On a NORMAL Sunday

After long, I am in a good mood today, I enjoyed my Sunday, just as a Sunday should be enjoyed; lazing around in my house, watching a few movies, listening to music & eating a lot of junk (actually I over-ate). Although I had to do a lot of content writing but I just did a few articles.

Sometimes when it seems like things are getting more complicated, just one phone call and a few caring lines can help as hell.

 Is it just me or Justin Bieber does really sounds like a girl!

Oh! I just reminisced, how I used to be a crazy ‘Blue’ fan, I mean I still love them but 3-4 years back, I was all ga-ga about them, I, in fact, had my phone Bluetooth name as ‘Blue’ for years. They truly made amazing music; ‘All rise’, ‘Bubblin’, ‘Signed, sealed, delivered’, ‘You make me wanna’, ‘One love’ and many many more. How I love them!! Bubblin is my first favorite Blue song.

”How do we get started

How do we get private

Once we get it started

Its gonna be troubling

U and me bubbling...”

“Life can be as easy and as complicated as you make it”, true, isn’t it? We never want to or wish to make our lives complicated. It’s just that, some of us find it farcically difficult to make life easy.

I am the best procrastinator, one can ever come across but the more I am trying to work on it, the more it is making me hate myself and be unsatisfied with myself. But then, I just read a quote yesterday saying,’ One should never be satisfied and less curious’ (Be careful with the context, in which it has been stated). Anyway, we are all work-in-progress in some way or the other. I just hope my process catches up some pace, at the end of the day, one cannot change overnight.  "Rome was not built in a day".

And, cricket has been exasperating me as hell! It is ALL that people watch and talk about. Aaarrrghh!!!!

Cheerio!!    

Bloom Bloom Bloomer!!

Bloomer is my new plant. A few weeks back I had decided to get a plant which bears flowers and I got me 1 today. Now, I am responsible for a life, whose growth and existence relies on me & I know I will take utmost care of my baby bloomer...I so love it!  

I was at Marine Drive yesterday. The view of the city from there is exquisite, its not the 1st time I went there but each time I am there, it always crosses my mind that whether I am deserving enough to live such a beautiful life in this vibrant and lively metro. I remember stating in one of my articles,'People of Mumbai are always working, this is not the place where you can just stand and stare.' It gave me a drive to work, work hard enough to feel deserving enough. "Am I deserving enough for it?", is a question that keeps meandering in my head most of the times for most of the things I have, achieve and wish for. 

I am back to writing now and it feels good, I have become a little slow because of the big break and so there is a little pressure but I am loving the pressure too! I feel contented ( at least now) about it!

P.S.: I again ended up writing about me. 

 

Me, writing and monsoon

My heart is beating so fast right now that I fear it will wear out soon. I have come to realize that I have been writing a lot about myself of late, be it in my blue writing diary or this blog. So many of times we get so lost within ourselves that we start ignoring everything else around us, the nature, the people and so forth. 

Life is all about uncertainties. No one knows what's going to happen next, even the fortune-tellers cannot predict their own future but I just wish I knew SOME of the future outcomes. Yes, I know the "live in the moment" philosophy and I do follow it too but there are times when I want to live the future first and then the present.

Working from the workplace is so much better than working from home, at least we can come out of the den and meet other people. But we cannot get everything, right? God always keeps us away from any one piece of the life's jigsaw puzzle at each time. He makes us realize that it's not complete and then He wants us to be satisfied with the unfinished puzzle. Uck, very puzzling!! 

Mumbai's first drizzle on 16th may, 2011 was pretty pleasant although I had to carry my umbrella for the entire day just because of that 2 minute shower and that irked me. I am an admirer of the nature but when it comes to RAINS I am not much of a fan but I do love it's balcony view coupled along with a few Mumbaiyaa Munchies and junk!! I avidly want to feel the swishing breeze on my face which will be possible only with the arrival of the monsoon so I am waiting for it to come soon.

I could not think of a title for this post so I used a few labels for it...Hooroo (i.e. goodbye as per the Australian slang)!

I hope this was the last...

Since the exams are over (again) I wanted to blog something but didn't know what. Anyway, now I need to take charge of my responsibilities ASAP. As soon as I finished my paper today, I wanted to work but since there are a few plans I wont be able to catch up with work now for a day or two. 

"Ajeeb daastan hain yeh..." an old hindi track and "The day you went away" by Shades of purple, two amazing songs.

I expect a lot from me, I hope I am not over-expecting. I saw "Luv ka the end" today, loved it and I just finished watching "A walk to remember" again. Now, "Raagini MMS" tomorrow... I love watching movies, I can watch them all day long without being with anyone or talking to anyone. That's what I feel like doing now, going away from life, not listening to anyone, not talking to anyone, just writing, reading, watching movies and being by myself for a while.    

Quitting always doesnt mean quitting on life!!

Sometimes no matter how hard you try, things NEVER work in your favor. I have heard that people who quit are losers but what if they quit because there is something else that’s waiting to turn that quitter into a winner? What if it was never meant for you? Why try to stretch the band so hard that it breaks?

But quitting one thing and picking up another and trying to actually persevere for that, requires a lot of strength! Society and people around have such an enormous impact that quitting what may be wrong for us but right as per them gets so difficult that giving up on quitting and continuing to lead a sucker’s life seems easier! But just because one sucks at a particular thing doesn’t mean that he or she can’t flourish in another!

I wish ALL of us had the balls to go against the people (even the special ones) and the society for such matters.

May you NEVER rest in peace!

