I got to live it

When people are happy because of you and for you, it makes you feel worth living and I finally got to catch a glimpse of that moment, when you feel worth living...

Phew...I am still in awe

(I feel so emotional posting this one here..)

I finally defeated the demon, though I realize, this was the small one and the real son of evil still awaits me...

Finally getting to see that big, wide and hearty grin (that you caused) on your parents' faces is priceless...

Still cannot belive it...!! 

I am falling short of words to articulate this alleviation...It has happened only because of the Almighty and everyone's prayers... I hope, I dont dissapoint them ever again !!

And, the statement I was dying to own, since past 3years: 

  FINALLY REACHED THE FINALS !!

Why the heck do you always assume things about people?!

I have become so grumpy these days. It's not at all difficult to tick me off!! Goodness me...!! I am fuming even now when I am typing about it!! 

Anyway, I had been wanting to blog since my rickety computer went in for repairs and when it got back, I just couldn't write here anymore. It always happens like that, you talk to this one person in your mind a 100 times but when that person comes in front of you, you are unable to utter a friggin word to him/her. In that one moment, you imagine that person giving countless different reactions to what you will say and then you end up not saying anything!! Why do we always assume what the opposite person is thinking or will say or will do or blah?? Isn't it stupid to have such silly assumptions?! 

We never know what is going on in the opposite person's head, just as they don't know what we are thinking but still both will have certain assumptions as to each other's take and comprehension about an issue or topic or feelings...

This assumption thing has been driving me crazy since months. It really plays badly with your head. It is always better to communicate rather than drawing conclusions on the basis of some baseless assumptions!! Your conjectures can really hurt you more than any other person.


It is so easy to be negative, right? Many a times, I find it eminently difficult to be positive about people. It is very important to be positive about the people in your life rather more important than being positive about your own life. Being positive about them is equivalent to trusting them, if you take them in a negative way, it implies that you have lost trust in them. It's better to quit postulating other people's intentions!! 


The monsoon blues are incessant...it keeps getting gloomier and darker...

13th July 2011, Wednesday, Mumbai- Is there a solution??

Yet another manifestation of terrorism transpired in Mumbai. Three high intensity bomb blasts at Opera House, Dadar (Kabutarkhana) and Zaveri Bazaar between 6:30PM and 7:00PM. 19 dead and 130 severely injured as per the official figures, which we know is always understated. Is there any answer to terrorism? If not then will we ever find one in the future? After the attack, people started blaming the police, the politicians, national security, etc. They might be at fault but blaming them has never helped, I don't know what are we as individuals supposed to do except for talking about this issue, discussing it and expressing disconsolation! 

When the colossal 1993 blasts took place, outraged Indians blamed the government and all those who were in authority, it's 2011 now and the chapter of accidents has still not reached its climax! Our anger, helplessness, peace marches, pleas, cries, woes, nothing affected terrorism, it is still destroying us and neither did it affect the people in authority, they are still inefficient at their work and see what their inefficiency can do to us! Whoever wants to run the country is mesmerized and awestruck by the power such positions give but they forget that 'with great power comes great responsibility'. Terrorism is THE MAJOR CHALLENGE that our globe (& not just our city or country) is facing and if the higher authorities and officials (all over the world) are unable to tackle that then what is the point in giving them the power?! We elect them because we think they are capable of managing all the big things that we as individuals cannot.

I am feeling helpless typing this blogpost as this (and the peace march, discussions, etc...) is all that I can do for my Mumbai.

Work and Rains...

A lot of content writing is up this week. Then there’s office, class and also a few other plans. It’s going to be 1 hell of a week. This time, I cannot be late with respect to writing because I have been given a final warning so now on if I take the work; I have to do it ON TIME. No excuses will be entertained. I got pretty apprehensive about this, at first but then I thought, I will have to be responsible and PUNCTUAL someday, right? So why not now! There are so many people who slog butts and work like anything. I mean, work is really worship to them and if they can do it, even I can try!  

I am still in love with the song “I just died in your arms tonight, it must have been something you said…” by Smitty.

Traffic jams due to rains, water dripping from the trees, damp hair, wet clothes, shoes soaked in water, mossy surfaces, grey sky, the sound of raindrops falling on the ground, on the umbrellas, raincoats and wind cheaters, crowded vada pav stalls, slow music on the headset and the chaos can make you feel either gloomy or furious or like a lively Mumbaikar or all of these at the same time!!

