Just me...

No matter how much you try to put me down, I'll still somehow manage to gather the courage to stand up and start trudging...
I don't know whether I'll ever make it, but I'm not gonna sit back and watch life just pass by me.
No, I'm not over-confident as you always say... as a fact I'm no where even close to confidence.
All I have is hope; hope that I am on the right path, that my dreams can come true, that I'll make you proud someday...

I wish...
Why do we wish so much!

When there's always someone or the other to talk to, you feel suffocated by the presence of too many in your life.
When there's no one available to covey your feelings or vent out your emotions or just talk aimlessly, you feel suffocated due to the presence of that emptiness in your life.
Strange aren't we, never satisfied.

And then,
No matter how hard you try to fit in, you just can't because you are not meant to be one of them so isn't it advisable to just be yourself. "Be yourself", as easy as it is to say these two profound words, it is as difficult to always inculcate it in life, per se!

Currently listening to:
Greyhound- Swedish House Mafia
Diamonds- Rihanna
Levels- Avicii
Perfect- Pink (speaks to my heart, always) 
Cold Addiction- Day of fire
Coastal cities- Relief

I've observed, eventually everything boils down to acceptance. What you do has to be accepted, how you do it has to accepted, when you do it has to be accepted... all in all, You have to be accepted!
By whom? That's subjective but it'll always be this one person or if not that, society.
People may deny the importance of acceptance but it is one of the fundamental characteristics of human nature and behavior.

Being a people pleaser and not being able to say no, leads to identity crises or rather adds to it!

I'd gone for the Standard Chartered Mumbai Marathon- Dream run, on the 20th of this month. It was awesome. With the enormous crowd. different types of music playing loud and various vibrant colors around, I could truly feel the spirit of Mumbai.
People from certain NGO's promoting their objects, brands and big corporates promoting their products, people supporting causes, Delhi rape protesters, people participating just for fun, people participating for fitness and health, people participating to experience being part of the marathon, people participating for showing off their status and money, disabled people taking part to motivate themselves and others and to feel more alive, street children and beggars just running along asking for free water bottles, money and food... Mumbai was on the streets!  

In dilemma

Its nearing, the decision day, where I'll be the decision-maker. I'll have to choose one out of the two doors destiny has offered me.
Up until now I haven't really given it a thought but I'll have to now...

Should I consider the 'what-ifs' or not?
If I do, I'm over-thinking.
If I don't, I'm not being prudent and cautious.

I have always believed that Mr God gives us options and we are the ones who have to choose. Our destiny depends on whichever door we opt to enter. Knowingly or unknowingly, its we who choose our future.

So, it's okay to be scared. That's normal.

And anyway, it's always okay to feel afraid. Being a human being, you should feel every emotion. One should take fear as just another emotion.
Just think about that sigh of relief or the big grin that comes after you conquer over the fear...

Numb- Rihanna

 

Happy New Year!

2013 is here...

A new start... again!
More unfolding of mysteries. Some more good days and bad days waiting, new memories to be made.

I had an awesome 31st. Things have been so positive until now, I hope this continues.

2012 didn't start off that well but it ended beautifully.
I'm living a whole new life. Mr God has been gracious enough towards me.

Friends-Happiness.

 

Clearing the clutter

When we do things that we shouldn't have despite of having knowledge of what the outcome of doing them would be.
When we say things that we shouldn't have because some secrets should be locked in that little box in your heart and never to be said out loud.
When you cannot forgive yourself for doing it all, saying it all.
When you cannot stop admonishing yourself for being the fool.
Take a moment, reminisce it all again and then say to yourself, 'Yes I made more mistakes, yes I know it was a big deal and I've been extremely faulty but now instead of thinking about it as a chapter of shame and regret, I shall think of it as a lesson well learnt!'

Sigh...

Rather than trying so hard to be a part of a group, you should try to be yourself because only that makes sense.
Then again 'Be yourself' gives rise to 'Who am I' and 'How do I be myself'...
To know this, we are breathing. I hope, I will be enlightened of it someday.

