (All thanks to the radio stations that still keep playing them)! This always happens with me...late realizations... most of the times over songs and some of the times with real people!

Girls, females, women... No one can understand them, not even they themselves!

Sometimes we can take it all in good humor and sometimes something said sarcastically can hurt us immensely! 

I know guys who are like that too... in my head, I refer to them as 'girl-guys'!! I mean SOMETIMES it's OK for a guy to think like a girl, exceptions are allowed but dude.. not invariably!! It's easy to tell a girl-guy from the real guys! I personally know quite a few of them! Now, girl-guys are straight men, interested in women. They also have all the male body parts... the only thing they lack is some peculiar and necessary male thinking habits, which I can't elucidate properly... perhaps you'll need the girl-antennas to figure out what I mean here! And NO, I am not referring to the habit of lusting other women... because be it a guy or a girl-guy... they still own testosterone!! 

Anyway,

Why does being called 'fat' always bothers us? 

Maybe because girls have to be thin (not plump, not pudgy, not healthy... but THIN and LEAN) to be accepted by everyone! I don't know who started it... but now it's like the word 'Fat' sounds like an abuse to a girl, at times! I remember, till I was 17, I used to refer someone as 'fat' only if they were highly overweight or obese but as the years passed and my interactions with people increased, I've learnt that even if you are moderately out of proportion then you are freaking FAT!! 

But you know what... Screw you... Go eat yourself up and stop bothering me... I am fat and I don't fucking have a problem with that!!! 

We don't need anyone's acceptance, except our own! Often when people look at us scornfully, we start doubting ourselves (well, most of the girls do)... why do we do that?! However, sooner or later we do realize...we don't need to give a shit about it!

Right now, I am reminded of this song by Lady Sovereign, I enjoyed listening to few years back, that goes..

"Love me or hate me, is that an obsession

love me or hate me, that is the question

if you love me then thank you

if you hate me then fuck you!!"  

It's a fun song, you know! I really like it! ;)

Also, the movie 'Shallow Hal' is coming to my memory, at the moment... It is a good movie with a nice message... Somewhere I feel, all of us are just as shallow as Hal was before the climax of the movie...

And,

Sometimes, you call up a person, looking for warmth but all you get is a gigantic cold ice-cube! 

Sometimes, why is it necessary to hear the words we already know, from someone else?!

Sometimes, healthy flirting is fun! ;)