I really find monsoon gloomy and sad (most of the times). I wonder why people love it so much!! The icky feeling you get when you are almost wet is so repulsive!

Having said all of the above, I still find rains amusing. I am familiar with the water cycle that we were taught in the second grade but rains still seems like magic to me (only when I am indoors)!!

Random midnight ruminations...

"I am keeping you forever and for always...", a beautiful Shania Twain track playing on the radio, in this hour of murkiness is a perfect thing to ask for. There's still so much to learn, my knowledge about writing is still like a baby in the womb. I just read a few pieces and I am appalled by the way people make use of the language, it made me feel inferior as well as gave me a drive. Though, I know, my laziness will soon drive away the 'drive'!!

It's cold, I love cold! 

Acting as a profession is over-hyped. I think actors get unnecessary attention, they don't deserve it that much. They need not be worshiped like Gods and Goddesses! I mean, c'mon, Amitab Bachchan is a fine actor, we all know (Although I don't like him that much) but a Temple in his name, having his idol is just too much! That man holds citizenship of various countries in order to evade taxes, God would never try to elude taxes (I hope and assume so)!! Had he been some businessman, he wouldn't be getting such responses. People idolize Dhirubhai Ambani, Azim Premji and J R D Tata but there are no Temples in their names (Thankfully). This can be expected only of Indians, making Temples in the name of actors, Preposterous!!! 

I know I sounded like a loser commenting on someone elses fame and achievement but degrading or sabotaging any person or profession was never my intention, I just jotted down the truth according to me!!

I never used to like James Blunt earlier but now, I find his music pretty soothing.I like his song "Tears and rain".

I was just musing, how much acknowledgement is needed by all of us, for everything. Maybe I'll blog about it separately sometime later.

'The mystery of existence is the connection between our faults and our misfortunes.', a true quote that requires a lot of brains to comprehend!! It has a very profound meaning.

Today, in the noon, I was watching 'Something's gotta give'. It made me believe that love can happen and can SUCCEED at any age but then again, it's just a movie!!

Another amazingly true quote, 'We do not see things as they are. We see them as we are.' That's the reason all of us have a different perception and  take on one same single incident but no one knows, which one of us is correct. Some might have similar views but that doesn't make them true and right, majority doesn't always win you see!!

Premonitions

When you try to make everyone happy, you land yourself in a pickle! I have always known this but I invariably tend to forget this TRUTH but God loves me so much that he keeps reminding it to me! Today, I am all free (at least for some hours now) and now I realize how habitual I have become of being worried, of trying to fit into my deadlines, of lot of work lying around me and of trying be less late for things. Getting into sticky situations and then coping to get out of them has become like a routine now. I know I should bring some changes in this routine.

“Instinct is the nose of the mind”, an amazing quote that I stumbled across the other day. This quote is indeed true but even the nose can go wrong at times.  

“….follow your heart, your intuition, it will lead you in the right direction”
I am now listening to this song; I like its music, the lyrics and its feel.

Do instincts or intuitions really lead you to the right direction? When your heart believes that something is totally right and perfect for you, that’s an intuition or what you call as an inner instinct or the sixth sense or a hunch, it’s your own inner voice. If your heart is always right and the inner voice is correct invariably then why do we end up badly sometimes, even after following our instincts!

Sometimes we should just leave it to the destiny. True, you might end up in a mess or it may prove to be a wrong decision following your heart but at least the “what if, I had done it my way?” mystery won’t be there. And, as the Murphy’s Law states, ‘If something has to go wrong, it will go wrong’ then isn’t it better to end up in a shit by taking the road of your choice rather than ending up in shit along with regretting all the time about not doing it the way you wanted to! Trusting your heart is imperative.

And,

There always should be someone or the other, who tries to make up your mood, when you are sad!

Listening to ‘Around the world’, takes me to a different planet, this song makes me really very happy!

Then there are songs in languages I don’t understand but I still enjoy listening to them

Oh and Bengali sweets are undoubtedly scrumptious and delectable! :) 

lost sight of articulation...

It's been ages since I've posted anything here. I find my blog rather boring now. I remember how earlier I used to visit my blog and re-read my old posts. May be because previously I used to write about my views and now I write about me and I don't find me interesting. Many a times in the past few days I opened the blog with the intention of writing but whenever I would start to type, I would go blank. I feel I have become less expressive over the days... :(


Although a few assignments have been coming from here and there, they have not been enough so as to satisfy me. Also my work is getting erroneous day by day. What is it? Is it the lethargy, the situation or just me? CONFUSED (as always) !!?!