I hate it when people put me in a dilemma.
Office politics- No matter how hard you try to stay out of it, it doesn't spare you.
I've decided, instead of feeling pressurized that I might hurt anyone or make "enemies", I won't care as much, breathe freely and be the way I am and not how they want me to be. To hell with them and their issues!
When it comes to those special ones in your life, it's fine to be affected for a while but people who are not all that significant shouldn't impact you.

Phew...

It's very important to not let your core self get affected by other people's life otherwise you end up living their life instead of your own.
With me, sometimes I'm able to do so and sometimes I just can't!

Don't you worry child- Swedish House Mafia

Changing scenarios!

Change. Why are we so resistant about it always without even knowing whether its good or bad?!
When you have something great going on, you would hate to have things changed even a bit because you are so comfortable and happy with the way things are. But, you know as they say, change is the only constant thing in the Universe so its inevitable.
Again, in such a scenario, where everything is "perfect", you will hate to see anything new happening. Because that "new" is unknown, uncertain and unpredictable. We tend to think negative because we believe that it can't get any better. We are having the best time of our life here if there is something new, a change, it can only make it worse because there is no better after the best.
But, in reality, who knows what "best", "perfect" or "worst" is?
How do you decide that?
How can you be so sure that nothing better or worse, as the case may be, will happen?

Haha, I know it all but still wouldn't like to accept.

What's New?

When you meet new people, you connect real good with some of them while you don't click with the rest.
New people come in life with a new set of expectations. I'm not talking about what they would be expecting from you, I'm speaking of the expectations you will build up in your mind.
Its very important to know how to detach yourself from certain people, things, situations. To lead a happy life one has to learn how to detach.

Living in the moment.

Everything fades away - Poets of Fall 

Suddenly life has started running at a jet speed, it feels as though I'm losing some of the very important things. in the meanwhile. I hope its only a feeling and not actual.

Yesterday while I was returning home in a BEST bus, a lady was being troubled by a lecherous creep. I was sitting on the seat ahead of her so I couldn't see what was happening. Suddenly this guy standing near my seat started abusing that creep very badly. It broke my sleep and I had no clue what was happening, then of course I came to know when others also yelled and abused the creep and threw him out of the bus. What was appalling, the lady never uttered a word, she was simply sitting there and letting this asshole touch herself! If women keep taking it all, staying mum in fear, they are not worth any sympathy. Sexual harassment will keep on happening. When you don't speak up, it leads to consent because silence can be interpreted in any way. And, not always, will there be someone who will fight for you!

  

one by two

Office.
Sometimes its just us, we over-think. The other person is not always the bad guy.

People are not that difficult to deal with, we make ourselves believe that they are. I know, I too have umpteen times said that its not a cinch being around people rather being happy around them but eventually I always realize it never was a big deal.

Another thing that got me thinking was, whether to say it out or not?
For say, when having a conversation with a bunch of people, you have so many things in head that you can say but you choose to stay mum. How does it matter if you speak your heart?
Now, there are countless reasons why you don't say it but for how long will this continue?
There will be a time when you'll stop not talking, when you'll start being yourself. So why not do it right away!

I think I shouldn't have done it, that thing. But now, it's all said and done so rather than fretting about it, I should do something constructive.

Home.
Feel, speak, enjoy, love, live, cry, suffer, make mistakes, be outrageous, apologize, learn, discover yourself!
Now is what we have. Who knows world might really end on 21/12/12!!
Haha...
What if it actually does?

When you wonder about death, you realize who are the ones that truly matter to you and you would wish to spend more time with them before everything is over.
If believing in 21/12/12 helps you express your love to your loved ones, then you are not as stupid as people would think!

I love Mumbai. People here can be as sweet as bitter they are! Confusing naa?? That's how we are.

Adele-Skyfall. Love it like crazy!

P.S.: I wrote half the post at work but then I got busy so I saved it as a draft and now added more and posted, hence the title!