Osama Bin Laden was shot dead on 2^nd of May 2011. I am sure this day will be celebrated by many every year. He got shot in the head (a start off point to all his disgusting and ghastly terrorist thinking & activities). Thank God!!

Well, 1 down and 99999(approx) more to go.

He used to say that he does everything for his people and Allah and considered himself to be very knowledgeable about Islam, stupid fellow, people who think they are wise and always right are the ones who are obtuse, thickheaded and always wrong!!  

I just read an article claiming that this is a false alarm, he may be alive but skeptics are always there to comment on every issue and this being a huge one such comments and stories are bound to come. I would still like to believe that he is dead.

After taking so so so many lives, hell would be like a heaven to him so Mr. God if there is any other nastiest place than hell, I sincerely request you to transport his soul there! 

Why always estimate??

“I am not a princess, this ain’t a fairytale…..now its too late for you and your white horse to come around...”

‘White horse’ by Taylor Swift, I never liked Taylor Swift songs but of late I’ve developed a taste for them. 

It’s strange how sometimes we think that we won’t like a particular situation or thing or person but later when it happens we realize that its fine, there’s no feeling of dislike, it was a wrong estimate.

Estimates. Why do we always have to estimate everything? Can’t we just live in the present without thinking about future outcomes and estimations especially where it’s not necessary to do so? Why do we always want to know things beforehand?

Dr Brian Weiss writes amazing books on past life regression and future life progression. I love his work. Oh and I hate V.K. Singhania!! Not good!!

Sorry for the digression, coming back to estimates, there are some people who always have a take on every creature that breathes. They make estimates and form opinions about every person. It’s not bad but doing it every time…Dude, get a life!! We don’t have to be judgmental all the time. No one knows any anyone completely, lay aside anyone else, no one knows their ownselves completely then how can you conclude about someone else’s personality and thinking? It’s out of my reach. Different people, different mentalities. Maybe I am not smart enough to understand their approach behind all this but frankly, I don’t feel this is necessary (each time).

Oh and stress really really really leads to hairfall :(

On love and trust

Love is the most weirdest and overwhelming sentiment ever.  It’s the only magic that all the human beings can do. Love will always be one of those things that bamboozle me and amaze me at the same time. I am not talking about the love that you have for your parents, family and friends…it’s that “love”…so yaa ,I have read and heard that it makes you reach on cloud 25. It’s a beautiful feeling and the most powerful shade of happiness. But does it really last? Is it also temporary like everything else?

If love is really so short lived then why does everyone crave to experience it? Don’t they fear future deprivation? When it’s not there in the future or it vanishes away, what will you do other than spending rest of the life crying and mourning over it? And also is it really possible to love only one person for your entire life?

No, I am not against it but I am all questions about it since I have never had “that” feeling. This love seems really complicated and no one can ever understand its pros and cons without experiencing it. I most of the times feel that it just doesn’t exist. It’s either physical attraction or a crush or having similar thinking or maybe even a habit (like when u get used to or addicted to someone).

Now coming down to trust, phew this is the most dangerous and risky thing to do. I have always had a hard time trusting people. When you trust someone you are being totally vulnerable. That person has the full power and authority to hurt you profoundly and you can do nothing whatsoever. Also, love involves the highest quantity of trust, super risky!!

It’s just yesterday that I came across this quote, “Trust is like clay when you break it, it loses its shape and becomes amorphous, no matter how hard you try to win it back, you can never give it the exact same shape that it originally had”. It’s so so so so true!! I don’t understand, why is it so important to trust people but I would feel real bad if my close one’s say that they don’t trust me. No matter how perilous it is, you will always want people to trust you and in turn you will have to trust them. Trust is as complicated as love, isn’t it? Well, such are life diaries (lol...in terms of a very close friend).

Be it love or trust, I am not the risk taker; I am risk averse (as per the financial jargon). But as they say until and unless you take risk you will miss out on fun and joy. Maybe sometime soon in the future I’ll be the risk taker, for now I am already taking a risk blogging instead of studying so bye bye.

Exam-time Randomness....

A few days left for the exams and I am here blogging, I must say this Blogosphere is pretty enticing! Phew!! It was a tiring morning and noon, did a lot of in and out so I slept for while. Before going to sleep there were so many things I was thinking about and I wanted to blog about but after getting up it’s all gone, I wish this could happen always, not thinking about the worthless stuff and issues after waking up, just sleeping it off, life would have been much easier. I guess this happens only when there are lot many things to catch up with.

I was just thinking, I have missed on a lot of movies of late. Lol, I know I should be studying and not thinking about movies but I am very bored now! By the way I am having frooti right now, it’s so tasty, it’s one of those drinks that I and probably most of us are drinking since childhood, I love its soft, sweet and tangy taste… During exams, life gets so boring and dull, everything you do or think or write is all dreary and lifeless.

I just read somewhere, ‘Everyday there is someone who will push you in the pool, you just have come up with the plan to get out of the pool every time’.

I wish I could care less about things, about people. I wish I could not expect at all from people. I wish I did not wish that often…

Colors are so nice; they make this lull a little vibrant. Actually colors are the part of our surroundings invariably, its just us and our moods, sometimes we notice them and sometimes we don’t. The other day I was coming back from class and I saw a gang of friends, girls and guys, all dressed up and mingling with each other, giggling around and they were getting in a car, an Innova, I was watching them and I had a big 1 km smile on my face and suddenly I noticed a tear rolling down my cheek. Nostalgia. Reminiscence. Sometimes even sweet memories make you weep but I liked that tear, it symbolizes I have lived those priceless moments and It’s never too late to make more memories, right?!

Time to study, I hope I concentrate well…bye.