So, the rains are getting very irksome now. When it should rain, it doesn't and when it should not, it pours heavily!! Well, my own life doesn't go according to me, how can I expect the monsoon to work as per me!!


Right now  I am feeling as if I am sitting in a roller coaster, thoughtless and emotionless and the roller coaster is going round and round, it wont stop until I am all set to hurl. 


I met some old friends last week. It was fun. I realized that friends can be old or new but friendships are always evergreen. We didn't party nor did we go to some amazing place, it was a normal dinner and a long walk but my happiness on being with them was so huge that it made me enjoy those simple moments more than anything. I guess this what true friends do to you! And, my baby bloomer bloomed a flower after weeks (touchwood), I am very glad this happened !! :))


One thing I hate the most about Mumbai is that people here really can be mean and rude. No one cares even if you get hit by a car, at times. You are the only one who has to be careful about yourself, no one comes to help, you have to be your own help!!  


Anyway, I don't have anything more to write now. When the thoughts in your head stop meandering for a while, you can express it out but when they just keep running continuously it's hard to catch pace and articulate!!

The fun week ends…

1 Party + 1 dinner + Manori + Lonavala = A week full of fun and entertainment. While returning from Manori, I wanted to blog about it ASAP but I was drained by the trip till the time I reached home so I could not and little did I know that the awesome Lonavala weekend was waiting for me. So now I will put down all the fun together here.

The fun week started with a friend’s awesome party. All of us danced our hearts out. It was superb. Then the next day, me and my mad gang (as we call it) left for Manori. The beach, the cottage, the horse-cart ride, the ferry ride, the weird dog and the dark room, all made it a perfect picnic. Actually, I had the perfect set of people and that’s what made it a hit. The little jokes, the funny events, the teasing, the yelling and hooting made it one of most memorable outings for all of us. To top it all, it rained. My first proper rainy session, all of us got wet and enjoyed the weather thoroughly. I would specifically like to mention the horse cart ride while returning; the sun was setting, it was very windy and cloudy by then. The narrow road on which our horses were galloping was margined by trees on both sides. Most of the trees bore red flowers. It looked like they were on fire. And then, the sky started sprinkling water. Oh! What a sight! What a feeling! It was indeed an enchanting ride!

Another event to add to my merriment was one of my closest friend’s birthday on 3^rd June. All of us met and went for dinner.

 And then the next morning I Ieft for Lonavala with my family. The climate was amazing there. The clouds were touching the hills. I was actually sitting on cloud nine. I could touch the sky. The scenery, the weather, the fresh air and the swiftly blowing wind were just perfect. Apart from this, I enjoyed the little badminton session with my family. This trip will remain in my memory forever and ever. I feel like I am back from heaven.   

 I don’t remember when was the last that I actually enjoyed for an entire week like that without going to office so all in all it was an exuberating week filled with loads of fun, pleasure and a little guilt for not working at all.

There was not much of writing work this week so I really wish for more of it ahead.         

          

Yesterday and some odd thoughts...

Sometimes opportunities can also be scary. Is this the right thing to do or not? This question can be answered only by doing it.

Yesterday, after a long time I traveled by train. It was a big 1.5 hr journey. This Sunday was more wearing than a weekday. Anyway, I would rather not waste my words writing about how tiring, confusing, enlightening and bizarre yesterday was!

The train journey was good although all the time I was worried about being late. There was place to sit in the train but I preferred standing at the door and having the wind blow straight on my face. It felt good and free. On the way, I saw a road running parallel to the train. There were dense trees on both its sides; it looked like a beautiful tree tunnel. The sunlight was touching the road in bits and pieces because the leaves of the trees were breaking the light. It looked so pleasant.

There are so many different people in the world having different life stories. We have this small world that we build around us and that is what universe is for us. But from the actual universal perspective, one single person is like small and minute dot. There are countless lives and life stories. All of us are always lost in our own life stories, thinking only about ourselves and nothing else. But the fact is even if YOU don’t have a story, the universe will still be having infinite life stories!! Making your life story worthy of being a part of this universe is not that difficult, helping the people who need aid can make a good difference.