Capricorn. Really?

There are too many things I'm not satisfied with currently.
Yes, we are never satisfied and eventually it is your way of looking at things.
Perhaps I'm taking life at large very negatively but that's how the situation is right now. I can't really help it, and I'm allowed to be mad at certain people and certain things; I have allowed myself, to be precise.

*Sigh*

Nothing and no person can help me here... I don't need any help anyway. I've always been self-sufficient in such situations.
I've lost count of the number of times I get this kind of feeling or I get stuck in such situations. Though this one is not as bad.

Anyway, moving on... (I have too)
Today, for an hour we did not have any work in office, so I was googling about zodiac signs. Capricorn especially, since that's me. I don't really believe in it, the horoscope, but whatever gives me hope for positive things to come always makes me feel good.
This is not the first time I've read about my sun sign, and I've always felt that I'm not a typical Capricornian. There are many prominent traits of Capricornains, which I lack. Not that it makes any difference; it's just an observation. On the other hand, there are certain characteristics of Capricornians that totally define me.
Perhaps, that's how it is for everyone, when it comes to zodiac.
But, I don't feel like a Capricornian, however silly it may sound.

Perhaps I played satan...

I remember praying for a petty thing to Mr. God. It was a silly wish but the way in which He granted that wish is something I had never imagined.
I'm sorry... if at all I was the reason behind this happening to you...
This is not the first time Mr. God has made me realize that one should always be careful about what they are wishing for because you never know in what way will it be granted.
It may be stupid on my part to feel so but the co-incidence is such that I shall consider myself guilty for life...

Now I know how Gretel felt...

What previously appeared as a dreamland, now looks like a slaughter-house decorated with candy and cream.

I have lost all sense of right and wrong, good and bad, life and death.
Not that I had much of it before...

 

Tears don't help anymore, but they still won't give up...

Trying to see the brighter side

Sometimes the glass seems half empty and sometimes it seems half full.
It's not the attitude you have invariably, it is the attitude you choose to have for different situations.

Vibes- I so believe in them

It's been three years that I've been into writing but somehow I still hesitate calling myself a writer

Somethings in life have to be bad, they just can't change because that's how Mr God wants it to be.

Too many things going on in my mind, regarding people around me. I wish I could set my anger free...

One should ALWAYS try to see the brighter side. That's what I've always believed and followed. Yes cribbing is allowed to a certain extent as that is normal I believe. But, I do look at the brighter side of life. :)

Also,
When you are single, you expect more from your "friends" and somehow even if they do as much as they can, its just never enough. That's why you should always have some other single friends around. And this is not just me, its an observation and was also a topic of discussion between me and a single friend. ;)

Expectation is a funny word.
But never forget to question yourself whether you are able to meet their expectations, before accusing them.

It was one of those black days today, when life seemed unfair and all the dirt from the past made my eyes burn.

There are times when you feel like what do they care about whatever you go through in life and then you realize that even if they do, it doesn't really matter. 

The ultimate embrace

She opened the door and it was him standing there, holding a little cactus plant. She was amused to see him there and what on earth was that thorny thing for, she wondered.
Before she could say anything, he said, 'I know, you must be thinking what am I doing here and why am I not in the plane.'
She gave him an obvious nod.
'Well...' he continued, 'I couldn't leave without saying what I'm going to say now. You are like this cactus. Thorny, hard, tough and different from all the other plants.'
She had no clue about what this conversation was about and why was it even taking place. 'Are your drunk or something? Please come inside and I'll make you some lemonade!' She said with a smirk.
'Will you just shut up for once and let ME speak!' he said annoyingly.
'It was very difficult for me to find something that resembled you and then my eyes fell on this cactus at the Airport Shoppe and I thought, yes, this is it. You are mean and difficult on the outside and that's why it's so hard to know you from the inside just like this stupid thorny plant. If you go to touch the plant, you'll hurt yourself.'
He sighed. She just stood there, staring at him and suddenly realizing where this conversation was actually headed.
'You know I am a risk taker. And, you know I hate flowers because I'm allergic to them. And, the only plant I love is... this ugly thorny cactus, which I have in my bedroom and on my office desk!'
'Did you just call me ugly?' She frowned at him.
He had smile on his face because this statement was an indication that she understood what he was trying to say.
'No silly. You are beautiful, were beautiful and will always be so in my eyes, even if you actually look like an old hag after some years.'
'Hey..' She punched him lightly in his stomach and he smiled again.
'I love you' He said it, at last.
After a brief moment of silence and looking into each other's eyes, a tear rolled down her cheek and a smile spread across her face.
'I knew that,' she said and embraced him.

Venue: Office

*sigh*
I don't have anything in my mind right now but I just feel like writing

Imagine you are rummaging through a big and messy drawer and while you are doing so, you suddenly realize that you've forgotten what you were looking for, but you still continue searching and you stumble across many things that you were looking for at some point but couldn't find them then. And then, you either get satisfied with all the other findings or you persistently continue until you get what you were looking for.

Isn't life just like this big and messy drawer?

Yes, in a way...


Tera naam japdi fira (remix)
Somebody that I used to know - Goyte feat. Kimbra

Remember how we were so passionate about friendship once...
And now, we are growing up and as we concentrate on our careers more, we have taken our friendships for granted.
But then, they say that's what friendship is all about, we are allowed to take our friends for granted.
Bah... there're always words like 'acceptance' and 'moving on' that come to your rescue.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Today I feel like creating something very beautiful, something that comes straight from the heart.


Cecilia Ahern writes magical stories. I love her writing. Of what books I've read, she always elaborates the sadness and melancholy of the characters in the story so well that despite the happy ending, I still cannot get over those tragedies. Her stories are all heart-breaking at some point and that's the beauty of it.

I can't make you love me- Ester Dean
Fade into Darkness- Avicii
Alive- Superchick

Happy birthday bloggy doggy! Time flies and you never realize that, most of the times. And, on a day like this, it suddenly strikes you, how far you have traveled along with time.

Too many inhibitions have surrounded me. I don't know whether I should be trusting me, my heart... but then there ain't another option.

I loved the google doodle for today. Its damn cute!

 Lastly, Happy Valentine's day! :)